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Friday, 26 November 2010

Thank goodness for games. And sitcoms and Family Guy to keep me going through the nights. No wonder depression rates are so high in the UK. Dark at 4pm, and then it starts to frost and snow. To make things worse, there is no cybercafes, no mamak and malls & shopping close at 6pm. Terrible shit.

People ask me how do I stand life in vista and IMU. Believe me, I would give anything to be back there again studying. Heck, maybe even Seremban. Ok maybe not, but you get my point. One of the good things here is supposed to be shopping, and even that it is so expensive compared to the US thanks to the ridiculous 18% tax on all items.

On the bright side....exams are over! Now just need to rearrange my portfolio into something half good, and get ready for my SSC report. On the not so bright side....really hope I can pass my OSCEs...damn OBGYN is totally not my thing. Give me paeds anyday.

Tuesday, 9 November 2010

yes this blog is still alive - barely


This has got to be the most useless blog at the moment. Left alone and ignored. Even didn't mention here that I've recently got myself a new laptop (above). And phone (also above). It isn't the Desire HD that I wanted partly due to a lack of funds and, well, I'll just flash this phone with the latest Android 2.2 and make it work till I get the Desire. Or Windows Mobile 7. Whichever.

Oh and OSCEs coming up in 2 weeks covering paeds and OBGYN.

Preparations are...I'm not sure how to describe them actually. I wouldn't say unprepared but...I just hope they wouldn't ask stupid questions. One of the seniors was asked to take a history from a stepdad and a boy, and the boy has been burning and kicking cats and stabbing hamsters. Fun isn't it. All in 7 minutes. Not exactly something you would want as your 1st station.

Kind of scared I suppose. Just looking to pass the OSCE which I suppose if you look at it shouldn't be that difficult but then who am I kidding. Sigh. Just wish that life can be easier right now.

One more month till December. C'mon c'mon c'mon.

Monday, 1 November 2010

hunny...

I wasn't perfect
I done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn't looking for forgiveness
I wasn't laid up by my pride
Just shocked by her attention

Did someone sign me up for love?
I didn't want it
But now I can't live without it

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She's kinda perfect
She's kinda everything I'm not
Yes, she's an angel
It's amazing how she's patient
Even more at times I'm not
She's my conscience

But who decided I'd be hers?
I want to hate them
Cause now I can't live without her

Monday, 4 October 2010

weekend away

Went to Bath over the weekend to help my sis pack up as she is moving back to Malaysia to start a course in medicine instead. It was a good break from Preston plus Bath is such a pretty place as well.




 




Some of the pictures taken with my phone. Not that great but I was too lazy to bring along my camera heh. The last picture, if you look closely, says Gay Street. I know, I am immature, but whatever it's worth a laugh ahaha. 

And then I realized, though I've been to places and many different areas of the world, the one thing that I've been longing for is still you baby. There is nothing more I would want than to head back to KL to be by your side.

And yes, 27 :)

Monday, 27 September 2010

Put your head against my life
What do you hear?
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year

Close your eyes but don't forget
What you have heard
A man who's trying to say three words
The words that make me scared

A million love songs later
Here I am trying to tell you that I care
Million love songs later
Here I am, here I am
Million love songs later
Here I am

Saturday, 18 September 2010

skyflakes

It has been a month since I got back from KL and started paeds. Been feeling tired most days though have not been doing much on the whole. Weird.

Pyjama pubcrawl next week Thursday. To go or not to go hmmm. Sometimes I think I am too old for this shit.

In other news, Sacha Baron Cohen (yes that Borat guy) is due to play FREDDIE MERCURY in a biopic of the Queen legend. Wtf? But still, I will be on the watch for that movie. I love biopics.

I need to start reading more books. Non-medical books. I can feel my written English disintegrating into ashes, with all the online chat lingo and what-not. Lol. Rofl. Ffs, what has the world come to.

Saturday, 4 September 2010

one and a half

People say long-distance relationships do not have happy endings. Looking back, sure there were bad times as well, but I have never felt more in love with you than I've been before. All we have now is looking at each other through the webcam, but just looking at you, I feel at peace. Calm and complete. Seeing your smile always brightens up my day (and night), and it is one thing that keeps me going. 

Strip me bare of all my money, gadgets & possessions, cuz all I want is you. As I sit in my room at nights while you are asleep, I just think how lucky I am to have someone like you waiting for me on the other side of the world. I know I'm blessed with something - someone - no one else will ever have, for you and I will be together for all sempiternity. 


I love you. Happy 18 months my baby.

Sunday, 29 August 2010

Sometimes it is good to just turn on the music and blast it, letting my songs run on shuffle.

As our pictures run on my screensaver, I can only sit and wait and wonder how it will feel like to be having you in my arms again, to shield you from the world, to blanket you with love.

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

Been so tired of late. Jetlag, stupid timetable and most importantly being away from the gf is starting to weigh down on me. Just have to soldier on I suppose.

Recently purchased a new LCD TV and an Xbox360!! Wheeeee! Something I should've done last year. There will still be free time so I guess that's ok. Except for this weekend where I will be on-call Friday through until Sunday. My life is filled with fun.

Already planning the trip back to Malaysia in December. So pricey though sigh. I think I should just not buy any more items from now on till then. Survive on bread and sausages and cucumber + lettuce haha. Not as bad as it sounds actually.

Been quite busy of late and my mind is just occupied with stuff. Sorry baby if it seems like I've been ignoring you in any way, or that somehow you think that I'm not missing you. That's just plain nonsense. There is nothing more that I would rather do than just think about lazing with you on the beach on a sunny afternoon, or watch brainless comedies with you and have gorgeous food with you. It will all be worth it in the end ok? Just got to give it some time I suppose =\ I love you hunny.

Sunday, 15 August 2010

just let me whine

I guess sometimes when you are in a routine, you get so used to it you just don't feel like leaving. Even in Brunei, in this house that I grew up in, with all food provided, cars to use and everything taken care of. It's the same feeling anywhere I suppose; while I was in the UK I felt quite reluctant to leave as well.

But of course you need to take into consideration some other factors as well. Friends. Family. Girlfriend. Right now, I just want to be in KL. In fact, 24 hours from now I will be on the plane across the South China Sea heading for KLIA.

To be honest, I am going to miss Brunei. Not the country, but my house and family. Everything just is so familiar, so carefree, and you can do (almost) anything you like. I have been away for almost a year but when your house is still the one place you can always relate to no matter which ends of the world you have been. Plus I still have so many more hours left on my gym membership card. The laziness of being in Brunei really sucks you in I suppose lol.

Right now thinking about heading back to the UK is pissing me off. Apart from fast internet and freedom and shopping, I can't think of why I would want to head back there. Studies. Ward rounds. PBLs. No car. No meals on the table for me when it is time. Fucking winter coming up. Disgusting food unless I cook. I don't normally mind or complain but oh well.

