The previous post wasn't aiming at my silly gf who thinks I was that angry at her. Sorry for the misunderstanding.

And to the person involved, see how much trouble you put me in? Fucker. Where were you when they were handing out brains? Let me guess, taking weed and getting high as usual? Of course.

MMS

What does that mean? Are you trying to say something? I hope that you know how much pain and confusion it caused me. The little actions and words that you don't do and don't speak are greater indications of what you actually do and speak. Ah well. Can't really do anything. It is your choice and decision after all.

And just came from the Medical Museum in my uni. Damn tiring trying to differentiate the FLMs of pathogens and such while writing down all the important points and factors to focus on to recognize them. Pissed me off big time. But I was with Dom so it was ok, discussed the pictures and all, in the end it was quite good. Though now I am worrying more cos I am afraid that I will forget the important facts and remember all the useless ones that will not come out. It always happens. Like I am cursed or something.

Maybe I am.

She believes in me

Bills paid thank God. Just got one more internet bill to pay in the noon. In the meantime, this song and lyrics just got some special ring at the moment. For me.

While she lays sleeping, I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the night can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home, all alone
While she lays dreaming, I try to get undressed without the light
And quietly she says how was your night?
And I come to her and say, it was all right, and I hold her tight

And she believes in me, I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl, I could change the world
With my little songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me, and so I go on trying faithfully
And who knows maybe on some special night, if my song is right
I will find a way, find a way...

While she lays waiting, I stumble to the kitchen for a bite
Then I see my old guitar in the night
Just waiting for me like a secret friend, and there's no end
While she lays crying, I fumble with a melody or two
And I'm torn between the things that I should do
And she says to wake her up when I am through,
God her love is true...

And she believes in me, I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl, I could change the world
With my little songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me, and so I go on trying faithfully
And who knows maybe on some special night, if my song is right
I will find a way, while she waits... while she waits for me.
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Now playing: Kenny Rogers - She Believes In Me
via FoxyTunes

Bills bills bills

Just realized that I have tonnes of outstanding bills left to pay. SHIT. Have to waste valuable study time to go and pay. All the freaking way in KL and have to take the freaking LRT and cab. Damn the sad state of online paying here in Msia. So pissed with myself for not settling them earlier. Now there's extra charge for the internet as well, which is by far one of the worst providers I have used so far.

Hold on to me

It's ok to be afraid.

All we need is trust. And each other. Hold on to what we've got.

I am happy to tell you that I indeed am placing my trust in you, and you can in me too.

I know you are worried about yourself, and that I can't help you. Maybe you have the right to be. Maybe not.

All I know is that I love you and I do not want this to end this way.

With the reason that is time and distance. For we are capable of so much more.

So when I am gone, I go with the promise of returning. For you. So please wait? It is only 2 months.

Why Burma?

How to prove your point? How to show that you are good enough? My mind is a spinning world of confusion and more confusion. Pressured to do so many things. Pressured to get an A for EOS. Ah the insanity. Pop goes the weasel.

Hungry. My hunger pangs are increasing and getting more frequent. Why am I even posting these down? Random random random thoughts.

"I am a 15 year old Burmese boy forced to work in Msia as massage person. Friend say I good massager. So I get work. Call big old man ask him pay me for work. He say go Msia find work gooder. More money. So i go. Take boat. When reach Msia I have to call another old man. This man strange. Like to touch boys haha! I am man and I like touch girls. But this man funny I think he got head pain. Then man tell me I must have check-up to see if i work good. So I agree. I ask him will it hurt uncle? He say to call him daddy, Big Daddy. And he say if I like it then will not hurt. I say I understanding him because I have friend in Myammar also say got like that question when he try to get work in place name eXXXpedition. I need money bad so I say ok."

Ok now why did I post THAT down? Bloody hell. Hahahahaha. Just felt like it but yea don't worry, I am still Jon the guy in IMU doing something called Medicine. Walalalalalalala.

Righty then. Back to my pile of notes that I must by hook or by crook finish it before midnight today, or else it will disappear like the carriage pumpkin in Cinderella!! Noooooooooo!!!

