Splat.

Human after all.

You know how things accumulate? And then it stores up inside of you until it becomes un-ignorable, like a snowball effect. You try to ignore and forget it, but it remains. Why can't we just have a rewind/erase button in our memory. It will make everything so much easily. Though life would then be boring and predictable.

Silence is golden, I know, but it doesn't make sense.

Baby,

Thanks for always being there for me =)

With the Chinese New Year approaching I have to start cleaning house again and putting up the deco cuz i am the only one tall enough to reach the ceiling and stuff like that. i guess it's one of those disadvantages. Ah well.

Happy CNY in advance to all then!

Just have to make the most out of the remaining days left here in Brunei, and try to be happy. Yep, try to be. Try try try. How hard can a person try? I don't know myself, i seem to be running out of ideas and the will to try.

And congrats to my sis on her O-level results. She did it all without my help hahaha.

Aih, every cloud has its silver lining, let's hope mine shows soon.

Spree

Rollercoaster of emotions for the past 2 days or so. Just feel so under-appreciated at times. So much so that I wish I am cold-blooded enough to go on a killing spree and murder the entire neighbourhood. But I am not. And I wouldn't. Arghhhh.

Come on, it's only 13 days left!!

Wisecracks

Oil prices still on the rise. 2008 is set to be hit by another recession. War in the middle east still goes on. North Korea continues secret tests on nuclear weapons. Osama and the Al-Qaeda still active and on the run. Hunger continues to kill millions all over the world when the rich are constantly wasting tonnes of edible food. Average tempearture of the Earth is rising and not going to stop. More and more species are becoming endangered, including the homo sapiens if we don't stop bloody rioting and killing each other.

What so great about a new year that we have to celebrate and waste money on then? Just a tradition, or is it actually worth it? Same shit another day perhaps?

Maybe I'm just too bored at home.

And i miss the gf. Hmm.

Smile

Which I am going to sing to the gf, who is stressed with work and studies. since i can't be there for her by her side.

Smile though your heart is aching;
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by.
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

and all is calm

Back to basics? Since the world is getting more and more complex and difficult to be in?

And so one returns to You

Heath Ledger is dead. At 28.

What a shocker.

Not cuz i loved him or Brokeback Mountain, but he was going to act as the Joker in the upcoming Batman movie the Dark Knight. And he was super suitable. Or maybe, hopefully, they have already filmed it. and I loved the movie Casanova.

Oh and baby, everything's gonna be alright okie? =) *hugs

A little more

Floating floating drifting away,
the seas beat upon the golden sand,
the sun lightens up the evening skies,
the gentle breeze took me by surprise,
the tears on my cheek had long dried up,
the fragile pieces placed back in a pulp,
the sands of time goes slowly on,
the sweet scents still lingers on,
the waiting game i'll play again,
the game which will never end.

I guess, sometimes, life is tough.

Understatement of the year there. I should get an Oscar for that.

But just have to keep my mind on the future and the big picture. And overlook the little niggles and insecurities.

All the little things piss me off so much now. Even though it may just be a passing remark or sentence or post.

Argh. What has gotten into me.

3000 word report

STINKS.

Can anyone tell me that they actually understood the requirements?!

Attn:

Ok now everyone knows I didn't post that last entry, so errrr, whatever the girlfriend says then. haha.

i knew it.

The boy's name Jonathan \j(o)-na-than\ is pronounced JAHN-a-thun.

It is of Hebrew origin, and its meaning is gift of God. Related to Nathan.

Biblical: the son of King Saul, Jonathan was noted for his manliness, generosity, and unselfishness. He saved David's life when Saul would have killed him.

As it hits me in the face

I don't know what is real and not anymore. 2008 has been a pain so far. why, oh why is this happening to us? Is it because of things like this? Running here and there? Hmm I sure hope not. For this is not what i wish to do. There is nothing more that I can do. Please please PLEASE make everything ok again.

Pissed

I hate it when my parents do this to me. 2008 is already shit.

How can one day be filled with so much joy and despair? Now I know.

Just have to hold on till February. Wait for the dark clouds to be moved.

Thank God she will wait.

Great expectations

The only thing on my mind now is Monday, the 7th of January 2008. I just can't wait to see the gf. Heck I can't wait to see my Vista room truth to be said. But you know sometimes you put so much hype and expectation into one day or event and it doesn't live up to your expectations, it sucks. So I am just praying that Monday wouldn't be one of those bad days. Cut us some slack ok Big Man, it has been more than a month already we haven't seen each other.

Oh and CVS stinks. I just can't wrap my head around the damn physiology of things. Arghhh. Sometimes I wonder if I should really be taking this course. But hey it's too late now to turn back so I guess just have to work my way thru it and hopefully the feeling for medicine grows. Hahaha.

Blitzkrieg

'I don't wanna be buried
In a pet semetary,
I don't wanna live my life again.' - The Ramones

All my life I have been waiting; I always have been. So I guess it wouldn't hurt to wait a little more.

There will be times like these

Dear heavenly Father, please do make today a much better day than yesterday? =\ Why do people like to argue anyway? Especially over little things?? Especially with the ones they love? I cant wait to get to KL and see the gf. Aih. there's just too much stress building up inside of me lately, i don't know why. And then again there are moments when i feel completely serene and secure.

Weird way to start off 2008. Hmmm.

39 more days. Pls hurry!

Happy birthday!

This is for a certain Lee Sheah Lin, whose birthday is today. =)

I love you baby. May God bless you in more ways than one.

Happy 21st birthday!! I'll see you real soon. heh heh.

no one can see you cry world

Hmm the 1st blog of the new year. 2008. wonder what wonders it will bring to me this time. Resolutions I have not made. I mean, I am not the kind of person who will purposely for the sake of making resolutions make them. I think that people should change readily and make themselves better and better daily, and not just make it some sort of customary thing to change every new year. But still, there are things that I have vowed to change about myself and I hope to be able to achieve them

Going back to Msia this 6th of January for a week. Sad. I wish I can just go back to Msia and then stay there till Chinese New Year, come back to Brunei to be with family (or even better still they pop over there) and then go back to Msia again on the 10th to start Semester 3.

I miss the girlfriend. More than I had expected to, honestly speaking. But Father Time has been quite good – it has been a month already I haven’t seen her, and only 41 more days to go till February. Ah yes, I’m such a sad person, counting down the days. Coincidently it is also the same countdown to her EOS. Ironic. =D

Let’s all pray that 2008 will be a great year for the gf and I, all my friends and family and also for the poor world which seems to be self-destructing. Such a waste of God’s creation.