Storm

This is for the gf. Sing it to yourself, and everything will be alright.

How long have I been in this storm?

So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form

Water's getting harder to tread

With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you

Everything would be all right

If I could see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And everything will be all right

And everything will be all right

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown

So why am I ten feet under and upside down

Barely surviving has become my purpose

Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you

Everything would be all right

If I could see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And everything will be all right

And everything will be all right

Broadband where art thou?

I said it once and I'll say it again; Brunei is boring.

Other than that, nothing new. Sis studying like mad for her A-levels. Mum busy with her business. Not sure about dad though haha. I'm sure the gf is stressed out in M'sia. =( Poor her. I hope I can get her a b'day present that she likes.

And this internet is (as usual) killing me. It's too fast! -_-

Good ole Further Math

I miss doing Mathematics.

It is difficult when people have a difference in opinion, especially in a group or an organization or a relationship. This only gets worse when the other person somehow always refuses to give in and cooperate just for the sake of making things easier and more fun for everyone else. Why can't we all make a little self-sacrifice every now and then?

White Xmas

Had the first day of GP postings today. The doctor was a nice enough man, so Chloe didn't have to use her 'charms' to try to persuade the doctor to let us leave early. It ended up to be pretty interesting. Not to mention it came with the free lunch thanks to the doc. 4 more days to go then.

Heading back to Brunei this Saturday. Not really looking forward to it mainly because Xmas there is non-existent. Bet I mentioned this last year too. Sigh. But there isn't a choice so I guess have to follow my family's wishes. One week wouldn't be too long I suppose.

Haven't really been feeling well lately. The stomach and the intestines are having a war down there, and my ulcer is as usual taking its own sweet time to heal. On a separate note, the gf is going to have her ICA this Friday haha. Stressed.

This medical life thing is no joke. Pffft.

KKB to Earth...oh wait

Greetings from the cybercafe in KKB.

Which I just helped to install MSN. And Edward can't save the files in a pendrive as the computers doesn't have a USB port. And my desktop monitot is occupying more 3/4th of the desk space.

Yea modernisation is rampant in these areas.

comic time

Weekends are arriving. The year 2008 is almost over. (?!!) And the gf's dad and sis are all coming back soon again early next year for CNY. Wow. Just seemed like yesterday when they were all around for this year's CNY. -_- Father Time needs to take a chill pill. I can only hope that 2009 will be a good year as well. It will be a big year for me; with Sem 5 and the prospect of heading overseas for Phase 2 of my medical life. Kind of freaked out by it and exhilarated at the same time. Just hope that we can all make it.

Already preparing what kind of resolutions I should make for next year. I guess there are many things that I can do to change or make myself a better person but laziness is always getting in the way.

Fridays aure are fun. And lazy. Lazy lazy lazy.

The gf is studying away in the library for her ICA and EOS. It's a mixture of proud and pity I think. Haha. =p

Film

Waited and waited in agony for 3pm to come today. It was the time which the result for the ICA is to be released. Most of my friends and I were waiting and then someone came and told us that the result has already been sent to us over email - that was at 2.45pm - but most of us were too scared to check it and decided to wait another 15mins haha.

Then it was time. Got in the queue, said my ID number, got the slip, and started tearing along the perforated edges. Scared shitless, I slowly opened the paper. B+. Thank God. It was then I found out that no one failed anyway. So yea.

Ok, off to MidValley!

Of birds and trees

Been writing more than usual lately. Not on this blog though. Rather it is thanks to the literature selectives that I am taking. They are kind of fun, but it is weird seeing lecturers who one day are teaching you about the recurrent laryngeal nerve and how cutting it can result in a hoarse voice, and the next day they are discussing narratives and blank-verse poems with you. Takes a bit of getting used to I suppose.

Gf busy studying for her big EOS in early January. All the nice movies coming out though haha. Having troubles deciding which university to put as my first choice PMS. Everytime I think that is the university I want to put down, another one that seems better pops into the picture. Annoying. Anyway so far it is Glasgow, then Liverpool then Southampton. Hopefully I can get into one of those.

Wanna play football. Been playing futsal and it just ain't the same. Sigh. But over here there are no free fields like in Brunei. Plus unlikely there are people who would want to play outdoors now that it is raining like mad every evening all the way till midnight. Ahh open field!!

Intricacy I adore you

Just a few updates I guess. Literature selectives have been going on fine. It's always fun and a nice change to do something different and something I have always loved doing. Had a futsal kick-about in the evening with my Sem 5 friends. It's good to be sweating out and doing sports again instead of being couped up at home in front of the laptop and the other radiation producing magic-box watching House re-runs and Sportscenter.

Argh my laptop is too slow. So frustrating to play games on it. Though it has only occured lately. Hope it isn't a worm again. Those things are the devil.

Can't believe I was stoning in the exam hall just now during OSPE. Damn. I feel so useless, feel like I am brain dead. Can barely recall facts, or think quickly like how I used to. Maybe I am getting old.

I don't know who my friends are anymore. I know people have their own choices and all, but come on, don't just ignore people you acknowledge as one of your closest friends a few weeks/months ago. Ah well guess everyone has their own ways and right to choose. Forget it.

Guide to nowhere

Haven't been updating my blog in a long time. Laziness is one thing. Boredom is another. And then of course, there is the tiredness from studying for the ICA on next Friday. Not detached from the world though thank goodness. Gerakan VP 'fell' to his death just a few days ago. And just 2 nights ago an Indonesian maid 'jumped' off the 17th floor of Vista Komanwel C1 to her death. This reminds me of the suicide in Vista B last year when I was in Sem2, and I remembered discussing this in the library e-lab (the old one, with the bottom floor dungeon thing that was so nice to study in) with Ding Yang and the seniors.

On a brighter (?) note, Mr Barack Obama wil soon be known as President Barack Obama of the USA. Well let's just hope that he'll do what he said he'll do, cuz his speeches were sure as hell impressive but all talk and no work is, well, bush-shit. There are so much to report about local politics and such but I'll keep my mouth shut. I can do with no jail time in my record.

Planning on watching Quantum of Solace tomorrow. I need a break from all the tumours and suppressor genes. And physiology arghh. Utterly disgusting section. Hope it's a good movie though I don't fancy this new Bond. Too human I guess. Too cold, humourless and thuggish. But it's Bond nonetheless, hopefully the action scenes are good.

2 more weeks to go for endo+repro+renal ICA. I don't feel prepared at all this time around. Man. Don't feel the confidence. Shits.

Congrats to the gf, who got her first choice, University of Liverpool for her PMS.

Breathing

I'm finding my way back to sanity again,
Though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there.
Take a breath and hold on tight,
Spin around one more time,
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I'm,
Trying to identify the voices in my head.
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive,
And break these calluses off of me,
One more time.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.

I don't want a thing from you.
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off your table to the ground.

'Cause I just want to be here now.

It's quite a sad thing to see. Everyone trying help one another, but no one is helping themselves, even though that is where the real problem lies.