One more annoying thing is dealing with the house agent and landlord/lady. For fuck's sake. I never had a single day of disturbance from my landlord while I was in IMU. You rent it, you stay there, you do whatever you want. Just as long as you clean up before you finally decide to leave, all is fine. So what is up with these damn spot checks and shit. If I wanted all these routine checks and control I would've just asked my parents to come along and live with me. Obviously it is good to be organised and clean, but come on. The house is goddamn tidy enough for 3 guys living in it.

KL tomorrow. Honestly can't wait anymore. 4 days is a damn short time but I guess we just have to make do with what we've got. Shop. Eat. Cuddle. Good thing is that I get to see you right in the morning as I'm just a floor below you hehe. Wheeeee!

Saturday, 14 August 2010

weekend headlines

I know I have not blogged in a long while, and for a good reason too. There isn't really much happening at the moment other than gym, helping mum and waiting to go back to KL to see my gf. 2 more days!! Brilliant to the max. Seriously cannot wait any more.

I posted this on my facebook wall as well, but I shall do it here too. Just because.


TRIAL RUN.

"Awang Hairul bin Shahri, Head of Retail Brunei Shell Marketing Sdn Bhd said the self-service approach would require customers to park by the petrol pump, go to the store and pay for the required amount."

WOW SERIOUSLY?! What amazing technology.

".....said that the move was also aimed at keeping up with international trends...."

Ok now this is getting embarrassing.

Tuesday, 3 August 2010

meetings

Met up with a few of friends since coming back to Brunei. Relived old times. Good times. Secondary school. International school/college years. In fact just got back from dinner with Aaron, Tiong, Ern & Amanda. Awesome chinese food. Better company though. Just so great to be with close friends again and laugh about the days.

I is missing the gf like mad. Sigh. 2 more weeks is just so so long to go. HURRY UP!!

Friday, 30 July 2010

rumble rumble

In Brunei already. Everyday I get reminders why I absolutely dislike coming back here.

1) no gf
2) slowest internet ever even with broadband wifi in my home
3) mum pissing me off constantly

The list goes on but you get the drift. Plus I'm just too lazy to type. I just cannot wait to get my freedom back, because this is just so very annoying. And people wonder why I don't like to return 'home'. Hah. If this is home I rather stay in KL for my whole holiday from now on, or even stay back in the UK where I can do my own shit.

Probably shouldn't write a post with such angst but oh well. Just 2 days of being back here and I already feel so couped up and controlled. Which sucks. To think that coming back here when I am 22 years old would eliminate this problem I've been having all my life. Guess I was wrong big time. Dad is great, no complains, but mum is on a whole different level.

Anywhobilly, friends are coming back either today or this weekend. Time to meet up. Sigh have no idea how much I miss being in KL and just going wherever I want and spending time with the gf everyday. Especially with the growingly busy schedule I just want to be by her side.

16th August. Then the 21st. Whatever date it is just get me out of here.

Wednesday, 28 July 2010

hip hip hoo-fucking-ray

This is the worst day. For any kind of holiday. The day that the fairytale ends and although you knew all along that it will happen, you are still not and probably never will be prepared for. As I took the KLIA Transit to the airport at 9.25am I thought back of yesterday, and how I was in the elab of IMU at 9.25am, thinking of where to go for lunch and getting ready to watch Inception. Now 24 hours later I am in the airport with no laptop charger (I checked it in yay), 1 more hour to go till the gate opens, and missing my baby so very much. You know how people always wish for money or good results or health or, for perverts and most guys, x-ray vision? I wish for time control and travel. Life will be awesome then.

Sigh.

If only time passes this fast in Brunei and in the UK. Especially in Brunei. Really cannot imagine what the heck I am supposed to do there. Life is never unfair in your favour, and more so when you need it even more.

Passed the arrival gates as I headed to the departure gates earlier, and my mind flashed to about 20 days ago when I arrived in KLIA, and she was there, waiting in the car in between Gates 1 & 2, starving heh. And we went to get McD burgers before heading home.

Life is not a bitch; time is.

Thursday, 22 July 2010

bullshit

I guess this is the problem with going on a holiday and having so much fun. Time flies. Way too quickly. By tomorrow 2.30pm it would be exactly 2 weeks since I touched down in KLIA. Really? 2 weeks?? It sure doesn't seem like it. Ah I can't remember when was the last time I felt so complete. And happy. If days pass as fast as this in the UK I'll be thrilled.

Why did I not pick Seremban again? Oh yes the terrible state + mad exams + unnecessary stress. But still, closer to gf beats everything. Except maybe for summer sales in the UK. Now that I go shopping around KL there is nothing I want to buy as they are all so overpriced. Fcuk flip-flops priced as RM130, and I got mine from Kurt Geiger for only £8 (RM40) inclusive of delivery. Same goes to Topman/Topshop/Warehouse/Dorothy Perkins/Acessorize whatever British outlet they have here. All overpriced with no or low or outdated stock with no sale.

Just had dinner but feeling hungry already. How can a person spend a whole day with someone but still miss him/her at the end of the day. No logic, doesn't make sense, but it is happening.

I guess that is true for most things that are going on in the world anyway.

Monday, 19 July 2010

happy days

Been so tired lately especially after spending most of the days out with Jessica Alba. By the time I come home I can just fall asleep on the bed even with the lights on. Happened twice already.

Can't believe that a week has gone by. Sigh. Screw you Time.

My laptop now. Been messing around with numerous customization programs - Rainmeter, Rocketdock, CursorFX, WindowBlinds to name a few - and in the end settled for this. For now. Still not that happy with the dock hmm.

Full view click here

Thursday, 15 July 2010

This is life

The past few days had been such a blast. Going around with the person I love, eating, hanging out, shopping, getting drunk...cuddling together under the blankets. Spending RM 466 on alcohol, cigar and pizza. Ouch to the max.

This is bad. I napped from 9pm till now 2am. Now what am I gonna do?? I can't go back to bed anymore shits.

Tuesday, 13 July 2010

22

Ah. Past the age of 21. Into adulthood.  Guess I should be happy and celebrating this momentous day. Can't be bothered though haha just become lazier and lazier with age. Terrible. It is as if I have turned 52 instead. It was a great year being 21, but it was a tumultuous one as well with LDR and what nots. Still, not going to complain but instead just going to improve for the year ahead and hope for even better stuff to happen.

Like ManUtd winning the Treble again. PLEASE.

And world peace.

And passing all my exams although I'm coming to a realization that it doesn't matter how much revision I do anymore; it is all about the OSCE examiners' moods on that day. And maybe what color shirt I am wearing, because they sure as hell are not marking us based on skills and knowledge.

Sunday, 11 July 2010

A new beginning

Too damn tired to blog last night. I have no idea why but I just got home, lay on the bed, and was basically knocked out till 4am. Slept again till 7am and gave up. Went hunting for nasi lemak but couldn't find any within the vicinity. Upset.

So I went on Youtube watching random things, and I found this button on selected videos.



















Jokers haha.

Heading out for breakfast soon with the baby. Hungryyyy!!