Tattoo on Chest

What a day. So far. Woke up late, went out for lunch with her, came back, watch tv. Simpsons Halloween marathon. For almost 5hours straight now. So now I am trying to study. Been on this patho and immuno for far too long. Plus tomorrow morning I'll be busy helping out in IMU Open Day as a tour guide of the magnificent building that is IMU. RM15. Ah well. I don't really care about the money.

Life is good. Though I am kind of worried about the future. The near future that is. Future after EOS. The part where I am going back to Brunei till February before I can see her again. The one week during Raya was bad enough, now 2 whole months?! Argh I just hope that when I come back to Msia things and feelings will still stay the same if not better. Both on my part and hers.

Halloween

Damn full in the middle of the night. Now at current time 11.40pm. Why you ask. Or maybe you wouldn't. But sucks to you I'm going to post it up anyway. Had a lifegroup dinner gathering thing with PC my church's pastor together with the whole gang of IMU-ECFians. Excellent. Being able to be with my spiritual family again after a long time felt really good. For once I felt a sense of calm and peace in a long time. Happy days are back. Couldn't be at a better time. Oh happy days.

Tomorrow I'm gonna be a fool that I am and watch the Halloween Specials on StarWorld for the whole day. SIMPSONS!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Yeah.


I would absolutely DETEST the 2nd Japanese anime version.

Retarded

I hate having sleepless nights.

So I am gonna smoke the day away. See my life rise up in a cloudy vision of despair and confusion.

Why can't things just be clearer?

And I am going to prove that I can study at home. So I am going to piss off now.

Spontaneous nonsense

This sudden attacks of cold and fever of mine is really starting to annoy the shit of out me. The whole day I will be fine then all of a sudden, bang. Just like that. I will be sniffling and then I will feel all warm. Then half an hour later I will be fine. But my mood will just be bad. Feeling annoyed at the slightest things. Just plain terrible. That after spending a great day with her in Midvalley watching a great movie in The Bourne Ultimatum and eating at Manhattan's Fish Market. Moods screw people up. Fact.

Taking a break, or trying to start?

So finally sat for my MUET oral exam. And with all due respect, and I am saying it with ALL due respect, it was a waste of time. Considering that I have already done A-level English Literature and IELTS. If I had nothing to do I wouldn't mind sitting in a group of 4 discussing about the sorry state of public transportation in Msia. But then I had to spend an entire morning waiting and waiting. Which was why I emphasized the point that public transport in Msia is inefficient due to the long long waiting periods. Hope they got the point. Plus I had to wake up at 6am this morning to get to the exam which allegedly supposed to start at 7.30am. Weeeeee.

Anyway have been pondering if I have enough time to spare to actually go out and have some fun or not. I mean a movie and all is fine, no problem at all, but what about a whole day out shopping? Or to Genting? Or ClubMed? Or The Click Five concert?? =D Say all you want but their new songs are actually different and meaningful. In one sense or the other. Hmmm. Should I go?

To be or not to be, that is the question

You know how everybody has their dilemmas? Mine is whether to go for CVS lectures or not since my EOS doesn't cover CVS, and I would gladly use the lecture times to study in the library. Or at home. Or sleep. But that's not the point. Sometimes these days, I don't even know what I am doing anymore. It is like I have lost track of my initial point of coming into IMU. Quite sad to lead a pointless life.

Anyway, I have to admit that my studies are finally getting somewhere. The doing-the-questions bit. I found out that I am not so screwed after all. Hmmm. Pressure on me is tremendous. I need to not only pass but get an A. Hope that all I am doing now is sufficient. Sigh. God please help me.

And to Geowin, Dom and Elaine, I am sorry if I have not been spending enough pre-exam time with you guys. I hope that you understand. Somehow will try to make it up to you ppl ok? Elaine don't cry haha. You know I still care bout you. Geowin, at least I get to see you in church. Dom, well, haha, library? Such is life. You all are still very important to me, but now I have the gf too, whom I am in love with, and pls understand and bear with me. This msg is long overdue I know but I guess I have to say it. Better late than never.