Sat

Wow it is already October the 26th. ICA on the 14th. Finished one round but can barely remember the facts. ARGHH. To make things worse I can barely remember anything lately, and I've been so clumsy in my life before >_< Am I getting old, or have I got a disease?

Frustrating. Everything is so damn blur now and I keep mixing up stuff. Like ovarian tumors and breast tumors. And the thyroid neoplasms. Roar!

It's as if I have some sleeping sickness thing. Same goes to the gf, who has been lying around the whole evening/night sleeping, waking up to eat dinner and watch TV. Hahaha.

I miss you.

And I still love you :'(

I will be here for you, waiting.

Don't worry.

McD

What a dramatic day. And a tiring one too. Woke up at 7am to get ready to go to the kidney dialysis center in KL. That's when I noticed that my left calf was hurting terribly when I was exerting any force on it, be it standing or walking. Choosing to ignore it because I was running late, I took my shower and met my group mates in front of IMU. We were getting to KL by LRT.

Now halfway thru' the ride on the LRT, I felt a progressive stabbing pain on my left chest, and it was radiating to my upper left arm. I was thinking, "Fuck now I got myocardial infarction." The pain stopped a few seconds later but I was freaked out, but then realised that the chances of a deep vein thrombosis in a 20-yr old male is extremely rare, let alone it leading to pulmonary embolism.

So after going around in a circle - literally - we found the place. The sister in charge gave us a history of the place and the organisation, and started to show us how dialysis was done. I never liked needles, especially when it is stuck into the patient's arm *shudders*, but what happened was unprecedented to me. We were feeling one of the patient's arm for her A-V fistula when I started to get weak in the legs, got dizzy, cold sweat and warm around the neck region. Fucked again I thought. Gave an excuse to the sister and went to 7-11 and bought a drink. Felt better thank God.

So diagnosis? I sure hope it is just because I didn't eat my breakfast this morning so it'll be easier that one feels dizzy in sight of blood on an empty stomach. Better than MI anytime anyday.

Studies have not been particularly good. Relationship going thru' a little bit of a bump, plus have been very tired these few days. Sure wish things were back to the way they were. Give it time, yes. But sometimes, time doesn't heal everything. But sometimes it does too. Let's hope it is the latter huh.

Lazy Saturday

Somehow I can see the end of the tunnel. But where is the light that normally shines from there? Does this mean my job is done here? Am I done here? Was yesterday a brief shimmer of hope or just a desperate attempt to safe everything before the inevitable apocalypse hits home?

Ah I am coming undone.

Plus the repro system must be charged with murder soon - it's killing me.

Hauntings

Life is tough.

Life can be cruel as well I know.

Time and time again it has proven to be true.

Tired of just being nowhere, lost and wandering.

Why were emotions created anyway?

Wanna jump up to the skies of gloom.

Maybe this time I'm never gonna come down.

Maybe this time I don't need to anymore.

Wouldn't life just be perfect then?

Maybe it will be.

Without the worries in the world.

Without any sense of insecurity.

Without chasing the sands of time.

Without fighting and senseless deaths.

Maybe one day it will all come true.

Let's just pray it wouldn't be too late.

13 you can just go and rot in hell where you belong.

!?!

Bernie Mac (Bernard Jeffery McCullough) died August 8th 2008??!!! Since when?? Man I wonder where I was when that news was published in the papers/websites. How come I didn't catch it? Damn it man.

Remember him? He was in movies such as Charlie's Angels, Ocean's 11, 12 & 13, Guess Who, Transformers and the upcoming show Soul Men, in which another actor/super famous 1960's soul singer/voice of Chef in SouthPark Isaac Hayes (WTF he died too already?!!) died one day after Bernie Mac died. O_O All the famous people are going huh.

Man am I lagging or what.

What are the things that make you feel like you have been a horrible person, be it as a son, daughter, lover, mother, boss, student or basically just any person? It is hard isn't it, be perfect and trying to live up to people's expectations and having to please them everyday. Which is why some people just choose to ignore their expectations and plan how to escape that duty of theirs, and by doing so are able to live their lives 'fully'. Does this make them a horrible person, or a horribly smart person in planning and deceiving?

Have been waking up in a daze for the past few days at 8am though I've been sleeping at 3am+. Wonder what's wrong with me. Why do I like to accept things for the way they are (sometimes) and just any problems off, convincing myself that it is ok and nothing is wrong and getting myself to carry on with the situation still unsolved? I know it's shit.

I guess I don't know what I want anymore. Did I ever?

Patho patho

13 better not be an unlucky number. Happy 13 months baby : )

Went ice-skating yesterday at Sunway Pyramid. I'm a pro when it comes to skateboards, but ice-skating?? Yea it was my first time, convinced by the gf - who knows how to ice-skate!! - to go and try. It wasn't that bad I would have to say; in fact it was quite fun haha. Proudest moment? I didn't fall down at all : D 

Then we went to TGV and watched Pathology. Made me want to think twice about Dr Thani and Dr Annie Tay the next times I see them in IMU. Yea it was a short movie, and the plot a little predictable, but I thought it wasn't that bad a movie. Ok probably wasn't that worth RM10, but sure, download it or watch it on HBO. Or Blu-Ray, which will be really cool for the gory bits. Karmen this is probably the movie you've been waiting for since it has Milo Ventimiglia in it as lead actor. 

Anyway, have been studying. A little. Since my ICA is in a month's time or so and there are 3 systems to cover. Damn. I'm almost done on endocrine so I'll see how it goes on the OLIS. Or SILOS or whatever it's called. The P.Kumar notes in endo really kills you. 

whacked

Back in KL after a week in Brunei relaxing. And doing PBL. And reading endocrine. Yea finally decided to start studying. The gf still in Beijing, until tomorrow noon. It is now 2am and I'm freaking tired but lazy to sleep since the whole week in Brunei I had been sleeping early and waking up late. Got to change my routine back to 'normal'. Haha.

Realized that vertigo can be a terribly uncomfortable and annoying thing to have. So inconvenient being not able to stand up and walk around without feeling dizzy and having the room spin around like the vanilla ice cream in the McFlurry-making machine. *drools* But seriously though, it is terrible.

1+1 = 2

Ah we have all been pretty silly.

Like Mr Rodney King said, "Why can't we all just get along?"

Think about it before you open your gob.

IMU Cup is finally over. It was a great event spanning around 2 months, and I am glad that I was a part of it, winning 2 medals and gaining lots of experience. Then like every event will come the complains, some legit, some bullshit. Some people and batches who don't have much or any experience in the sporting scene just want to make a big fuss out of something pointless. Unfortunately my batch is the one with the most complains. Again. Now don't get me wrong, I TOTALLY want my batch to win - heck I was totally bummed when they announced the cheerleading results and it dawned that our batch couldn't win the overall IMU Cup. However sometimes we just have to draw a line when taking sides.