Friday, 9 July 2010

Day 31

Lazy to blog. Eyes are getting more and more tired. Just had a 14-hour flight from Manchester to Dubai and then onwards to Malaysia. Vanessa was happily sleeping away lucky biatch. I slept in patches and was constantly woken up by fake alerts that food was being served. Damn.

Just had chicken rice after a very long time and it was super awesome! But the company was better :) Felt so good to be back together with the mermaid and seeing her eyes light up as she opened her presents. Being back together with her again is the best thing that has happened to me over the last 6 months.

Love you bee!

Thursday, 8 July 2010

Day 30

I'm officially shitting in my pants right now. Even more excited than waiting for my OSCE or my results. Wow. I can't believe it; tomorrow is the day!! All the counting down, all the waiting, and it has come down to this. A 14-hour flight away from total happiness. Bags all packed, phones charged, passport taken out, money withdrawn. All that's left is for me to get my ass on that plane(s) and sit back and wait.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Close to 7 months now so I think I have the right to scream and shout a little.

Early morning tomorrow taking the cab and then the train all the way to the Manchester Airport. I can't help it; I'm grinning from ear to ear. As I tidied up the house just now and took the trash out, I can clearly remember the time that I went back in December. It felt like yesterday! Totally can't believe that 6 months had flown by just like that. All I can remember from it was Blackburn. I can still remember the snow, the utterly freezing winter, the utterly long winter for some reason and everything else in between. Scrubs pub crawl. Blackburn pub sessions. Life was good there. Though I will only be gone for 2 months or so, I feel I will miss my Preston room and to a certain extent UK as well.

For now though, I'm just waiting to give the biggest hug of the century to the best girl in the world. Leave the reminiscing and what not to the end of August.

Wednesday, 7 July 2010

Day 29

Everything is ready. Packed. Just have to settle some cheques tomorrow. Holy shits I'm getting closer and closer to what I've been waiting for since January. Just one more last day of teachings tomorrow afternoon and I'm seriously seriously done with 3rd Year. 

Listening to Royal Radio now all the way from The Netherlands lol. For some reason my widget can't play Kerrang! UK radio station sobs. That station is the best radio station. That and Kiss 100 FM. Guess I need to open it in my Chrome then. KERRANG!!!! Playing all the awesome rock songs. In fact as I type this, they are playing the new single Crossfire by Brandon Flowers (The Killers). Loving it. All the new songs I can get first hand and unlike all the stations in Malaysia which - not to say are not good - mostly play overrated and overplayed R&B songs. Can't stand it. Hip-hop is fine I suppose depending on the mood, but please no R&B.

In spite of all the downloads and free music, radio is somehow still the best. I guess its the surprise factor; the fact that you have no idea what song they are going to play next. Plus its nice to hear the DJs, well most of them anyway. 

Tuesday, 6 July 2010

Day 28

Tuesday. Wednesday. Thursday.

Just 3 more days till I finally lift off from Manchester and head to Dubai and onwards to KL. Goodness knows how much I long to be back there again together with her. Just imagine being back there is already driving me nuts.

Breakdown of the OSCE results was released earlier today. I've seen some ridiculous things in my life but this just trumps all. I mean, what the hell? How do these people even do the grading for this shit! I did a totally different system examination for one station and passed, but failed an explanation station regarding fucking high blood pressure. For fuck's sake. Hypertension!! And scored almost full marks for diverticulosis explanation.

HOW??

Even IMU has a more standardized marking scheme. And it's not just me ranting for the sake of it; even people over in the Uni of Liverpool have been complaining. They even had a board of examiners look into their marking system because they had one of the highest fail rates for OSCEs in the country.

Ahh anyway, a pass is a pass. In the end, it is the label 'Doctor' that counts. Highly doubt they will grade a Chinese - or a foreigner that looks oriental - high marks for communication over here anyway. So just got to live with it. Plus do well for the sake of the patients not the examiners. My feedback reviews from patients have been excellent so far so I see no reason to change. For now.

Monday, 5 July 2010

Day 27

Just a few more days. FEW MORE DAYS. How I've longed to say those words, so few yet meaning the world to me. So fucking exciteddddddd that I've already started packing. Almost done with it as well.

SSC report done as well. Excellent. Handed in the final copy earlier today to save me the trouble of remembering it for the next few days. Can't care anymore about the report; I just want to go home.

Been playing The Sims 3: Ambitions lately hehe. My sim is well on his way to be a rock star haha, and may start off a professional career in sports as well. In addition to that he has twins with the person I don't remember LOL. Hey at least I got her (and the twins) to move into my mansion of a house, which has a simbot to help me clear all my rubbish, dishes & clothes. Of course it has a pool. Of course it has a huge statue of Atlas in the garden. Of course it has a trampoline and the most expensive BBQ pit. Of course it has 3 of the most expensive cars available in the game. Welcome to the life of a rock star!

Now to transfer his riches to my real life.

Sunday, 4 July 2010

Day 26

Whooop. Just got home from the after-party after The Review, both which were smashing! Such a great use of the night, rather than being cooped up in the room playing mindless games. Or doing reports. Had more cans of beer than I care to elaborate but shocking not pissed. Nice. To be fair all the music and dancing might have taken that away. Best place ever for a house party. Even had a dance floor with disco lights, speakers all around and a fucking smoke machine.

One step to being more sociable with the whole batch, which coincidentally is one of my aims for the new semester after the summer. Glastonbury 2011 is being planned as well and at the moment it's looking prefect.


Registration is done. This year's lineup was sweet with Muse, Scissor Sisters, Gorillaz, Snoop Dogg, Shakira, Jack Johnson, Norah Jones, Editors, Grizzly Bear, Temper Trap, Joshua Radin, MGMT and many many others all making it. Damn. Not gonna miss this for the world. Only perhaps if that is the time when I can head back to KL to see someone, then maybe (just maybe) I will miss it :)

BBQ tomorrow! And to be fair I need the sleep. Beastie Boys still pounding out my speakers now woohoo! Old school shit coming out now. Sabotageeeeeeee.

And I know it isn't supposed to mean anything, but today is still a special day for us. We will celebrate this day again in the future I can assure you that. It won't be long now. Furthermore it's just 6 more days! Seriously I've never waited in anticipation for a day this much before. I love summer holidays.

Saturday, 3 July 2010

Day 25

Words just cannot describe, how I feel at this moment of time. Just imagine, in less than a week's time I will be there, back with you in Malaysia, land of 'peace and equality', but lets not go there. The less said about that issue the better.

Passed my OSCE. Just. But considering the state that I was in I have no complains. In fact I'm more than happy to have passed. 

Going for The Review later, hopefully it will be a nice show. 

The mermaid is in Cameron Highland's for the weekend, no one to skype with. Sigh. But at least she is having fun up there so that is great. Rather than having her stressing over her work and lectures. I miss her so much sigh.

Friday, 2 July 2010

Day 24

Just got back from the Committee Handover dinner and to be honest I'm slightly tipsy - slightly being an understatement - so I'm just gonna keep this short and sweet.

I can finally say this....