Oh and good luck for your oral MUET baby, though by the time you read this you would have already taken it.

Back to studies. How predictable of me.

Underneath it all

I wish the Earth opens up and swallows me whole. Then maybe these thoughts of mine wouldn't escape me, escape these four walls. Then maybe I can then get some peace. Away from the never-ending thoughts of doom of texts of knowledge.

Panic time

Tried to study but failed. Fell asleep instead. I feel like shit cuz I just fel like shit. Duno why. Don't ask, I wouldn't bother to answer. Just moody today. Hmmm. Disgusted with myself. Rarrrrrr. The urge to kick the crap out of somebody is huge. I hope I don't fail this exam. SIGH.

Addicted to you

Oh hohoho. Yep I am back. Finally. Guess no one bothered to go and pick me up from the airport eh? I am disappointed. Actually not. Whatever. Anyway, Brunei was good. And by that I mean getting to see parents and eat mum's cooking again. Stupid thing was that there was nothing to do but study, and even that was also so-so.

You know how we sometimes take things for-granted? What things? Hmm I duno, say maybe, just maybe, INTERNET?! Damn it, the net in Brunei couldn't be slower seriously. It takes forever to load a page, and it takes forever NOT to load a page as well. Shite.

Finally got to be with her again. Thank God. I was beginning to go insane already. The first thing I thought to myself when I saw her when she walked thru' my door was, "Wow, I've never been more glad to see a person in my life before." And then I screwed up the surprise that I had for her by just giving it to her directly. Man that was just plain stupid on my part. But no matter. Never thought that I would miss M'sia that much. I mean, one week in Brunei and I was already sick of it. And to think that I spent 17years there. Woohoo.

Anyway, it's good to be back. Lectures tomorrow then. Studies too. Joy.

the girlfriend says hi.

so jonathan's internet is down because brunei internet provider decided to change their cable or something. and being the thoughtful person that he is, he is afraid that you (imaginary) readers will be bored or thought that something horrible had happened to him.

but dont you worry. the silly boy is healthy and alive and kicking abide missing me alot.

so what's up with jonathan the wong these few days? hmm,

1) open houses
2) shopping for shorts/jackets/sweaters
3) studying his sem1 stuff
4) falling asleep on sofa
5) feeling sleepy everyday

basically its a lazy life there. its brunei what do you expect. seriously. luckily there's the mum who make it a point that he learns how to cook and drive her around and make him carry all the heavy stuff for her. long live mrs wong!! you are my idol!!

anyway jonathan will be back tomorrow morning. so if you are really so desperate to see him, you can pick him up from klia around 10am. tho please do not expect him to sit down and have a nice morning tea with you because he's due at my place at 12noon. you can talk about life and such with him on the way back to vista and disappear after that before he punches you in the face with his burly arms :)

so till then, dont miss him too much. be good, sleep early, drink more water and dont do drugs.

love,
sheah

The Simple Life

Don't you know the feeling of being absolutely helpless? Well I do. Knowing that she is in pain over in Msia and I'm over here in Brunei and not being able to do anything at all. Ah the simple things in life. Again.

And I am getting impatient. Impatient for Sunday. Faster damn it.

And damn this cold that I have too. I can't do anything without sniffling now. Donkey balls.

I've been pondering over what to write in this entry and I've come to a conclusion that there is in fact nothing to write. How tragic. Jonathan Wong lost for words.

Maybe a little Brunei update? Nothing new (surprise surprise), ppl here busy celebrating Raya. No new roads. No new buildings. Weather stinks of rain rain and more rain. Well today is sunny though. Sunny enough. Family is good, sister has O-levels going on right now - Bio practs. God bless her and her exams.

And that's it I guess for now. Back to studies. Sigh.

Oh and I miss you lots baby...

AIR

This has got to be one of the worst holidays so far. Stuck at home. Studying Sem1 notes. Doing PBL. Doing the damn AIR topic. When I could be going out having fun, or just driving around like a maniac in my car (mum's car now) like the good old days. And the shit state of the internet in Brunei disallows me to upload any pictures to my blog. I am not as free as to wait for half an hour for one photo. Woe betide me.