Table tennis is one of the issues here. M107 (my batch) fielded an illegal player in the team, and hence we were demoted to 4th place instead of 3rd. From a sports point of view, any team with an illegal player should be disqualified and given 0 points. Agreed? A 4th place is already a good enough agreement but apparently not. Now the team comes, however, saying that they didn't know that the girl couldn't play for the team. This after it was already made clear to everyone by the IMU Cup committee which batch of bMed can play. Only the people in table tennis didn't know about this rule while ALL the other sport captains knew. It's pretty obvious who is to blame then huh. Furthermore, ignorance is NEVER an excuse in sports! There was an incident during an Olympic under-23 football qualifying match a few years ago, and a team fielded a 24-year old player. The entire team was DQ eventhough the players and the coach were not at fault. It was the football association of that country that made a mistake in registration. So coming back to M107, how can we not be DQ stating that we were ignorant??

True the fact that the older batch of bMed cannot play in the IMU Cup was not written down in black and white. The President of the SRC - whom I think with all due respect is wrong - thinks that everything must be in black and white for it to be legit. So in that case, I guess we can all write our answers down on our hands, foreheads, ass cheeks, tissue paper, handkerchiefs and stuff 'em in condoms which in-turn stuffed up our anus, and bring them into the exam halls, because it is not in black and white that we can't cheat with those methods. Seriously, I think we all need some sense of verbal agreement and common sense. Which the President thinks is lacking in us. Yes he said that. Pity, guess we are all going to be shit doctors.

Mind you

Let me relate to you an interesting event that I happened to witness this afternoon when I went to Carrefour with the gf. I had to buy my badminton grip, and she wanted to get some biscuits for her bro who is going overseas next week. So we were queuing up and talking about lunch when suddenly a middle-aged chinese man starting yelling at the malay cashier, who was trying her best to ignore him and serve the next customer, a young chinese man. To cut the long story short, from what I gather the man was yelling at the cashier because he couldn't find his credit card/BonusLink card, and he thought that the cashier didn't give it back to him. The yelling got quite bad, and the cashier couldn't stand it and stormed away in tears to her manager's office. During this 2-3 minutes, the younger chinese man, totally amused and bemused by this whole situation, started searching for the card everywhere around the cashier's area.

And he found it in the man's trolley.

By now all of us (ok maybe just me) were thinking what and idiot this older chinese man (let's call him A and the younger one B) is. B then told A that maybe he could be a little more careful and search properly before accusing others. A then snapped and started to yell at B saying that it was none of his business, and just stormed away. Talk about gratitude. B then started yelling at A calling him a coward and asked him to come back and face him like a man. By the way 2 malay security guards were there the whole time chilling by the side. B then started to comfort the cashier, who came back in more tears.

Moral of the story? You decide. Me? I was, for those few minutes, ashamed (and then proud) to be a Malaysian chinese.

Uno

It's been a year now that the gf and I have been together.

=)

=D

But cannot go out celebrate. Too damn busy and tired thanks to IMU Cup. Roar. But it's alright. My batch is top of the table so far! Hopefully we can keep up the good work and win more gold. Starting with this Saturday and Sunday with futsal and badminton respectively. Woo the pressure. =\

Bad-minton

What a terrible disappointment. I don't know what happened and I can't offer any explanations. Let's just be thankful that we are in the semis and that I can play better this Sunday, though our opponents will be tougher. 

4 weeks have just blown by just like that. The endocrine system is done and today starting on repro. Talk about fast. 

Tell you where you need to go

Tell you when you'll need to leave

Tell you what you need to know

Tell you who you need to be.

But everything inside you knows

Says more than what you've heard

So much more than empty conversations

Filled with empty words.

Give me one more time around

Give me one more chance to see

Give me everything You are

Give me one more chance to be near you.

Cause everything inside looks like

Everything I hate

You are the hope I have for change

You are the only chance I'll take.

Light My Fire

IMU Cup continues. Despite the weather being as terrible as it can ever be thanks to global warming. See people it actually exists. Since when did we have rain and a monsoon season in September?? The North-east monsoon - which is the one that affects us - is usually from November till February. I hate global warming.

Anyway, my batch M107 doing quite ok so far. Gold in netball and squash, silver in male basketball and scrabble, 4th for football. Bowling and chess were also played already but I don't know the results to those. All I know is that we didn't win the gold. It's ok. Badminton later on in the evening. 7pm. Nervous. Badminton is the only sports that can get me nervous. The gf said last night that it is because it is my primary sport. I guess so. We really must get into the finals this year. After all we do have the best male badminton player in IMU. Marcus, in case you were wondering.

Watched the US Open tennis till 5am last night/this morning. Great games. Federer looked like he is finally back to his good old dominating self, while Andy Murray was brilliant and now holds a 2-set lead over Nadal, and their game was postponed till further notice due to - don't hold your breath - rain.

Ok I need my lunch.

what next?

There are times I don't know what to think anymore. There are times I don't know what to say anymore. There are times I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing seems to work, nothing seems to help.

Ah what's the point. Concentrate on the future I guess. Badminton on Sunday. PBL in 20 minutes time. Things like that. If there is a one-way train to Never-neverland 'll be the 1st to hop on. Question is, will you stop me and ask me to stay?

Death

Metallica set to release their first studio album since St. Anger in 2003 on the 12th of September! That is like 9 more days only! Hopefully it is much better than St. Anger which was full of crap and commercialized rock music. Early reviews are good, so....keeping my hopes up.

Basketball finals are tonight, this time we want the gold medal. On the other hand I should start studying my endocrine. Maybe just 1 or 2 notes. Lazy though. Lazy even to type in full sentences.

idle mind

Just a little more to the right. And the bronze medal could have been ours. Unfortunately it was not to be. Terribly sorry guys.

Awesome

Busy playing this game on my PSP. Haha re-discovering my love for RPG games again. And Final Fantasy of course. If only the PSP's version of Metal Gear was this good.

Lost. Tired. Just generally don't know what to do. The gf is back in Teluk Intan for 2 days. Just suddenly having the weird empty feeling that hasn't struck me for a long time. Ah bother. There's PBL to do. There is a week of Endocrine notes to read up. Not in the mood. Sad.

Ahh it is a terribly emo night. And tomorrow morning at 7.30am got basketball training. Maybe I should just get an early sleep. Wake up feeling better hopefully. Haih.

It is funny how we never treasure the things we got till they are gone. I know it is a very cliched saying, but it is true. Again and again it will happen.

The next wave

Guess we will have to wait another 4 years for our first Olympic gold medal. Was I disappointed? I have to say I really was, but not because he lost, but the manner that he did so. He really did look like an amateur, weighed down by all the media and the pressure on his shoulders to be the country's first Olympic gold medal winner. 12-21, 8-21. In a finals. That is unheard of until now. Poor Chong Wei. He is not to be blamed I feel. He just couldn't handle the pressure and the crazy China crowd. Where were our supporters?? The ones who keep blaming the athletes for not winning?? Such a pity. All talk no action as usual.

Ah well, maybe better luck next time eh? Congrats to Chong Wei anyway for winning the silver! It is in itself a very great achievement.