1 MORE BLOODY WEEK!!

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Day 23

8 8 8 8 8 8 8 more days! Super excited nowadays I can barely sleep! So close I can sniff you. Just the thought of seeing you in the airport is already driving me nuts. Plus the planned dinner at Hajime Restaurant in KL on the first night back. AHHHHHHH!

Went to help out at the Preston College this morning doing health checkups and consultations for the staff. Had free lunch as well so was well worth the effort and time haha.

Committee handover dinner tomorrow night. I'm taking over the International Rep post for 2010/11. Yea it's a rather crap-not-so-important post but heck with it, at least some of us actually tried. Rather than just sitting back and saying, "Oh that is a useless post", "Sure can't make a difference la" etc etc. Shit attitude. Plus it will look good in my CV anyway so oh well. Lol.

What a terribly warm night. Plus without any wind as well. Even opening the windows isn't helping. Or finishing my tub of Haagen Dazs.

Wednesday, 30 June 2010

Day 22

9 more days.
Till I'm back with you.
Till I get to see you again.
Till I get to finally squeeze you tight.
Till I will be able to give you your presents.

:)

My house is empty now. Quite depressing at nights. Guess just have to keep busy with games and more games. Oh and doing my case report as well.

The university is keeping us in the ultimate suspense regarding out OSCE results hmm. Ridiculous wait.

Tuesday, 29 June 2010

great impressions!

Family Guy S08E21



Funniest episode I've watched in ages!!

Day 21

Just had my awesome dinner while watching Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood and I realized, next week's episode is going to be the last one!! Fuck. You know how a series just ends and you've been following it since day 1. Yea. Sucks big time. It has been voted the best Japanese Anime according to a few polls already and I certainly can see why. A fucking good plot better than any Hollywood bullshit, comedy, action fight scenes and sentiment enough to make you cry at times; this show has it all.


Thanks to Tan Ek Guan who introduced me to FMA in IMU haha. Even before this Brotherhood series. It is the only anime I watch, and considering how I generally don't fancy anime, it has to be really good to catch my attention.

Hmm. I'm already halfway through my tub of Haagen-Dazs. And watching Family Guy - absolutely hilarious shit. Life is good.

And it will get better in 10 days time! If only you know how much I miss you.

Monday, 28 June 2010

Day 20

10 more days left! Need I say more? 

Decided to watch The Departed again at night. To fill my free time. Glad I did, it is such an awesome movie. Jack Nicholson is a freaking legend. 

Can't wait to pack my bags and head back to you. It is times like these I'm so glad I'm alive. Sometimes I feel it is the only reason to be alive. Love.

Went to church this morning after a very long time. Different from ECF, but good nonetheless. Thinking of heading to ECF at least once when I get back to KL. We'll see.

Waiting to make a phone call now before sleep. Best part of the day coming right up.

Sunday, 27 June 2010

!

My latest blog post has gone missing. Again. This is damn weird. What the hell is wrong with Blogger.

Anyway needing to prepare now for church. Yeps finally going again after almost a year hiatus. Kind of scared though. Let's hope that it goes well.

And thank you for being there to talk to me last night when I felt massively upset. Speaking of clichés - which I posted yesterday but now it's gone - people say that suicide is a coward's way out. And then again, sometimes it is the only way out.

Saturday, 26 June 2010

Day 19

I've found a reason to show,
a side of me you didn't know,
a reason for all that I do,
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.

Friday, 25 June 2010

Day 18

I realize, I still have a long way to go.

But you're always willing to wait. I will probably never understand why I'm so lucky. Which is why when you mention the word 'holiday', I just couldn't hold it in anymore.

I don't deserve it. I hope I will in the near future.

The house is so depressingly empty now. Doesn't even feel like a home anymore. I hate the night time. Sigh.

Thursday, 24 June 2010

Day 17

Exactly 2 more weeks till I head to KL!!! In fact by this time in 2 weeks I'll be on the Emirates flight to Dubai and onwards to M'sia hehe. If this is not excited I don't know what will be. I can barely wait. Daniel heading back tomorrow though that lucky bastard. And then there were 2 left in the house. And it will soon just be me as Dom is also moving out by this weekend. Sad.

I decided to reformat my laptop. Suddenly got laggy and it was starting to piss me off. All the damn registry problems and duplicated files. I didn't know which one to delete so I just went for broke.

Had a massive Thai dinner just now lol. Ordered the set meal - which was dead cheap for the amount - which was actually for two people. I think I've settled my next 4 meals or so haha.

Tired. Packed day tomorrow. Think I'll just fall asleep and dream of you.

Wednesday, 23 June 2010

Day 16



I miss you so so much.

Tuesday, 22 June 2010

Day 15

FINALLY watched a movie today with my date. Thriller, and it was good.

I wish I could do this everyday for life. Go to work in the morning - which got cancelled, twice - and come back and sit back, relax, talk to my loved one and cuddle up to watch a movie before bed. Awesome. Oh not to mention walk the dog hehe.

Just had supper with Dom lol had kebab takeaway. Reminds me of the times in IMU when Dom & I (sometimes Stephen) would head to Ajimal for mamak then to the CC. Ahh IMU life was fun fun fun. Late nights, poker, Genting casinos, clubbing, getting drunk; you name it. It is just one of those memories that will always stick in your head I suppose, and possibly never going to occur again. Life eh. Just got to live in the moment and enjoy it as much as possible. Just looking ahead in a few years time we will actually have jobs and more responsibilities. Scares me sometimes.

Feels like yesterday I first stepped into IMU to begin this rather torturous medical life, and had that orientation. And IMU looked like a shopping mall literally and only consisted of medics, pharmacists & nursing students. And cheap canteen food.

Feels like yesterday we were all in KKB and a certain Mr Fong Zhi Ven was frantically lighting mosquito coils and emptying cans of mosquito repellent haha! And playing dotA in that best CC in the world lol. Desperate times call for desperate measures eh.

I think the one thing I fear the most is being alone. Not just in a relationship but also in general. Human beings were never made to be happy alone.

Monday, 21 June 2010

Day 14

This will be a short post. Needing to sleep to wakeup early tomorrow.

Ahhhh frustrating day. Waited the whole day to skype and when the time came I had to play football as they didn't have enough people.

And had to spend the entire night doing the portfolio and report sigh. That and I start at 8am tomorrow and I have a 2pm ICU ward round. Hopefully that won't take long.

18 more days haha! More and more becoming a reality to seeing you again.

I know I haven't been the best to you. Looking back there are so many things that I should've and could've done differently, but I didn't. Guess I messed up big. I won't again.

Sunday, 20 June 2010

Day 13

Pffft. Busy doing portfolio and also writing up the case report. Had an awesome afternoon though with the BBQ, the food was just damn freaking good. Speaking of which I am hungry now and having the urge to eat something.

And I just got back with instant noodles. Just remembered anyway that I didn't have dinner haha. Better late than never I suppose. No wonder I have been so hungry the whole night! Been to caught up in my 'interesting' case of malignant otitis externa caused by pseudomonas. And sucking on the jawbreaker, which I can proudly say almost halfway through. 

