Quit

Argh what a day. Summatives was crazy. OBA and EMQ was ok as usual, and then MEQ (as usual) had to fuck me up. Can't believe I had another mental block/panic attack thing again.

You are a worthless boy. Just have to fuck everything up. Alcohol my friend, you are still here. Sometimes I really wander if this is who I really am, who I really want to be. Saving others when I can't even save myself.

"I want out of this machine, it doesn't feel like freedom." - Switchfoot

RIP

Footballers shouldn't die on the pitch. Basketball players shouldn't die on the court. Race car drivers shouldn't die in a race. I think it is just bloody unfair and very saddening that people die doing what they love and die doing their profession.

Here is the list of footballers. Can check out the youtube videos as well. It is just so damn unfortunate. Should also watch the worst injuries of football. Freaking scary. Makes me want to stop playing football too after seeing their fibula and tibia and ankles bend and contort in ways I've never seen before.

Mistletoe & Holly

Christmas Eve just arrived early. Today to be exact haha. Yes I am aware that it is April and not December, and yes I have not lost my mind from studying.

Studied a little in the morning. Waited for the bee to finish her lab sessions then we went to 1Utama! Went to eat lunch and catch a movie and eat dinner. Had lunch at Nando's, caught the 3.45pm Paul Blart: Mall Cop show and ate Bakuteh at Subang for dinner. Oh and we even managed to catch a lingerie fashion show around 3pm at 1U New Wing. The bee was all so excited and couldn't wait to see the models LOL. Me? Kinda I guess haha. And apparently so were hundreds of other guys there. No life. The models were hot I admit. Well only two or three actually. There were a few rather weird ones, like they were just plucked out from modelling academy or something. Looked rather lost and, well, unmodel-like. Ah who am I to judge haha.


Came back to my place after that and lit candles and siwtched off the lights and listened to good old Sinatra crooning away his Christmas album songs. Awesomeness. Wish I can capture the moment and those emotions and store them away in a little glass jar so that I can admire them everyday when I'm in the UK. Ahh well.

We still have forever.

Escape

IMU Ball 2009. Done and over with. Honestly it was the best ball that I've been to in IMU compared to the other 2 that I had been to. Took damn a lot of photos and the food and entertainment was good. Well worth RM 120. Speaking of which the committee should be refunding RM 40 of my ticket money some time soon HINT HINT.

Stayed overnight at the Hotel Marriott with the bee. Went on that Sunday at around 5pm to check in and shower and dress up.

Room 641, scene of the crime

Dom and Rachel came later with my surprise bouquet of flowers for her haha. Dom and I bought it in the afternoon together with the corsage. Dinner started around 7.30pm. Will get the pictures and upload them soon. Oh and Jenan won the best dressed male while Siew Kim was crowned Prom Queen 09!! Congrats to both of them! Oh and whoever has the M107 group photo please upload it on Facebook hehe.

The next morning after breakfast

Had the complimentary buffet breakfast the next day. Amazing! Porridge, toast and numerous choices of jam and cheese, nasi lemak, sausages and on and on. Too bad we woke up a little too late and had only 40mins to eat.

Back to reality and studies I presume. Cancelled the random and suddenly-planned trip to 1U today. Tiredness. There will be another day I suppose :)

Don't pun-ish me

Veteran Pillsbury spokesman Pop N. Fresh died yesterday of a severe yeast infection. He was 71.

Known to friends as Brown-n-Serve, Fresh was an avid gardener and tennis player. Fresh was buried in one of the largest funeral ceremonies in recent years. Dozens of celebrities turned out including Mrs. Butterworth, the California Raisins, Hungry Jack, Aunt Jemima, Betty Crocker, the Hostess Twinkies, and Skippy. The graveside was piled high with flours as longtime friend Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy, describing Fresh as a man who "never knew how much he was kneaded."

Fresh rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with many turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes -- conned by those who buttered him up.

Still, even as a crusty old man, he was a roll model for millions. Fresh is survived by his second wife. They have two children and another bun in the oven. The funeral was held at 350 for about 20 minutes.

1,2,3,4

Graduation ball is tomorrow! Took 15 minutes ironing my shirt this morning. Damn the material is tough to iron. I think it will go great with the new tie and coat hehe. Getting the corsage tomorrow with Dom, who spent Rm1500 on his suit. Rachel asked him why never divide the money and spent some on her as well since rm700 is enough for a suit for him and a dress for her haha. BUSTED. lol anyway. Saturdays are never a good day to study eh. 3 notes since 10am. Terrible.

Bee having tonnes of assignments due next week including the big IT exam next Thursday. Speaking on next Thursday, my mock OSCE is on that day. Sigh OSCE gives me a little trauma nowadays since that stupid failed OSCE in Sem 3.

Plain White T's new album is pretty good. And it seems like ages ago that I've went clubbing. Sometimes I wish I don't have to study anymore. Maybe I can be something else, something easy - say maybe go into politics? Har har.

Apparently IMU is a great place for gossips and spreading the dirt.

Not just another statistic

Death. A tragic terrible thing. Somehow being in this generation of TV and the internet where violence rule, death has been tremendously underrated. In a bad way. One of my mum's customer, who is also a good friend, just suddenly died this morning.