Oh and I captained my batch football team to a 5-1 win over Pharm A in the IMU Cup match just now this afternoon. Scored a cracker of a goal from way out - halfway between the halfway line and the goal. Haha! =D Hope we will win tomorrow as well for basketball!! Come on M107, it is our time!!

After watching this movie last night with the gf, I totally recommend this show to everyone. I don't want to be a spoiler so I'll just say that the plot and the overall script was very good, very entertaining and scarily might come true in the near future. In fact some of us are already like that now.

And the main thing on my must buy list is this:
Ahh comic books from Marvel are just awesome. This is the latest crossover production, The Civil War. Costs RM85 for that one book. Thought over it last night after seeing it in the Comic Mart shop in MidValley, and decided to get it soon. How I miss just spending all the lazy afternoons like in primary and secondary school times reading comic and comic. Quite simply put, Marvel rocks.

Sleepy

The EPL kicks off again this weekend. Man Utd's season opener is against the porous defense of Newcastle, though this time around they have Fabricio Coloccini. Rooney is fit to start. Ronaldo is out.

On the local front, Lee Chong Wei is in the finals of the Olympics badminton! Opponent is who else but Lin Dan. Hope we can secure our first ever Olympic Gold heh. We do have a good chance actually, it all depends whether Chong Wei can hold his nerve and make less mistakes.

I want to go out. MidValley. Pavillion. Sunway Pyramid. Anywhere. Just go out and chill and walk around, maybe stay at Starbucks in Borders and read, or watch Wall-E if there are tickets. Instead of everyday training and training and running and training and at the end of the day just crazy tired and KO-ed.

And also maybe mum and sis are coming over this Sunday night until the 21st. Hmmm.

Tired tired tired.

Those are the only words that I can think now.

T'ganu!!

The weekend at the Ma'Daerah Turtle Sanctuary was awesome. Splendid. Not only was it a great time off - it was my real clear holiday without having to worry about the resits or the results. The bus journey was uneventful, and took 6hours, not 8 like what Geowin told me. -_- The place was nice and quaint and quiet, a nice getaway I thought, plus it is so near the sea!

So cutting straight to the chase, the most exciting part was the night patrol duty, which since the gf and I were in the 1st group, took place between 8pm and 2am, though the 1st night we stayed up till 4am. The patrol rangers said that we were very lucky on the 1st night - the night of the 08/08/08 - 8 turtles came out and laid eggs. Wow talk about coincidence. Olympic turtles I'll say. Anyway we couldn't use flash photography but I managed to take a video of one of the turtles laying the eggs. Can't upload it though. Hmm.

But I got pics of the baby turtles that just hatched out from their eggs and they just climbed out of the sand in the hatchery! (yea the babies do have to climb out of the sand from 60cm below all by themselves) We also got to release them to the sea, which really was quite a brilliant sight seeing all the tiny things racing for the sea in a state of energized frenzy.

The hatchery

Baby turtles!

The second night patrol started quite late though as less turtles came up. So we were quite bored and started reading novels and Reader's Digest. There was a group of about 20-30 people from Intel Penang also spending the weekend with us - I though they were a pretty weird group.

The boring 2nd night - so far

Then we got the call that there were 4 turtles coming up. And this one below was the most stubborn and aggressive turtle of the lot. Sitting in darkness and silence for up to 2hours waiting for them to dig the resting hole and egg chamber is just about bareable, but this female decided to change her mind about the hole she dug 3 times! Imagine just sitting there waiting, then when you thought she was ready and we can go nearer and watch (cuz once they start laying eggs hey wouldn't stop no matter what or who) she decides to dig another hole for another 30-40mins.

To make things more frustrating, she only laid 20 eggs. Normal amount 100. But then the rangers noticed that this turtle was different from the other types. It was still under the 'Agar' species, but this one had a longer shell and totally different markings on the shell. Did I mentioned that she was super aggressive?

Was allowed to use flash this time for 'research'

Last day our bus was at 10.30am. Took a few more photos before leaving. Sweet.


And oh, happy 11 months baby. =)

Space Oddity

Resit results out tomorrow 10am. Bus to Terengganu leaves at 11am from Hentian Putra. Yes it is a really tight schedule but it is the latest bus they have in the morning. So I went to IMU just now and asked if I could collect my results earlier - say today - as I'm afraid I might miss the bus. The woman in the AAD who answered my call said, "You can't change your bus ticket, we can't change our policy."

I mean, come on.

They don't even allow me to collect it earlier tomorrow morning. Guess 10am it is. Man this anxiety and nervousness can't be good for my health. ARGH!!

Passion!

Last night was just the greatest night. Ever. Went for the Passion World Tour concert which was held at Sunway Convention Center. A lot of IMU people were there, and there was also many from my church ECF. Geo, Brian and I got there at 3.30pm, which was quite early, and we queued and queued until 6pm before they let us into the air-conditioned hall.

The wait outside

The main screen above the stage

Luckily we all got great seats - right in the middle though it was the last row. Then it began. The slide shows were awesome, and the lighting was dazzling. Then Chris Tomlin got the show on the road. Wow. I listen to his songs and know some of them by heart, but I've never seen him before, so Geo and I thought he was some cowboy singer. Haha!

Throughout the performances, Pastor Louie Giglio gave short yet brilliant and awesome sermons. The message was good, and at the same time kept us all entertained. Heh an entertaining sermon. =p

Anyway Chris Tomlin wasn't he only performer. There was this other rocker dude Charlie Hall. Very cool.
Haha Trisha aren't you jealous? =D Plus I bought the cool T-shirt they were selling. It is very nice but it cost RM60. -__- Ah well, guess it'll help the next stop in Jakarta.

My parents. Same old story. Should have expected this to happen. First Langkawi last year and now this.

Sorry guys for FFK-ing the trip up to Lang Tengah. I really wanted to go on this trip, but there will be other times ok? Haha..

Enough to go to Sem 4 please!

Resits are done! From my point of view I thought it was pretty ok, some stations were quite straightforward. Achike scolded me for using my left hand to give him the sticker WTF, and then later said that I'll pass the station haha. Cool. Htin Aung was ok. History taking I got all the details, only the diagnostic tests for the diagnosis I wasn't sure. One SP was so kind to me heh. It was an Indian man, relatively middle-aged. I was supposed to take his past medical history.


Me: So sir, I will now be taking your past med hist. Were you hospitalized for any previous illnesses?

Him: No no no, before that you must ask me if I have any long standing illnesses! Go on, ask me.

Me: ......erm ok, do you any long standing illnesses?

Him: Yes yes, thanks for asking! I have diabetes, HTN...............


LOL. All these while he had his script in front of him; I should have just knocked him unconscious and took it away. He even told me that he visited his daughter a few days ago who had chicken pox, and now he has the rashes too. Though he didn't tell that to anyone else so I'm not sure if it is of any use.

Praise the Lord.

Saviour King by Hillsong

Listen to this song. I think it's awesome.