At least I have ASTRO with all the channels. Though it is pointless to watch anything by myself nowadays. It just feels.....different. Sigh.

It is already Monday when I am going back this Sunday. Goodness. Time really does flies. But I guess this time I am glad that it does. For reasons I am sure is well-known and I don't have to sacrifice my coolness level to explain and describe with my heart.

Yea I can hear ppl sniggering in the distance. But anything for love. It's ok.

And I can't place paragraphs in this entry. Pathetic.

Unbelievable

I can't believe it. Well actually I can. Cos it is happening to me right now. I mean, I know that I will miss her, but I didn't believe that I would miss her THIS much. Crazy. I miss her touch, scent, kiss...the way she runs her fingers through my hair...and it hurts not being able to be there with her when she needs me. What more can I say? Nothing. I am like a lost soul again. Waiting to get back to see her. Waiting waiting waiting...

Insecure no more?

So this is the blog that I am writing in KLIA because I can. And because I am bored. Solitude can be such a sad and depressing thing. So is arriving at the airport 3hours early. But I guess have to adjust to it. God I miss her.

So went all the way up to Cameron Highlands (a last minute decision which I totally don't regret) yesterday with her n her family and had fun. Laughing and doing stupid stuffs with at night with her like taking lame videos of us (well, me actually) dancing like sissies in the flower garden. And then today took the 8am bus alone and without her Mp3 player cuz we forgot to charge it. So I was bored and dizzy and nausea-ting, so I fell asleep. In a bus full of Indians and Nepalese. No disrespect intended.

Last night we had a nice long talk in bed. Which cleared a lot of things. And I am thankful that we decided to have that little chat. About us. Now that I think about it baby, I had indirectly compared you to her, and I am damn sorry I did and said what I said. I can't explain how sorry I am. Never meant it. I guess you were right in the sense that I WAS insecure but now all is good. Please know that I love you and though it wouldn't be easy at times, this love, but I'll wait. I mean, who wouldn't wait for the person who had brought the most joy to him/her for the past one month? Hmm getting melodramatic now so I better stop before it gets out of hand. In public.

And I still can't believe that I am going back to Brunei already. Leaving her for a week. Brought all my notes back as well so gonna kick some Semester1 ass during revision. Hopefully. I mean, obviously. Of course.

p.s: Baby pls if you load my video up on your blog at least put yours too.

Way Back Into Love

Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore - Way Back Into Love lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And If you'll help me to start again
I know that I'll be there for you
In the end

Happy 1 Month

Today is a great day. Why you ask. I'll tell you why. It's been a month that we have been together! Woohoo~ I couldn't have asked for a better month in this whole year. Time sure flies; it seemed like yesterday when I first fell for her during MAPCU basketball. Thank God I decided to play for the team...though the results were not as great as expected.

And she finally said those 3 words. This morning. In bed. What better way to start off your morning than hearing that in your ears at 7am. After sleeping at 3am coming back from KLIA fetching her mum back from China.

Then as life is life, I am going back this weekend to Brunei for a week. Bloody joy. Still, I will enjoy the things that we can do together while I am here. No point in contemplating so much on the future. For now. I think. Hmmm. Or maybe I should. Ah heck.

EOS. Study. Yeah.

Atlas

How great it feels to have a weight lifted off your shoulder. Weights actually. 3 reports/proposals? It's over now thank goodness. Was starting to get stressed up and venting my anger on people I would never want to hurt. I'm sorry again.

The rain is here. Looks like a gloomy night ahead of me. Wednesday...wonder what exciting things are going to happen. Sigh. Other than studying of course. Oh boy. That is so exciting I think I am going to have an adrenaline rush. Whoopee.

My bad...

Baby, don't be sad ok?

Don't mistake my emotions and feelings for reality and truth and the present. I know lately I have been very moody and tired and all, and it is entirely not your fault. In fact, all you have done is support me and help me through everything. And I can't thank you more for that.