He was not the prettiest sight - shabby clothes, a beer belly, a slightly deformed left leg, protruding jaw - but his grocery shop was one of the busiest I have seen in Brunei. Even though located a little out of the way from the normal main roads, many people rich or poor, young or old, would be there buying groceries. And oh did he stock tonnes of items. You name it he got it. Hardware tools, food and drinks, fertilisers and (sometimes) illegal chemicals, fireworks, children toys - I could go on forever. I will know, many a time I would drive my mum there to send goods or to collect payment. He was a kind soul, making payments on time, giving us the occasional free drink or fresh fruits and also sometimes allowing suppliers to use his storage area if ours was full.

Sadly he passed away not knowing the joy (and pain heh) of marriage, and also the joy (and more pain) of having kids. He was in his early 40's I think, otherwise healthy and in great spirits everytime. He was rather sick for the past month but doctors were not able to find anything wrong with him. He lost appetite and taste for food, but was recovering since last week before the incident happened. The last time my mum saw him was yesterday, and she told him to stop drinking so much Coke cuz he has yet to fully recover. That was the last thing she said to him.

Isn't it unfair how the good souls on Earth keep dying while the bastards live on? And how come all the doctors missed the signs?! They couldn't diagnose him with anything. That's pretty terrible considering that he had quite many symptoms already. Guess we have to live our lives to the fullest, and say whatever we want to say because you never know what tomorrow will bring.

Food for thought.

Apparently this morning on FlyFM or Hitz there was this show going on about psycho ex-stalkers or something. And some girl called in saying that she was once a stalker cuz she went overseas and her bf at that time cheated on her. So she brokeup with the guy, went and seduce the guy's dad, made him divorce his wife and marry her instead, and then brokeup with the dad. WOW. Talk about a diabolical plan to mess up someone's family. Too much Bold and The Beautiful. Or any chinese cantonese drama haha.

Today is pretty bad. Study wise anyway. Brain is damn slow for some reason. Doing OSCE for the 1st time, luckily still can remember Sem 3 stuff. Sem 4 not that bad either I think. The bee said that an ex will be stalking you and looking for a second chance because he/she realized that he/she didn't try their best and so they are regretting the decision and want to make up for it or something to that effect. Those that tried their best and gave all they can will have an easier time getting over an ex. True. I know a few friends who are like that as well. Oh well. Guess one can only live and learn.

DO I LOOK LIKE ONE OF THEM?!!

Basketball 3v3 this morning. How long was it since I played ball? 6 months?? Considering that fact I thought we played pretty well as a team. All close losses and draws. Stupid draws. My leg and knee hurts like hell now. I mean, what kind of foul is that?! wtf. Felt like doing this to the sohai just now when he was sitting on the floor grinning like a fuckin' monkey.


Damn tired. Tired. But. Must. Study. Damn. It. And the air-con is spoilt. So damn hot in the room now since I can't open the windows. But I am not gonna complain. Next Sunday next sunday next sunday :D Should be able to cover all the shits that might happen this week and the next.

CNS sucks. But I think MSK is worse. Plus Fallout 3 is just so damn nice to play lol.

Water-proof

IMU Ball in 12 days. One more item to buy; the coat. Oh and get a haircut. Gosh CNS is getting tough. Hence the purchase of a Neuroanatomy book. Yea I shocked myself too, but this system is too much, need a book.

Money have been flowing out of my wallet like diarrhea these few days. Eating out, shopping, poker etc etc. Hate these exams and tests, can't even afford the time to watch a movie nowadays. Still have not practices OSCE. Must must must do it this week.

So Najib is the 6th PM of Msia. Let's hope he will be able to do a good job for the country, reduce corruption, reduce murder cases and snatch thieves, strengthen the economy and bring Malaysia to the fore-front in the world for industrial and commercial opportunities. Hope is a wonderful thing.

Bang bang

Sundays suck. Can life be more unfair. Here I am always helping friends out but I can't help myself.

I hear voices crying
I see heroes dying
I taste the blood that's drying
I feel the tension rising
I see darkness falling
I hear voices calling
I feel justice crawling
I see faith has fallen.

Dear Erica

In 2 more hours it will be the 4th of April 2009.

So I guess it will not be too early to say to the bee, Happy 1 month that we are together!

Saturday - Pyramid and Look-out Point
Sunday - BBQ at her place

Theoretically

Sigh this is so not good. Brain is shutting down and it's not like I've done that many notes. I can't even remember easy things that I just memorize a second ago, like finasteride inhibits 5 alpha-reductase action so testosterone cannot be converted into DHT and lead to BPH. Oh finally I remembered it, after 5 tries. By this pace it is going to take forever to finish one note *moan.

Because repro is tough

Messing about in front of the webcam before heading out to Midvalley. My prom stuff is almost done. A Topman suit and a pair of Springfield shoes and that'll be it. Awaiting cash from 4 people who owe me money LOL. Including my 2 housemates. Will be on a crash-course diet and exercise programme as well haha. I know some people will hate me for saying this but, I'm getting fat lol.

Punked

Well, it is April Fools' Day!

One of the best days of the year in my opinion haha.

Have fun people. So far already pranked the bee LOL. And she got me back just as I was writing this post. Haha I am such an idiot.