And now the weak say I have strength
By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
And now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is Him and I'm more than blessed

Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for your Son's holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are our king

We love you Lord, we worship you
You are our God, you alone are good

You asked your Son to carry this
The heavy cross our weight of sin

I love you Lord, I worship you
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king

Let now your church shine as the bride
That you soar in your heart as you offered up your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed those adopted as your own

I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king

Wearing my shoes of Gospel and Peace

When there is faith, there is hope. When there is faith, God will help us. And He will not desert us in our time of need. Tuesday. 2 hours. That's all that stands in the way to Sem 4. Sounds good. Looks good. More than ready this time, and the last practice tomorrow should cement everything.

Sundays have been like this lately. So much work to be done and everyone ends up tired by midday. Guess it's alright, staying at home and take some time off. Study. In fact I don't know what else to study anymore.

TV is so boring lately too. Except for the special Olympic channels which show some really nice history of the Olympics and all the classic action.

Time off

I was going to blog about something really cool and inspirational. And then it just totally slipped my mind. Climbed out of bed this morning at 6.30am cuz the gf has got futsal competition this morning. So accompanied her breakfast and walked her down. Then when I got back home I wasn't sleepy at all so decided to just loiter online while waiting for 10.30am later OSCE practice. Nothing online also really. Except for Jessica Alba.




Now before you think that I was looking for porn I wasn't, well not today and not now anyway. Just stumbled across her picture in Yahoo news and read more about it. Ah well. Back to reading then.

I really wanna go for a good movie with the gf. Or rather, just go out for a stroll, window-shopping; stuff like that. Guess they will have to wait. =(

Why do I feel that my fears are coming true?

HiJackThis is the program

Being a computer geek and a programming nerd sure has its advantages. Take my friend Ralph for example, who saved my laptop from spyware which couldn't be fixed with spybot or ad-aware or anything like that. Did it all the way from the UK as well that bugger. Top of his class in Uni of York doing computer science and software engineering. And to think we kept bullying him in secondary school, and the Malays didn't like him cuz he was half-Brit half-Chinese.

Just a word of warning - DON'T install any antivirus program that pops up, saying that it had run a free test on your PC and that it is not protected against the latest shit. Haha can't believe I fell for that. It was 1 in the morning!

Sounds familiar?

There I stood on Platform 1. Awaiting the train. The train of life. I'd bought the boarding ticket - a week early to avoid the rush - and now is the time. Quarter to 2. 2am that is. Managed to squeeze some sleep in the evening, or else I'll be dead now. I hastily finished off my food and banana and threw the remains on the floor. Not like it mattered over here in this city.

People were beginning to pour in. Like ants when their nest is destroyed. Mostly by us humans. Noise levels elevate and I have a hard time hearing the music from my Ipod. Heaving my bag over my right shoulder I shuffled to a nearby bench and collapsed onto it. Black market ticket sellers began to take over the place with their yelling, attempting to make quick money with counterfeits. I've always been puzzled over how the train conductor let the fake tickets through later during ticket stamping and collection, but that doubt was all but dispelled when I saw, with my own two eyes, the train conductor receiving a lump of money from the sellers.

Suddenly, beyond the bend of the track on the horizon, came a long piercing whistle. I squinted into the distance and saw a puff of smoke - the train is arriving. Right on time. I picked up my bag and made my way through the human sea in vain to get to the front of the queue. Within seconds the train screeched to a halt at the station. Ignoring the announcement for us to stand clear of the door, more people started to join the queue and a mini shoving contest ensued. Desperately I tried to push my way around those jokers to get to the train. The doors were already opening but no one seemed to be getting out of the train. The conductor was already bellowing out that the doors were closing in a few seconds - I must get in this time! It was then I saw a gap in the sea, and I rushed through it; I was going to make it after all. Then I tripped. People hurried past me without offering a hand. That's the way it is around here. Guess I would have done the same.

By the time I looked up the doors were closing and the horn was blown. I tried to pick myself up as fast as I can but I know the train doesn't wait for anyone, and before I knew it, it was gone, gone away from this forsaken land, gone to a place where the pastures were a sea of red, yellow and green, and where people can actually see the sun shining. I crumpled onto the ground in a heap of frustration and anger, annoyed by my incompetence. I wonder when the next train will come. Perhaps soon. Perhaps never. One never knows. Just have to prepared. I'll be ready the next time it comes by. And I'll be on that train, that train of life again.

Midnight arrival

Back in KL. This time around I'm not over-excited like I was before. I don't think it is because of the resit that much though. Just can't place my finger on the reason. Just feel very fatigued and lost at the moment.

Gf will be in KKB until Wednesday night. Had the first rounds of real OSCE practice this morning in the CSU room. Thought it went pretty good. Really wanna pass this time around. Now I can't even concentrate on helping my batch in trainings and banners and stuff.

Ahh I need to sleep. At 4pm.

Points

I'm sure everyone has heard of the quote, 'life, or something like it'.

I wonder, is mine life? Or just something like it?

Brunei has been just fine. Helping mum out with the business while studying. And watching movies heh heh. Going out to watch The Dark Knight later with my family. Should be good. Wouldn't it be creepy though to watch Heath Ledger's performance as The Joker? Yea.

Flight back to KL is just around the bend. Hope the Anwar arrest hasn't caused too much trouble in M'sia. WTF right. Human beings are such an impossible species.

Reporting from across the sea

Back in Brunei. Slow as ever. Only bad thing is having to spend the hols time studying for OSCE resit. Ah well. Heading back to KL on the 20th july cuz I've already booked the CSU rooms and lecturer for practice.

Birthday is tomorrow. Turning 20 heh. It's been a long and winding road that's for sure, but I'm defintely looking forward to the future. =)

Starting to miss the gf as well now. Haih.

How's everyone there in KL?

5.55pm later

Going back to Brunei later this afternoon. Have this strange hollow feeling....I have no idea how to describe it. Having to resit my OSCE certainly has put a dent in my holidays, and not only that but I'll have to face my parents.

When should I come back here? Resit is on the 29th. 20th? Too early? Too late? Yea maybe 20th is fine. I'm only leaving for 10 days then.

Managed to watch both 'Made of Honor' and 'Wanted' yesterday at Mid-valley and Pavilion respectively. Seriously thought that 'Wanted' was much better.

Having a mini mock OSCE later with the CSU doctor.

I want to scream out loud but then it makes no difference.

Pre-birthday

With the disappointment behind me, I picked Geowin up from his place and we went to church together to redeem ourselves and look for some answers. And I think we found them. Or I did anyway. Everything that happens God has a reason, and I totally accept that. We just have to keep going and God will be with us.

After church we went to this restaurant/bar at Sunway called the Borneo Rainforest. Chialee and Sean already bought the birthday cake and they wanted to surprise me, so they asked Geo to stall me, which he did horribly haha.

We were waiting at the front of the waterfall area.....

Me: What we waiting here for? Though they are in front of the big screen? *points to the screen at the other end*
Geo: Just chilling dude. Wanna see what they do here.
Me: -__- ok I go see if they are there.

Come on la bro, you can act better than that haha even as a cripple. So this is the birthday cake that they bought for me. Strawberry ice cream cake. Heh. Thanks guys for the cake. And the present! Which is a Nike jersey. It's in the washing so I can't take a picture.