19 more days till I'm back in KL. Wheeeeeeeeeeee! Having a movie date tomorrow with someone. Let's just say I have a good feeling bout this. It's been awhile since I've watched a movie as well I'm getting quite excited. 

Great. My diet today has been:
1) LOTS of BBQ meat
2) Half a bottle of Pepsi
3) Candy
4) Crunchie
5) Instant noodles

In trouble? Oh well. 

Saturday, 19 June 2010

Day 12

Yea I know, my latest posts have been shite and moody and depressing. So here are some pictures :)

Decided to visit the online candy shop and found this awesome website called http://www.chocolatebuttons.co.uk/, and my mouth just started watering. Candy can seriously make you forget all your problems lol.

The quintessential Jelly Belly!! Only got 200grams of this as it was the new Ice Cream Parlour version. Going to purchase 1.8kg of the original 50 flavours to bring back to KL!

This jawbreaker is nuts. Each packer like this one contains ONE jawbreaker which is around 6cm in diameter. I think it is going to take me a week to get through this candy rock haha. Hyperglycemic times ahead.

As requested by the mermaid, melon marshies. Ahhh even as I type this I can feel the sugars filling up my veins (and arteries). I suddenly feel like going rock climbing. Or maybe a jog around the neighbourhood. Damn jawbreaker :D

For Fiona. Don't worry mermaid I got you two other surprises haha. You can tell your sister you are welcome, and that Bob says hi all the way from Jon's cupboard. I know this sounds gay but fucking hell this is damn cute. Plus Yomiko Classics are just so soft and cuddly.

That was the glucose.

Been doing my work tonight instead of playing online games. Felt the urge to tidy up my portfolio - review due on the 22nd anyway - and also started ever so slightly on my case report. Some nut got me all worried cuz she was high and tipsy but claimed she was ok. Luckily didn't drive herself home else I would've flown back to KL this instant to smack her. Plus lost her parking ticket some more that genius. Tsk tsk.

BBQ tomorrow!! Let's hope it is a sunny day like yesterday and not a shit gloomy one like today. But as long as there isn't rain I'll be more than happy. World Cup has been a total waste of time so far. Especially if you are watching France or England. Or even Spain for that matter. Especially England. Golden generation my ass. England should never compete in any competition again, and all their players should just retire and start selling fish 'n' chips they might score then. Draw with a country who plays football with hands, and then again today with Algeria, whom Rooney claims he knows no one in the team. Real smooth.

Bahh sugar high is running off. Right then.

Friday, 18 June 2010

Day 11

Totally knackered from football, but it was good. Finally exercised after 6 months?? Ridiculous. This when I needed to exercise and go for trainings every other day of the week when I was in Brunei. Before IMU. Being healthy was good.

I suck at surprises. Seriously terrible at it. Especially if it's something that I've planned or bought. Someone got to teach me that.

Have to start doing my portfolio with more seriousness. And also needing to start on my SSC report. What is going to make things worse is the fact that my patient has already been discharged and I don't think I've enough information. Fuck's sake. Think I'll just read through her file.

Had another talk today about the future, and if there will ever be one. Quite upsetting actually hearing that there might not be. Just trying so hard to push that aside and working on myself at the same time salvaging what is left of us. It isn't easy I know but then again I started all of this. The more I think about it sometimes I get more agitated/annoyed/frustrated at myself. If there is something that I can do right this instant to remedy this situation I would go to the ends of the world to get it.

But there isn't. So we'll just have to wait. And pray.

Thursday, 17 June 2010

Day 10

I really got to place a notice on the outside of my gate stating that any parcels for me that cannot fit through the door to the hair saloon are to be placed in the washing machine area beyond the gates which are not locked. Hate the fact of having to wait yet another day for my items to arrive due to the rescheduling or (in my case today thanks to Parcelforce) having to go to the post office myself to collect it. Wasting time.

But I guess it's 100000x  better than the postage service in Malaysia, where either:
1) it doesn't deliver
2) delivered way late
3) delivered in a horrible condition / some items missing (happened to me before, some items were stolen wtf)
4) no one answers the phone in the office if you call to enquire or arrange redelivery
5) is there such a thing as a redelivery??

Looking at my calender now I realize there is exactly 3 more weeks left till I head back to KL. If that isn't awesome I don't know what is. That and passing my OSCEs and the Progress Test. And of course getting back together with someone. I know it is such a premature thing to say and predict but I really have a good feeling about us. Doing my best over here to change for the better I just need a little help from you to guide me through it all.

And the world will soon be ours again.

Wednesday, 16 June 2010

Day 9

Yet another day draws to a close. And we get closer and closer to seeing each other again. True, we are in a complicated state right now, but I assure you it will all change in the future. Working on me, working on us.

Speaking about the future, I can't wait already! It's just 3 more weeks to go to absolute freedom for me hehe. As I type my sister is probably almost touching down in Brunei already. Ahhh airplanes. I'm going to develop a hatred of flying soon. But the thought of there being something and someone to go back to makes it so much easier. Imagine being cramped up for 15 hours in a flying metal can + crying babies + annoying people sitting next to you + fat + smell. Terrible lol.

World Cup matches have been quite a bore so far. North Korea played surprisingly well though; Brazil almost managed to screw up. Typical. Portugal and Ivory Coast tried to rival France and Uruguay for worst shit game ever played.

I think you are the prettiest mermaid I know :)

Tuesday, 15 June 2010

Little things that you do to brighten my life

Sweet and romantic sounding title right? :D

Conversation between Erica & I:

Me:       So what is the size of the bikini that you want? 16 right?
Erica:     Damn mean I don't wanna talk to you anymore.
Me:       Lol I know it's 6 okay!
Erica:     NO IT'S 18.
Me:       Hahahaha if it's 18 might as well don't go to the beach.

Day 8

Had never felt so close to you in such a long time. Really felt that today was such a great day though I know you were pretty upset about the whole issue after that. Honestly though I really really wished it was under different circumstances, but then again as I said, I have never felt that close to you in ages.

A few more weeks and I'll be back in KL. Already made a list of things to do and eat, and a list of places to go as well. Ahhh I really can't bear to wait any longer!

If I can look at you at smile the whole day and all the pain will go away, I will. I really really just want us to be happy, and I guess only time can show that. I'll be here.

Monday, 14 June 2010

fate

Left my iTunes on last night to see which song I'll wakeup to, to test the powers of destiny. Instead, I found the power of God. Amazing. Coincidence? I don't think so. By the way this group is my favourite Christian band ever. They are just so good, both their old and new albums. 


Tenth Avenue North - Hallelujah
At first I am afraid but not because of fear
But the Holy of Holies is drawing me near
Your voice like thunder shakes the ground I'm on

So hide my face in the shadow of Your wings, oh Lord
Hide my sin from the beauty here before Your throne
Your throne

Hallelujah for the blood of the Lamb that was slain
Hallelujah for the blood of the Lamb that was slain
And so we enter in to see Your face, yeah
We enter in to see Your face, oh God

Well I'm falling to my knees. I feel the earth beneath
With the weight of my sin, and this crushing unbelief
Could You really love me with all that I've done, oh Lord

You spread Your hands
And made a refuge for the weak and blessed
The weary, bruised, and broken
Took our sin. Inside Your wounds we hide away
Inside Your wounds we hide



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Day 7

How much are we willing to leave to fate and destiny? Till what extend are we ready to a chance on something or someone? How much should we rely on our intuition?

