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In Brunei already. Everyday I get reminders why I absolutely dislike coming back here.

1) no gf
2) slowest internet ever even with broadband wifi in my home
3) mum pissing me off constantly

The list goes on but you get the drift. Plus I'm just too lazy to type. I just cannot wait to get my freedom back, because this is just so very annoying. And people wonder why I don't like to return 'home'. Hah. If this is home I rather stay in KL for my whole holiday from now on, or even stay back in the UK where I can do my own shit.

Probably shouldn't write a post with such angst but oh well. Just 2 days of being back here and I already feel so couped up and controlled. Which sucks. To think that coming back here when I am 22 years old would eliminate this problem I've been having all my life. Guess I was wrong big time. Dad is great, no complains, but mum is on a whole different level.

Anywhobilly, friends are coming back either today or this weekend. Time to meet up. Sigh have no idea how much I miss being in KL and just going wherever I want and spending time with the gf everyday. Especially with the growingly busy schedule I just want to be by her side.

16th August. Then the 21st. Whatever date it is just get me out of here.

hip hip hoo-fucking-ray

This is the worst day. For any kind of holiday. The day that the fairytale ends and although you knew all along that it will happen, you are still not and probably never will be prepared for. As I took the KLIA Transit to the airport at 9.25am I thought back of yesterday, and how I was in the elab of IMU at 9.25am, thinking of where to go for lunch and getting ready to watch Inception. Now 24 hours later I am in the airport with no laptop charger (I checked it in yay), 1 more hour to go till the gate opens, and missing my baby so very much. You know how people always wish for money or good results or health or, for perverts and most guys, x-ray vision? I wish for time control and travel. Life will be awesome then.

Sigh.

If only time passes this fast in Brunei and in the UK. Especially in Brunei. Really cannot imagine what the heck I am supposed to do there. Life is never unfair in your favour, and more so when you need it even more.

Passed the arrival gates as I headed to the departure gates earlier, and my mind flashed to about 20 days ago when I arrived in KLIA, and she was there, waiting in the car in between Gates 1 & 2, starving heh. And we went to get McD burgers before heading home.

Life is not a bitch; time is.

bullshit

I guess this is the problem with going on a holiday and having so much fun. Time flies. Way too quickly. By tomorrow 2.30pm it would be exactly 2 weeks since I touched down in KLIA. Really? 2 weeks?? It sure doesn't seem like it. Ah I can't remember when was the last time I felt so complete. And happy. If days pass as fast as this in the UK I'll be thrilled.

Why did I not pick Seremban again? Oh yes the terrible state + mad exams + unnecessary stress. But still, closer to gf beats everything. Except maybe for summer sales in the UK. Now that I go shopping around KL there is nothing I want to buy as they are all so overpriced. Fcuk flip-flops priced as RM130, and I got mine from Kurt Geiger for only £8 (RM40) inclusive of delivery. Same goes to Topman/Topshop/Warehouse/Dorothy Perkins/Acessorize whatever British outlet they have here. All overpriced with no or low or outdated stock with no sale.

Just had dinner but feeling hungry already. How can a person spend a whole day with someone but still miss him/her at the end of the day. No logic, doesn't make sense, but it is happening.

I guess that is true for most things that are going on in the world anyway.

happy days

Been so tired lately especially after spending most of the days out with Jessica Alba. By the time I come home I can just fall asleep on the bed even with the lights on. Happened twice already.

Can't believe that a week has gone by. Sigh. Screw you Time.

My laptop now. Been messing around with numerous customization programs - Rainmeter, Rocketdock, CursorFX, WindowBlinds to name a few - and in the end settled for this. For now. Still not that happy with the dock hmm.

Full view click here

This is life

The past few days had been such a blast. Going around with the person I love, eating, hanging out, shopping, getting drunk...cuddling together under the blankets. Spending RM 466 on alcohol, cigar and pizza. Ouch to the max.

This is bad. I napped from 9pm till now 2am. Now what am I gonna do?? I can't go back to bed anymore shits.

22

Ah. Past the age of 21. Into adulthood.  Guess I should be happy and celebrating this momentous day. Can't be bothered though haha just become lazier and lazier with age. Terrible. It is as if I have turned 52 instead. It was a great year being 21, but it was a tumultuous one as well with LDR and what nots. Still, not going to complain but instead just going to improve for the year ahead and hope for even better stuff to happen.

Like ManUtd winning the Treble again. PLEASE.

And world peace.

And passing all my exams although I'm coming to a realization that it doesn't matter how much revision I do anymore; it is all about the OSCE examiners' moods on that day. And maybe what color shirt I am wearing, because they sure as hell are not marking us based on skills and knowledge.

A new beginning

Too damn tired to blog last night. I have no idea why but I just got home, lay on the bed, and was basically knocked out till 4am. Slept again till 7am and gave up. Went hunting for nasi lemak but couldn't find any within the vicinity. Upset.

So I went on Youtube watching random things, and I found this button on selected videos.

Jokers haha.

Heading out for breakfast soon with the baby. Hungryyyy!!

Day 31

Lazy to blog. Eyes are getting more and more tired. Just had a 14-hour flight from Manchester to Dubai and then onwards to Malaysia. Vanessa was happily sleeping away lucky biatch. I slept in patches and was constantly woken up by fake alerts that food was being served. Damn.