However the only thing we ate was pizza. And we drank cocktails. Oh and shisha. Hogged by Cheekin.



Then we went into Euphoria!! Malaysia's first super club! Though I am underage. Heh heh. Though they played dance and house music throughout the night it was find I guess.

Passed the theory.

Failed the OSCE.

Not fun. So unexpected. Never once did I worry about the practical. Stand alone paper some more. The only good thing is that I will be much better in OSCE in the future. And that I only resit one paper.

I can feel my apex beat.

This is the worst feeling ever; half happy with no exams, half whacked-out nervous due to results tomorrow. 10am. I should have more faith I guess.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out.

Pray the Lord bless me with a pass/good result.

I hate suspense.

Errrbody in the club get tipsy

2 more days till the results for the EOS comes out. Couldn't be more nervous though I try not to show it. Definitely do not want to fail and resit. Why OSPE, why?!

Tickets back to Brunei already booked and bought. Heading back there on the 9th of July. And back here again on the 1st of August. 1 month without the gf. Better than 2 months I guess huh. Currently reading 'The Count of Monte Cristo', the classic by Alexandre Dumas. Zakhir came over last night to practice his OSCE with me, and he commented that we don't have time at all to read any other books other than medical journals and books. How true. How I miss the times when I used to just read fiction and literature everyday.

This new Vanessa Hudgens' album 'Identified' actually have songs that are not bad, considering that all other songs nowadays are crap. Just didn't expect it to be this good haha. (My expectations are quite low) Worth downloading, let alone buying the original album.

And Chialee, there is age limit for Euphoria! Well according to Karmen anyway. So how? -_- The website is damn cool though. http://www.euphoria.com.my/

God be with us all

My big brother from another mother Mr Geowin Solo-woman going for his surgery tomorrow. To remove some plantar warts. I pray that everything goes well for him in the OT, and he will recover quick enough and in time to be fit to kick ass in the upcoming IMU Cup.

Oh and must pass this EOS first. Oh boy oh boy oh boy.

re: Kar

The pictures we took at Maison's! Finally gotten to upload them. Didn't take much there though. Heh Leslie head somehow always can't stay in the picture.

The first weekend without exams. Just can't believe that one can be this relieved and happy and carefree. Spent the Saturday at Pavillon. Very nice place, though I have no money with 3 of my friends *ahem ahem* owing me money still. Still, a great place to unwind and relax with the gf, who also finished her exam.

Then today Sunday we went there again haha, this time with her family as well. Ahh holidays sure are fun. And later, EURO FINALS!!! There isn't a team that I really support though, but since the gf is supporting Spain, and she always supports Man Utd with me, I will root for Casillas and co. Also because the Germans don't play as attractive football.

Karmen I'm so sorry!! I'll upload the group pictures we took at the club tomorrow ok!! =) Though I am not in the pic cuz I was taking the shots. ROAR.

You want mini cupcake too?

Went to Bangsar Village with the gf today. Just didn't register in me that I should bring more money out cuz we are going shopping, and in Bangsar as well it ain't cheap. So most of the money spent today was on food.

KL tonight!!

Another EOS over and done with, I hope. OSPE was tough. Really tough. Need to pray damn hard, pray I can pass. And to think that I was aiming to get a B+ or at least a B-.

Boohoo.

Ah well no use crying over spilled milk. Gonna enjoy for now!

Joyful days are here to stay

First day of OSCE was today. The epitome of nervousness I tell you. Damn. And to make it worse my first two stations were, and are going to be, physical examination stations. I thought that it will good to get them done with and out of the way but I was wrong like I've never been wrong before. Started with a chest expansion, but somehow it didn't register in my mind that it said 'POSTERIOR' chest expansion. Wasted time there and hence couldn't do the vocal resonance thing. Then 2nd station was taking blood pressure. The only thing I didn't practice as I thought I still remembered how to do it.

See? Piece of cake.

But guess what happened after I fastened the velcro cuff and started to pump? The velcro cuff just opened. Now how in the hibby-jibbies did that happen?! God knows. It was then I say the doctor inside the room marking dashes across the marking scheme. Superfuck. I carried on hoping to get a few marks though, and this time when I started to pump the mercury went out and down and up and down like a porn star on top of some guy. CCB I forgot to close the lock on the pump.

Thank God I had a rest station after that to regroup my mind and calm down. And the next station was a BS history taking (my fav - Zhiven out of jealously said that it is caused I'm good in seducing older women, poor lost kid) which got me back on track.

Then came Htin Aung, and his 'DO NOT KNOCK THE FREAKING DOOR' sign. CCB my heart went haywire again, but luckily it was apex beat and locate thrills. So I was happily doing and found the apex beat. Or so I thought. Cuz he then stopped my just when I was about to report the position and said, "It is a sin to lie, son. We, as professionals and doctors, are here to help and serve. If I can't locate the apex beat, how can you?" CCB CCB. I just apologised saying it wouldn't happen again and carried on cuz I only have way less than 5 minutes left now! But I did finish, and didn't get 'char-ed' by him again - on the contrary it was the best physical exam station. Wtf.

And tomorrow for sure it will be lymph nodes and GI. And maybe rectal. Joyful days are here to stay.

Hoho what did I say? Guus is a magician, and he has done it again. Yea I supported Holland before the start of Euro, only because England weren't in it. But then Holland had always disappointed when it comes to the knockout rounds, and they did it again. Brilliant in the group stages, played more like, well, Holland last night. Arshavin opened the frail Dutch defense like a can of sardines, and Pavlyuchenko, who only scored 2 out of the 19 shots he had in this Euro, scored. And could have scored 2 more as well. Van der Sar played well, but the decision not to start van Persie was bad. The decision not to bring on Robben was worse. Ah but history was always not going to favor Holland in this game - the last time a team won all group games and won the Euro was in 1984 when France did it.

Big day tomorrow. Hope I get some decent sleep tonight. And not get sick or some shitty cold like on my GI+Haemato exam day.

Don't worry ok?

Oh my fuck this is the final weekend before the EOS. Traditionally I don't usually study the weekend before my exams. Since O-levels till EOS 2. Wonder if I should do it again. Probably not such a good idea.

I want to play Metal Gear Solid 4! I would buy a PS3 just to play that game damnit. And to think that some people who already own one are not interested in playing the game. Philistines.

And of course GTA 4. Damnit.

And this new game 'Spore'. Sounds and looks awesome. Damnit.

Aooga

Bring back 'Whose Line Is It Anyway'!! I miss that show so much...

Guess it is down to this last week. 6 more days to EOS. Alarm bells a-ringing. Trying my best to stay focussed. Really need too huh. Ahh I created so many acronyms and songs-for-memorizing-stuff that I hope I can actually remember them come the day of the exam. Anyone who can guess what the acronym below is is most definitely a m-freaking Einstein.

Usually
I
Always
Need
Both
Dicks
Present
Cos
Cunts
Are
Pretty
Crowded

*hint: Think GI. Still don't get it fool? Think jaundice. Still don't get it? Whatever.