Clearly life is messed up. It is like an absolute tornado of uncertainty and vagueness. It chews you up and spits you out, leaving you to crumble in a heap on the cold hard earth. Why? Why are we so willing to fight for our survival when life is clearly intent on destroying us sooner or later? Is the few moments of glory worth all that we are doing?

For me it's the people that we meet along the way. Friends, enemies, lovers, you. One look at those eyes and I can see myself at 60 y/o, still looking at those eyes, still thinking how did I manage to get someone like you and still have the heart to throw it all away. I can see the house, the car, the dogs, the job...everything. Just from one look. It's just amazing.

I just wish I didn't hurt you the way I did. You deserve better.

Sunday, 13 June 2010

Day 6

Just for a moment, I closed my eyes and I thought I could reach out my fingers through the webcam over to your side. Just for a moment, it felt like old times. Just for a moment, I just wanted to kiss you through the webcam and say those 3 words.

Then the moment was gone. And I realized, how far we have come, and how far we have left to go.

But as I said before, if there is one thing I'm sure of, it is this. Us. Never has it been in my mind was there another way we could end up. Sucks being patient, but I will.

It will all be worth it in the end, I just know it.

Saturday, 12 June 2010

Day 5

Another day of ups and extreme downs. Talking to you made everything seemed better if only for awhile. But still reality hit me hard, like some cruel bitch mother. All the things that we used to do and say together cannot be said. All the things that we planned cannot be carried out.


Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Oh haven't I always loved you?


But you are right. What I did was inexcusable. The fact that we are even talking like normal people should be good enough for me isn't it? Sigh.

My rehab is going well in any case. It is hard to show it, but you have to take my word for it. And I'm not gonna just let it go after a few months, or years for that matter. I want to make sure that it sticks in my head till the ends of time.

World Cup 2010 kicked off as well today. 2 games, 2 draws. Sad. England playing tomorrow against the USA will be the highlight of the games, but then again don't get your hopes up for England. People have been saying that the USA don't know jack about "sawker" but does England? Well they better perform as expected.

Friday, 11 June 2010

Day 4

Things have become much clearer now between us. Things to say and things not to.

It has not been easier - in fact sometimes it's worse than ever.

And like I told you on the phone yesterday, what if tomorrow never comes? Will you know how much I care about you and how I feel about you?

Can't wait for you to get back from your holiday and to be able to skype with you again. I wish I can snap my fingers and - bam! - a year has passed sigh. I just want things to be back to the way they were before. When it was perfect. Perfect for us.

Thursday, 10 June 2010

Day 3

Had my OSCEs today. Screwed up one station out of the 16, but I really really hope I passed. My head wasn't even in the exam sigh. And skipped the after-OSCE party in Manchester as well. Just not in the mood. Instead came back and helped Dom prepare for his OSCE tomorrow heh.

I seriously don't know how I'm gonna do this. True that we are working on things, but waaaaa it's a long and winding road. But yea I know, there is no shortcut in love, and there is no rushing it either. We probably shouldn't had rushed into it the last time and yea I know, we should not make the same mistake twice.

Still, this is torture. In the worst possible way.

Still, looking forward to July and KL and you. It's like doing it all over again the long long way.

Wednesday, 9 June 2010

Day 2

Thank you.

For this chance. This time it's for real, I will make the change.

So, hi I'm Jon, and I would like you to know me better.

Tuesday, 8 June 2010

Day 1

Going insane. Literally. I think I'm going to develop some pseudobipolar disorder.

One minute I'm thinking I'm ok; the next I'm blowing my freaking brains out.

I repeated it to myself 100 times (I counted to make sure), I must do this, MUST.

No matter what it takes, if this is what I need to do to gain back your trust, so be it.

Like you said, this isn't over. Yet.

I will change. I must. Just you wait and see. I wiped away the dust on my Bible earlier on today, and realized what a terrible person I had suddenly morphed into. I wasn't like this before. Now I hardly recognize myself when I look in the mirror. I've got to find my way back somehow, to the person I was before - or an even better one. Over the years I've become more and more a hypocrite, becoming the man I always hated. This is far enough. Deep down inside I have always known that I was free-falling to a doom, but I always chose to ignore it. I had no reason to care. Not anymore. Not if changing can give me back my life.

I only wish you are here with me through all of this.

Monday, 7 June 2010

Please Forgive Me



lyrics can't be any more right.

15 & stop

You say start over,
I say let's.
You say let's be friends,
I say let's.
You say let's work it over,
I say let's.
You say it'll take a few years,
I say let's.

I'm in a rut. OSCE in 2 days. This is not the time, not the time. Only got myself to blame for this. How. Why. Maybe it's for the best.
Maybe it isn't.
Maybe I want it now.
Maybe I want you now.
Maybe I can't always get what I want.
Maybe I need to come clean.
Maybe my whole world has now fallen apart.

Saturday, 5 June 2010

MGS


Holy shits what a terrible time for this game to be released!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Just finished the 2nd mission :D

Saturday, 29 May 2010

As always, I'm the one left out.

Piss off.

Thursday, 20 May 2010

RIP


Ronny James Dio passed away on the 16th and I didn't realize it until today?! For those who don't know him, he is, or rather was a heavy metal/rock artist. Had his own band called Dio in the 80s and more recently Heaven and Hell, and also fronted numerous metal groups such as Elf, Rainbow and more famously Black Sabbath. Died of stomach cancer. Wow. He popularised the use of the heavy metal horn sign head banging thingy (as shown in pic), and though not as huge as Michael Jackson's death - d'uh - he will be missed.

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

New Ted Baker sneakers came in through the post last week! £65 from Kurt Geiger haha.

Finally. Haven't had a pair of proper sneakers all this while.

Progress test was yesterday and I was stunned by the amount of pregnancy questions -_- totally no idea how to answer them sigh. OSCEs in 3 weeks' time, gotta start preparing for it.

Business on eBay is going well though :D

Sunday, 16 May 2010

crying out loud

Progress test coming up on Monday. Had been trying to study in Blackburn as the library there is really conducive for studying. This whole weekend has been wasted though lol as usual can't get any work done in my room. Terrible.

Have not been updating my blog as often as I used to. Just busy plus really nothing much going on lately. Oh trying to have an online business on eBay. Have around 10 items to sell so we'll see how that goes. Hopefully able to raise some extra cash to bring back to KL my holiday with the gf :)

Random stuff:
1) David Cameron is the new British PM. Crap.

2) Hype building again for the Three Lions for the upcoming World Cup. Crap.

3) Gf's sister's bestie's sister is now Miss Malaysia 2010. Congrats Nadine! Not crap.

4) Progress test tomorrow and OSCEs in a month's time. Crap.