When you decided to sort of ignore me last night, I never knew why until today. I knew you were a little angry and had something on your mind but....yea....I couldn't sleep, really, as it just felt so broken and depressing to be next to you but still feel so far away. Hope that will never happen again cos now I have to sleep again before my PBL and can't be online. Haha...but seriously...

On another note, should I sleep? So many things to be completed? EOS coming up and I haven't done much studies. Some seniors say I should start, some say that it's still early. I think I should begin but my willpower obviously thinks otherwise.

Oh and watch 'I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry'. Don't watch it with your gf though like I did, it is a gay movie. Literally. After that she would want you to carry her handbag and she would shout 'He's gay!' to random passer-by's. I still love you don't worry : ) Other than that, the movie was hilarious and well worth watching for its entertainment value and also some moral aspects of daily life nowadays, if you know what I mean.

Useless

Sometimes I wonder why do I even bother to remember these things. Things such as by tomorrow the 10th of October will be exactly 3 years that my ex and I would have been together. Things such as it will be exactly 1 1/2 years after we split. Why do I remember these things? Facts like these? Why of all the girls it is she who remains? Perhaps that is the sad reality of life. Some things we just can't run away from I guess. Kind of depressing just sitting on thinking about it really. After all that had happened. All the running and hiding and lying and this is what that's left of me.

Yea if only I know what is installed for me this time.

Sometimes I would love to just be emotionless. Have a stone cold heart. Then I can finally stop caring about things. Things I rather not do. Sucks. Ah well the painful part of being alive in this world is, well, being alive in this world I guess.

Back!

Wow. Now that's what I call a vacation. The whole weekend off, just the 2 of us. Seriously it was a great time. And cheap too. Food was good, accommodation was good - perfect. Weather was good too, and the sun came in and out at all the right times. Waves were there, water warm when needed to be, and cold when the sand was too warm. Managed to finish reading an Agatha Christie novel as well. And snapped quite a number of pictures too. And we had quite a number of exciting times together too of course, in addition to the already wonderful time we had. Get it?

Though the nightmare was pretty scary. Scared me. Had to keep calm myself to calm her down. Hmmm. Anyway, words can say that much. Pictures meanwhile can speak a thousand words. So enjoy.

Bus trip to Lumut - Afro-American in the back & us were the only ppl on bus



Coral Bay - where we spent lazy days


Going ape over a hornbill then realized there were like 10 others


Emo


Need I say anything?

ZAP

I shall disappear for 3 days.

Don't miss my insanity.

Toodle-o.

Don't follow me

Finally the day has come. Tomorrow I'm going to Pangkor with her! And I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything will go on well and according to plan. Most probably will be bringing my laptop there too, since I have so much work to do. Which is quite sad actually, considering the fact that we are going there to relax and enjoy. But reports are due next week so I guess there is not much of a choice. Sigh.

Pet pet pet my baby wallaby.

And honestly I didn't write THAT post.

Pre pre

As anyone would know - those who know me anyway - I am not the author of the previous post.

Just to clear up any misunderstandings.

Haha. PMS is serious shit.

I love you.

Ian dont read this, please.

Today is a shit day. So i ate junk food to revenge. And i drank water and sparkling grape juice like a sissy :)

The gf is pms-ing. the fucking whole day. (subtle hint) I mean i knew it will be difficult and i was prepared for it (for it will come once a month sooner or later) but i didnt know it will be THIS hard! you @(#(@&#^ son of a moron. I mean daughter. I mean whatever you are you @)(*@*(^#

ok i feel so much better now :) so what now. Think i will never say such things about my gf? You are dead fucking wrong. You dont know me at all you morons living in this sick sad little sphere.

p/s: Ian, i know you will still read this you naughty naughty boy *makes sexy voice*

p/p/s: i love my gf till the end of the world i am the most loyal person on this self destructive pathetic planet.

p/p/p/s: I repent to God. God forgive my sins, please.

Voices voices

TIRED. Again. There's just too much to do. Too much. Too much. Presentations. Studies. Buying groceries. Washing and ironing clothes. Cleaning room. Cooking dinner. It was all ok at first but now with the increasing workload, it's pissing me off.