Random days

One more week to the biggest exams of my life so far. Hope I am prepared. 4 systems ain't easy, but it sure isn't that difficult as well. Really want to make it to Sem 4. I was wondering just the other day - why people always make plans for the future when so much can change within evan the next 5 minutes? Or in this case so many people have been talking about the events to be taking place in the next half-a-year in the next semester and all. I also have been doing it so...guess it is only human. Gives us a sense of hope and something to look forward to. Imagine if all of us do not have this thinking capability. What a horrible place the world would be. Worse than it already is.

Sundays are here again. CSI was quite good this afternoon. Even CSI Miami was good. Decided to include a picture of its star Horatio Caine. Heh heh heh.


Ok he isn't that bad, he is just one of your typical love-him-or-hate-him guys. So I took the personal liberty of compiling shots of him. The gf is gonna kill me haha.




Oh yea. Superfly and supercool. Talk about the overkill on the usage of sunglasses.

And this, my dear readers, is the end of this blog entry. *puts on sunglasses and walks out of the camera view* YEEAAAAAAAAA!!!

Ondine's Curse?!

This headache is going to kill me. My occipital area bloody hurts. As if someone clubbed me on the back of my head, and my brain with all the cerebrospinal fluid flowing out and pressing against my skull. Feels like the Detroit Pistons full-court pressing and double teaming my freaking head and pressurizing and squeezing the life out of me.

First group stage of Euro '08 is over. And a bit of the 2nd group stage. Switzerland is out. Portugal are in. Guss Hiddink and his Russians disappointed me so far. The Dutch were brilliant. The Germans quiet and efficient as always. We'll see then what happens in the second round.

EOS is starting to get into my nerves now. Keep having random freaking out times and random dreams about random events which I don't remember. Hmm this post is going nowhere. And I am losing my attention and concentration span for not just studying but quite a few things.

Wow I can actually feel my brain shutting down right as I type this. Quite amazing and at the same time freaky. I need to stay alive and awake to study damnit! Oh crap.

Diddly

Man this EOS really is the killer.

On the other hand, happy 9 months to us!

=)

What a Sunday

I hate my nose and respiratory tract.

When it is time

In the ferry on the way to Pangkor Island.

On the deck of the ferry.

Gay on the left. Don't ask what we were doing.

Heh heh heh.

The ass-jump-of-glory.

Messing about at the swings. It was a frigging hot afternoon.

The last morning there. This is me favorite shot hehe. =)

These pictures are way overdue, I know. Yep the gf and I paid Pangkor another visit on the 23rd of May, this time with her parents, brother and Xinru. How I wish I am still there instead of having to be couped up under house-arrest like Aung San Suu Kyi. With the sea at my doorstep, with the pure sunrise and sunset just a window's glance away.

For more pictures you can check the gf's blog here.

And finally the weekend has arrived! Well, not like it makes any difference to studying, but yea. More of because Euro '08 is going to kick off! Woohoo! And hopefully I can spare a little time to go out with the gf. Haven't gone out in AGES. =\

Who?

As I wander down the memory road I remember the times I had in primary school. Then moving on to secondary school was one of the most memorable times of my life cuz at the same time my family and I moved to a new place to stay. It was fun, a new beginning, at the same time a terrifying one as the environment was new, and there weren't much of my old friends moving to that secondary school. I was, even at that young age, beginning to experience letting go, starting anew, adjusting to a new place and new faces.

Fast forward that a few years later and I was accepted into IMU. Away from home. On another country - well technically not, I'm a M'sian. Starting this long journey to becoming a doctor. Note after note, exam after exam. The world is indeed a cruel one, and I'm just at the tip of the iceberg. I remember discussing why the world is rotting during my A-level times in JIS with my Chemistry (shudders) lecturer Mr Pluck, a very cool guy. Used to play the electric guitar for a British underground band. He said, "In this world, there are no good people or bad people. Just uneducated fools who couldn't care less." Looking recent events I guess it is more and more obvious.

Ahhh just wish life could be a little more carefree. Just a little. Too much and I will just rot on the inside - like the time after my A-levels and I had 6 months to kill before entering IMU. God that was one of the most boring times of my life.

Changing the topic - can't help it the torrential rainfall is disturbing - to this weather problem. Or rather, global warming. It is real, it is happening, and you all got to be 'uneducated fools' if you all don't notice and try to make a change. There are more and more natural disasters in the world. Cyclones everywhere. Since when does it rain this often in June?? It is the South-West monsoon now for crying out loud!

Euro is starting in 3 days??! Shits-zo I just realized it. All hail midnight football matches again! There goes my morning studies. Should I support The Netherlands? Though they have been always disappointing on the big stage and their group is the Group of Death. I would think France and Italy will come out from that group. Hmm. Looking at the draw I guess Germany or Spain then...they have a clearer road (including the Q-finals) to the Finals. But Russia....with Guus? (remember what he did when he managed South Korea in World Cup 2002?) Good chance too, after all they did beat Beckham and his merry English band.

Lucky

2 down, 2 to go.

If only the weather can be kinder. Why does it rain when we don't want it to rain, and doesn't rain when we want to?

'Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?' - Travis.

Boy what a slow day today is turning out to be - study wise anyway. Just can't seem to get started. Bloody slow, literally, since I'm doing heamato now.

B

Got a B for GI + Haemato. Don't know to be happy or sad or both or neither. Guess depending on how you look at it it can be either a good result or a failure. God only knows. It is interesting to see people's expressions when they tell you their results. A 'B' could mean the world to one, while it could be like a disaster to another. I wish I know what it means to me. If I got a B in secondary school, it would be really bad for me. Now, sometimes, I'm just happy to pass while at the same time I want to get the results I know that I can and should get.

Seize the day.

Must find some way of killing and getting rid of this fatigue. It is like I am having the urge and the desire to study but then the body and the mind is not willing. My eyelids are constantly drooping, head is spinning and mind wandering. Just drop dead.

A Big Nothing

Yes! 3 more notes to the end of CVS. Then I can do the OSCE part of it. Gosh I'm really disgusted by studying so much everyday. Though this morning the gf and I did plan and managed to go and catch Indiana Jones at the movies. Not bad at all considering his old age. Had lunch at Kim Gary's. Really wanted to eat the asparagus and mushroom with the baked double cheese thing but they took so damn long to send it to us. Speaking of which I am hungry now. Crap. My hunger pangs are lately just beginning to rage and spiral out of control.

And the gf is super pissed cuz the net is s l o w e r t h a n e v e r.

Everything in life happens for a reason, and I see it now more than ever. And some people think by posting anonymous comments they are so great and can say whatever they want. Here is a thought to all of them - since brains are a rarity nowadays - why not say what you want to the person directly, face to face, instead of hiding behind a fake name and being a coward? I mean, after all, you all obviously have so much imperious wisdom to share with the rest of us mere mortals?

This is not intended to anyone in particular, just speaking up for a friend (and also shielding myself heh). Ok back to Wegener's granulomatosis.