5) Gf having a normal life again after a hellish EOS month. Not crap.

6) Been listening to David Gray since I was in lower secondary in Brunei where they HAD British radio stations; just downloaded his Greatest Hits album. Chances are you would've heard of his songs on Scrubs or Gray's Anatomy or some series. Legend!! Not not crap.

7) Posting in Blackburn is ending soon. Feeling quite sad as it was a great learning experience. Crap.

Sunday, 2 May 2010

and so it is

My hacked AVG Internet Security 9.0 was finally blacklisted after almost a year of use yesterday lol. So I decided to buy an original product this time haha. Support the industry if you can I suppose, if you can afford it.

So I went on eBay (haha support; the irony) to search for a cheap source and was torn between Kaspersky, BitDefender and VIPRE, which I eventually bought after reading numerous reviews. It came ahead of BitDefender and Kaspersky even for the latest 2010 version. They all cost around 8pounds for 1 year 1 PC which was fine by me.

And honestly, VIPRE is an awesome internet security software!! Seller was from US, he just sent me the download link and the registration code was sent direct from Sunbelt Software, VIPRE's developers in the US. Nice and easy whole transaction took me 10 minutes. Plus this is the premium version which includes BOTH internet security and antivirus.


Sorry AVG, thanks for the memories. And a year's worth of money saved.

Sunday, 25 April 2010

Must watch


Holy shitballs. Ip Man 2 out in HongKong in just 5 days time!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i wanna watch!

Saturday, 24 April 2010

But helpless pieces in the game He plays
Upon this chequer-board of Nights and Days
He hither and thither moves, and checks ... and slays
Then one by one, back in the Closet lays.

ermm...surprise erica mak!




This has got to be the best phone out there now. Honestly. It is just so damn awesome I feel like getting one for myself as well! Sorry baby it was meant to be a surprise but yea FedEx is, well, expensive mostly due to the charges at the Malaysian customs, and no one is heading back to KL now as well. But man, fuck me silly, because this phone is just so good! Compared to this my LG is shit sorry to say. What can I say, Sony Ericsson is still the best.

Sony Ericsson Xperia X10

I would say £300 well spent!

Speaking of which one of my phones just died on me. My SE K810i sobs :( I use that phone to call back home and I was restarting the phone and it just didn't want to start up anymore. Just displayed flashing lights. Sad. 3 years now it has let a good life. Means I need to get a phone for my Orange sim card. !@%$!%~$!%#!@

Saturday, 17 April 2010

shazam!





Look what came through the post today :D

Yes yes I'm 21. But who gives a shit when it comes to comics. Seriously. Plus this is a freaking encyclopedia, which come to think of it, I would read ten times more than anatomy books. Pictures are less than perfect I noticed the lighting in my room sucks and I didn't want to use flash. Well I was just lazy to tinker with the aperture settings as I really wanna get back to the book haha.

DC universe freaking rules! Marvel is just annoying with their Iron Man, Spidey, Hulk, F4, X-Men etc etc.

20 pounds well spent I would definitely say. Hardcover as well.

Tuesday, 6 April 2010

crafted

The Aberdeen people came and left, and I wish them all the luck up there in the cold north. It was great fun having a big group around again with familiar faces. Especially talking nonsense till 4 - 5am with Nagen haha. Gonna miss them all as the house becomes empty again and the weather just isn't going to improve. Grey grey grey grey grey clouds can drive people to depression - hence the insanely high rate of depression among people here. Can't blame them. Never in my life have I been missing the sun so much. Never thought of how important it is; both heat and rays of brightness. Looking out now all I see grey clouds, wet roads and dirty brown brick roofs. Sounds like something from an Oasis music video but it ain't glamorous at all. Sure, it is peaceful, but it is equally as dead.

Some things are just meant to be. Just as how some people are meant for each other. How does one know though? I mean, among the millions of people in the world, why her? Why him? I suppose it depends on each individual to decide this, but for me, all I can say is that when I am down and out and feeling like shit, you called right on time to brighten up my day and you are the only one that can do that. I love you bee.

Sunday, 4 April 2010

Lucky 13

My gift from Malaysia. Thanks baby I love you muchly :) I know times have been tough of late but as always we will pull through it all. Plus it is our 13month-sary as well! I already know this, but I will not stop reminding myself how lucky I am to be with someone like you Erica.

Also thanks to Rachel who brought it over. Yea the Aberdeen people have been here and Preston is one of their stops haha. Jenan and Terrence Peter were here for the past two days and we will meet up with them again tomorrow in Manchester. Been having drinking parties with Nagen coming over from Leeds as well, but I just wasn't up for it last night sorry guys.

Easter break is well and truly under way!

Saturday, 27 March 2010

CnC 4

Downloaded and kickin' ass in it now. What a great game!

heaven & hell

Wow. What a great night out in Manchester for the pubcrawl. Such a damn pity we had to leave at 11pm as we had to catch the last train back to Blackburn. Fuck. Imagine 600+ medical students running around the town in scrubs - green, blue & maroon - shouting and jumping around like monkeys hahaha. Awesome. Plus I had about 10 vodka shots as they were only a pound each. Wheeeeeeee. Pity I didn't bring my camera along. No good sharp pics. Pity couldn't get to stay till 2am.

Also in Manchester last night was 50Cent wtf. In the Manchester Evening News Arena in Victoria Station. Nice crowd. Could even smell weed in the air when we walked past them.

I need to start saving money to spend when I get back to KL. For our little getaway! :)

Saturday, 20 March 2010

Kopparbergggggg

What a week. Been busy and surprisingly tired throughout this whole week sigh. Let's just hope that the next one is way better.

Just done with GP; 3 weeks just flew by. Crazy. In GI surgery next. Generally never liked surgery and probably never will. Gonna start studying next week as well need to read up and not look like an idiot in front of the surgeons. How I wish I can just graduate now and be a GP. And earn cash. Honestly. Whoever said that they wanted to just save the world and save the people is talking some serious cock.

Pub crawl this Thursday! It's a Scrubs Pub Crawl in Manchester. Sounds pretty fucken AWEEEEEEE-someeee!

This is the email we got:

"Hello boys and Girls hope everyone is enjoying their placements wherever they may be, If not The Manchester Scrubs Pubcrawl is next Thursday - 25th March.
For those who are not aware, the scrubs crawl is basically what it says on the tin - a pubcrawl around Manchester in scrubs. So if you have ever wondered what Manchester city center looks like when 5 years of mostly inebriated medical students all descend on mass wearing scrubs I suggest you tag along.

The committee are proposing that we organise a mini-bus to pick us up from preston around 6-7pm to take us to Manchester, and then be picked up outside colosseum (Mtwo if you are old school) around 2am, thus avoiding the need for public transport, or sobriety for those who would otherwise be driving. This has worked well in the past, and was suggested by some students at the feedback dinner.

MONEY - I have had a quote from one company - £140 return for a 16 seater, thats only £8.75 per person, which is a pretty good deal I think you will agree!
If you are interested please email me with your details at Adam.joghee@student.manchester.ac.uk

This promises to be a really good night and it would be great to get as many people involved as possible, we can always book extra mini-buses if needs be.