For crying out loud just ease me of all these weight on my shoulders. Need to get drunk. Maybe then I might actually feel better about myself. Pissed drunk. Like the old times. Ughhh sometimes I disgust even myself.

Run run run run run. Run away from all these problems. Run away from the world. Run away from all living things. I want to sleep but I know that there will be nightmares. I want to sleep but I know deep down that there's still so much to be done. I want to sleep.

Drift away.

Way away away from here.

Drift on a wooden raft in a vast open ocean with a never ending horizon. Just keep drifting, and drifting, and drifting, and drifting...

Come home, come home to me.

Please pray I keep my sanity. Sanity. Ah yes.

The Big One

EOS in less than 2 months away. And I haven't started studying. Yea some people say that it IS too early to start now, but I am a paranoid person. And that I should have started studying last week. But then again I am a lazy guy, so here I am doing nothing. Though I must really start studying!! The nerd in me calls out and I must heed its call. Soon. MCQs are totally different from SAQs and OSPE questions, and the latter two are a lot much tougher. Have to be prepared for the worst.

Mainly have been jamming in the music studio nearby to get ready for tomorrow's performance which I hope goes well for us. Especially the timing between the drummer and guitarists. And that my voice lasts me till tomorrow at least.

Just found out a second ago that my library book is due today. Joy. And the library closes in 8 minutes. Though I live across IMU, I am too lazy too run over there now. For one main reason. I must be in formal attire. I rather pay the fine tomorrow.

Rest well my darling. For my bed is a very comfortable place to be on. Dream wonderful dreams and live a wonderful life. Just promise me that you'll do only whatever that is right for you. For us. And I'll be more than happy.

Kill the System? People are jerks?

Never knew I could miss someone this much but yea here I am, in my room, realizing that I just overslept for my lectures - which is a good thing cuz today's lecturers are zombies - and that I took for granted the times we have had together. Now that she isn't here, the pain is just bad. Excruciatingly bad. And this is just a few hours! What about the one week Raya holidays? What about the 3 bloody months end-of-year holidays??!! There are so many things that are passing thru my mind now, considering the fact what happened during the previous relationship when there was a distance, but I am trying to clear my thoughts and convincing myself that this one is different. Ahhh the power of tricking yourself is strong in me. It has to be, thanks to my many wonderful past experiences. Pffft.

How God has changed my life. Big time He did. If I didn't re-accept him, surely I would be in the streets now doing drugs or raping and torturing innocent people. Ok maybe not to that extreme but you get the picture. As smart as I was in secondary school - and I was damn smart not to boast - I was too lazy and rebellious to follow the system, the system which included do not beat up people and please attend all classes. Getting into smoking and weed wasn't something I am particularly proud of either. Truly I did not give a damn about anything. But thank God for God, who saved me from hell and given me this bright future which I am definitely not going to throw away.

And to leave you all with my favorite comic of all time, the genius that is Calvin n Hobbes.


I miss you terribly everytime you go away.

Racoons or rabbits?

After going to PetWorld yesterday at The Curve, I feel like buying a racoon. Must have racoon!


Yea I am just bored.

But a little quiet time alone is good once in a while I guess.

Weekends rule

What a great time I had today. Seriously. Just to be able to go out and shop for stuffs and eat was simple yet fun. Bought most of the items needed for the Pangkor trip, except for bloody shorts. What the heck is wrong with the shops?? Why don't they sell good pants?! Yea Cult had beach pants - for RM200! Ah well...still have a week...else just have to make do. And Agatha Christie will be the other woman following me and my gf to Pangkor. Haha. Got a book to bring along for any chilling sessions on the beach.

This is random but I miss playing basketball. And badminton. And cheerleading even. Miss working and training hard and as a team for our batch for IMU Cup. Ah well. There's always next year.

On an even more random note, I would love to do a voice-over for a Simpson's episode in the near future. Doesn't matter what role it is - could be a gay role for all I care - I think it will just be the greatest thing to be part of the legendary cast.

Anyway off to bed. Need to try to wake up at 7 to prepare breakfast for her since her bloody CSU at 8am.