Points to Ponder

Would you live for nothing, or die for something?

Snap

Spent the weekend at Pangkor. Just wanted to take a weekend off and relax before hitting the notes and books again. Had a great time there with the gf and her family. And before I know it, it was Monday again and I had to wake up early and go for lab sessions. Which wasn't entirely useful, partly as I was still half-asleep.

Hence there is 4 more weeks to EOS 3. 28 more days to go. Must gung ho as it is all or nothing. On the other hand, don't you just hate it when all the nice movies come out when you are busy with projects, work or studies and when you are absolutely free, all the crap come out like diarrhea. Damn movie-makers. Don't you want to earn more money?

Looks like the rainy season is here again.

2008!!

MAN UTD are the KINGS of Europe again!! Come on Man Utd!!

Gombak

The hospital attachment wasn't that bad this morning. Except that our patient was either lying, or has schizophrenia. All he kept saying to us was 'no pain, only fever' when we asked him what his main complaint was. Then when we checked his case files, he was admitted for fever, chills, diarrhea, vomiting and had severe abdominal pain. WTF. Also he had like 5 other infections and illnesses. Man was I pissed or what.

Today also marks the beginning of EOS preparations. 4 systems. Decided to accompany the gf to the library to study. I don't really like the new library as it is a tad too bright and sunny hence it brings too much joy to the people inside. And it is not extreme cold, so all the people inside keep freaking chatting away like it is a fish-market, and moving about. Bloody hell it is a library for crying out loud. I miss the solitary, cold, Siberia-like freezer lower-ground place where they put tables and chairs and individual cubicles for us to study. At least it was dead silent and you can pay attention. Pity.

because my PSP ran out of battery and I didn't bring the charger.

Sundays. The day of rest and relaxation. Sometimes though I wish there was more to do around here than just study and doing nothing else, or not studying and doing nothing else. Life of a medical student around IMU without a car I guess. I am yet to watch Iron Man or Speed Racer, wonder if they are really worth the effort and the money or not. Hmmm.

Woke up this morning to the sweet sounds of nothing. Just remembered that there is CSI at 12pm. One of the reasons that I dragged my lazy behind out of the bed. Also I was hungry and my urinary bladder was full. Anywho-billy, today has the makings and the potential to be yet another legendary do-nothing-but-sit-around-collect-dust-&-let-mould-grow-between-your-fat-arse-and-the-sofa day. Might as well huh? Since this is one of the rare weekends that I can actually be free and do nothing with no worries.

I have the urge to play basketball. Damn it our training is this Friday and I might be going to Pangkor.

Hopsital attachments start next Tuesday. Not one of my more favourite things. Especially since need to wake up at 6am.

Ah it's a nice, bright and sunny day and I am couped up at home. Wonder why people in Malaysia come up with all these lame reasons to stay indoors or to skip meetings and classes. If it rains, they complain it is too wet and cold. If it is sunny, they complain that it is too hot and sweaty and sleep-inducing. Then again not everyone is like me - with the air-con turned on 24/7 heh heh. Yea I am the environment's worst nightmare, though I have been doing a lot of environment-saving things lately.

Who wants to sing K?

...before it's too late

Well this is it. The countdown road to EOS 3. And all the while in the middle of it all there is Euro 2008. Damn. Should be starting off CVS next week followed by Respi. If I play it right, I should have more than enough time doing one system per week. Let's keep our fingers crossed eh.

Natural disasters sure have been popular lately huh. Cyclone Nargis in Myammar, then at the same time and earthquake of magnitude 7.9 on the Richter Scale whacking China. I guess I can make a joke out of all these by saying that God is trying to help those 2 countries reduce the burden of their economy due to food crisis by reducing the population, but that will just be irrelevant. Cuz that sounds more like the work of the Devil.

What happened in China however brings us all to a very pressing issue - the quality of the construction. Not just in China, but also here in our lovely, careful, and meticulously high quality Malaysia. Where the constructors - and dare I say the big shots *ahem ahem* - care about their work so so much. Schools all around the earthquake collapsed like dominos, while other buildings remained steady. This lead to the unnecessary deaths of hundreds of children, and fueling the rage of the nation's parents. Now I am no sure of the construction situation there, but over here in Malaysia it sure isn't any better. Heck my own family were victims of terrible workmanship during the renovation of our house in PJ.

In IMU, during the wee days of Sem 1, my ex-housemate and I did a little research in the IMU building as we are such caring people wanting just to make this world a better and safer place to be in. And also we were fuck bored and free and spent every night in IMU. Glorious. Anywho-billy, we were discussing about how IMU managed to finish off the top floor and other renovating works so quickly, and we came up with the 'radical' idea that quality was affected in the process. Hence we went around doing a simple check - knocking on pillars. And guess what. Most of them were hollow. *gasp.

Now obviously the chances of an earthquake happening over here is second to none, but with the climate shift and all, and IMU being a medical school (INTERNATIONAL as well), it is high time for something to be done innit? Why can't Malaysians enjoy good quality facilities and products without something to be sacrificed, be it speed or price? As a letter in The Star said commented today, it is time for us to stop thinking like a Third-World country, and act like one.

Haha gotcha!

It actually said that we should stop thinking and acting like a Third-World country and instead try to improve ourselves rather than free-falling behind. Try. Not just in the governing of the country and construction and infrastructure and public transport, but also in, I don't know, say, SPORTS??!?!! Come on! Our Thomas Cup team could and should have won.

What the

Exam over. For now. Big one on the 23rd of June. Must start studying earlier this time. Cuz the exam just now sucked. Started off easy with the OBA. Then the MEQ and OSPE murdered me brutally. Plus I was sneezing and having runny nose like the River Nile. And I was abit drowsy as I took 2 panadols - not the anti-cold and flu ones cuz uni doesn't have them - and they had no positive effects on me whatsoever. Ah doom and gloom.

Partial Pylorus Pancreaticoduodenectomy

Can't believe that I am not stressed out. How weird. Probably a delayed reaction thing. Right now I can only think about sleeping and having a nice rest. Luckily (or not) our exam is in the afternoon from 2pm till 5pm. Ahh my mind just can't stop wandering.

And there is a basketball friendly going on at the IMU court. I can hear and see everything that is happening and I am so tempted to go and watch. Ah I wish I can play in the team. Ah well.

Pasties.

Ok so this is the thing. 2 more days to Haemato + GI. Maybe make that 1. Since it is already past midnight now.

Have I finished studying? Yes.

How many rounds? One.

Confident enough? Don't know.

I guessed if I'd started earlier I would've the chance to do more rounds. The more I think about it.....DAMN CAMPAIGNING. Ah well. Can't complain much I guess. My decision, my cross to bear. Well, not that extreme I guess - after all it's not like I really use the time to do serious re-reading anyway. Hmm. Dom seems to think that I am super confident and I only play with my PSP all the time. Wrong my fellow housemate. Look who doesn't even turn up for lectures.

Anyway, just feeling very fatigued these few days. It's late and I am hungry. Sleep or eat?

Damn it.

Perfect 10

The picture says it all!

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