FYI - the planned route is:

- Union
- Jabez Clegg
- Footage
- Revs Ox Road
- Joshua Brooks
- O'sheas
- Tribecca
- Baa Bar
- Paramount
- Varsity
ENDING AT
☆ COLISEUM ☆

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=343171423211&ref=ts

** DISCLAIMER - The committee, although not necessarily disapproving of the 'temporary' theft of RPH scrubs, will not accept liability for such actions**

What a great disclaimer hahaha.

Sunday, 14 March 2010

Hachi

What a heart-wrenching movie :( Watched it with the gf who ended up crying buckets. But seriously it is a good movie. Do watch!

Having Thai now for dinner. Awesomeness.

Saturday, 13 March 2010

Greatest view



Wow this was almost 10 years ago and now he is 30 years old and looks so damn different.

life is good

Preston for the weekends! It's good to be back in my own room with the speakers blasting and with the internet right in front of me on my 15" instead of my LG phone. Though I must say Blackburn is just great to be at too. Giving me the college dorm lifestyle that I never had. Plus the group that went with me (Malaysians and Putihs) is an awesome group. But it is always good to be back 'home' I have to admit.

Been 'working' in one of the GPs in Blackburn for the past 2 weeks. I say working as I have my own consultation room and I'm half-prescribing already. Great can I just quite med school now and be a GP and earn some hard cash? Don't judge, I'm just being realistic and honest. Money is still a kind of a big deal. Plus was also giving out flu and travel vaccines. I really love being attached to this GP of mine. Guess a big part of that is - no not good experience, rather - free lunches hahaha. Sexy kebabs. You would think that doctors will be smarter than to order oily and fatty food for meals. Hahaha who am I kidding I couldn't give half a rat's ass. Food is still food (especially free ones).

Gonna go on a mad downloading spree now to compensate on lost time this week and next week too. Though I must say that I have not been in the mood to watch any movies at all hmmm. Just been enriching my ears with music, and rotting my eyes with Family Guy old seasons haha. Still damn funny shit.

Counting down the months/days till I get back into your arms. Till I know I'm home :)

Silverchair - The Greatest View

Tuesday, 9 March 2010

i miss you my angel

So far away from where you are
these miles have torn us worlds apart
and i miss you
yeah i miss you

so far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
and i wish you were here

i miss the years that were erased
i miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
i miss all the little things
i never thought that they'd mean everything to me

i feel the beating of your heart
i see the shadows of your face
just know that wherever you are
yeah i miss you
and i wish you were here

Monday, 8 March 2010

much ado about nothing

How fast the weekends passed. Came back to Preston on Friday and before I know it I'm heading back to Blackburn in 30mins time. Went for Peichii and Eilyn's housewarming party last night. Was good fun, plus managed to devour Luqman's ayam masak merah haha. And played a few rounds of Mafia.

Girlfriend busy with exams and reports as always. Wish I can help in some way heh, but I should concentrate on helping myself first haha. With my theory coming up in May and OSCEs in June. Just 2-3 months time now that I come to think about it. Crap.

I miss my guitar. Maybe I should bring it over when I head back this summer.

Johnny Cash - Hurt

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

Even for a moment

Back in Preston! Though just for a day lol. Heading back to Blackburn later in the evening haha. G.P at 9am tomorrow morning and I don't really feel excited about waking up at 6am to catch the bus and then the train and then a cab. Reason to come back: to skype with the girlfriend because it's our anniversary!!

A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look I took your hand.
As our lives engaged,
you lit my life and we have never looked back.
Now that a year has passed,
ours souls have become one.
How fortunate we are
that we have found the love so true
that everyone dreams about.

I love you :) Happy anniversary to us!!

What a time to start Blackburn sigh. In fact, I wish I can be back in KL now. Seriously can't wait to get myself back there. I know life is making it hard for us right now but we got to take all we got and make it the best for us.

On the other hand, I have bought my tickets back to KL for the summer holidays! On the condition that I pass my exams in May and June. Have to pick up the slack I suppose between now and then sigh.

Tuesday, 2 March 2010

this sucks. being in blackburn is fine as its a new experience and all, but how can the staff accommodation not have internet access?? that is just plain stupid zzz. the only thing i have here is my mobile internet which i suppose is better than nothing. sigh. really want to get back to the comfort of my room and be able to skype with the gf. summer hols better compensate for this.

Tuesday, 23 February 2010

Rich man's world, still

Life has been uninteresting for the past few days. Mock OSCE coming up this Thursday but have not been preparing lol. Had a mock of the mock a few days back with the seniors over here in Preston. Thought it went pretty well just need to brush up on the theory. Think I can bullshit pretty well and bullshiting is pretty important in OSCEs over here in UK. The ability to talk and talk and talk is the most important. As the seniors put it, even if you don't know the answer to what the simulated patient is asking, if you can talk your way through it, you get the marks. Nice.

But still. Theory sucks. Especially since this is an OSCE exam not a written paper. Plus the need to explain the patient about the disease that they got and the medication choices and lifestyle changes that they need to apply.

On the other hand, starting work at a nearby clinic now doing data entry. GBP7 per hour for a part-time job lol. Convert that and it is RM40 per hour for a part time job typing in patient details. So much easier than a waiter's job. Want to start working already. Can't stand doing the work of doctors and nurses without getting paid.

Summer hols hurry up! Just can't wait to get back to KL already. Girl, food, warmth, shopping haha.

Monday, 15 February 2010

CNY@Manchester

Chinese New Year!! Which traditionally is a family event with a great family gathering and feast, but this is the closest (and best) that we can get over here in the UK. And honestly it was pretty good. Dom and I made the trip down to Chinatown Manchester as it is the most happening one in the whole of UK, and they were right. In fact this is more Chinese New Year-ish than I've ever seen in Malaysia. Shame on Malaysia. Well actually kind of expected if you think about the reason why....but let's not go into politics.

May Quan came down from Liverpool while Yuvanna, Michelle and Sook Yeen came across from Leicester, which according to them is a pretty sad place. Not like Preston has anything to shout about lol. And we headed to Chinatown which was fucking crowded. Took us almost 20minutes to walk from one end of the street to the other which would normally take 1minute. Insane. Felt like Hong Kong all over again.

Lunch was at Pacific Restaurant, which in my opinion might be even better than some KL ones. What was supposed to be a 1pm lunch turned into a 3pm high-tea event due to the queue. Damn. Trying to imagine the profit that they must be making as they are also packed on normal weekends. Haha and Dom was bitching about why so many whites were out in the streets occupying space and in the restaurants as well since it is totally not their celebration at all.

Anyway, awesome food is always worth the wait!




Sook Yeen took the photos for the rest of the food I was too busy pigging out already by then. Had a few more dishes later on. We even managed to head to Trafford Center and Hard Rock Cafe Manchester for some beer before heading our separate ways. Our next target now is a Eurotrip! Maybe to somewhere warm, preferably not the Swiss Alps.