Just had chicken rice after a very long time and it was super awesome! But the company was better :) Felt so good to be back together with the mermaid and seeing her eyes light up as she opened her presents. Being back together with her again is the best thing that has happened to me over the last 6 months.

Love you bee!

Day 30

I'm officially shitting in my pants right now. Even more excited than waiting for my OSCE or my results. Wow. I can't believe it; tomorrow is the day!! All the counting down, all the waiting, and it has come down to this. A 14-hour flight away from total happiness. Bags all packed, phones charged, passport taken out, money withdrawn. All that's left is for me to get my ass on that plane(s) and sit back and wait.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Close to 7 months now so I think I have the right to scream and shout a little.

Early morning tomorrow taking the cab and then the train all the way to the Manchester Airport. I can't help it; I'm grinning from ear to ear. As I tidied up the house just now and took the trash out, I can clearly remember the time that I went back in December. It felt like yesterday! Totally can't believe that 6 months had flown by just like that. All I can remember from it was Blackburn. I can still remember the snow, the utterly freezing winter, the utterly long winter for some reason and everything else in between. Scrubs pub crawl. Blackburn pub sessions. Life was good there. Though I will only be gone for 2 months or so, I feel I will miss my Preston room and to a certain extent UK as well.

For now though, I'm just waiting to give the biggest hug of the century to the best girl in the world. Leave the reminiscing and what not to the end of August.

Day 29

Everything is ready. Packed. Just have to settle some cheques tomorrow. Holy shits I'm getting closer and closer to what I've been waiting for since January. Just one more last day of teachings tomorrow afternoon and I'm seriously seriously done with 3rd Year. 

Listening to Royal Radio now all the way from The Netherlands lol. For some reason my widget can't play Kerrang! UK radio station sobs. That station is the best radio station. That and Kiss 100 FM. Guess I need to open it in my Chrome then. KERRANG!!!! Playing all the awesome rock songs. In fact as I type this, they are playing the new single Crossfire by Brandon Flowers (The Killers). Loving it. All the new songs I can get first hand and unlike all the stations in Malaysia which - not to say are not good - mostly play overrated and overplayed R&B songs. Can't stand it. Hip-hop is fine I suppose depending on the mood, but please no R&B.

In spite of all the downloads and free music, radio is somehow still the best. I guess its the surprise factor; the fact that you have no idea what song they are going to play next. Plus its nice to hear the DJs, well most of them anyway. 

Day 28

Tuesday. Wednesday. Thursday.

Just 3 more days till I finally lift off from Manchester and head to Dubai and onwards to KL. Goodness knows how much I long to be back there again together with her. Just imagine being back there is already driving me nuts.

Breakdown of the OSCE results was released earlier today. I've seen some ridiculous things in my life but this just trumps all. I mean, what the hell? How do these people even do the grading for this shit! I did a totally different system examination for one station and passed, but failed an explanation station regarding fucking high blood pressure. For fuck's sake. Hypertension!! And scored almost full marks for diverticulosis explanation.

HOW??

Even IMU has a more standardized marking scheme. And it's not just me ranting for the sake of it; even people over in the Uni of Liverpool have been complaining. They even had a board of examiners look into their marking system because they had one of the highest fail rates for OSCEs in the country.

Ahh anyway, a pass is a pass. In the end, it is the label 'Doctor' that counts. Highly doubt they will grade a Chinese - or a foreigner that looks oriental - high marks for communication over here anyway. So just got to live with it. Plus do well for the sake of the patients not the examiners. My feedback reviews from patients have been excellent so far so I see no reason to change. For now.

Day 27

Just a few more days. FEW MORE DAYS. How I've longed to say those words, so few yet meaning the world to me. So fucking exciteddddddd that I've already started packing. Almost done with it as well.

SSC report done as well. Excellent. Handed in the final copy earlier today to save me the trouble of remembering it for the next few days. Can't care anymore about the report; I just want to go home.

Been playing The Sims 3: Ambitions lately hehe. My sim is well on his way to be a rock star haha, and may start off a professional career in sports as well. In addition to that he has twins with the person I don't remember LOL. Hey at least I got her (and the twins) to move into my mansion of a house, which has a simbot to help me clear all my rubbish, dishes & clothes. Of course it has a pool. Of course it has a huge statue of Atlas in the garden. Of course it has a trampoline and the most expensive BBQ pit. Of course it has 3 of the most expensive cars available in the game. Welcome to the life of a rock star!

Now to transfer his riches to my real life.

Day 26

Whooop. Just got home from the after-party after The Review, both which were smashing! Such a great use of the night, rather than being cooped up in the room playing mindless games. Or doing reports. Had more cans of beer than I care to elaborate but shocking not pissed. Nice. To be fair all the music and dancing might have taken that away. Best place ever for a house party. Even had a dance floor with disco lights, speakers all around and a fucking smoke machine.

One step to being more sociable with the whole batch, which coincidentally is one of my aims for the new semester after the summer. Glastonbury 2011 is being planned as well and at the moment it's looking prefect.

Registration is done. This year's lineup was sweet with Muse, Scissor Sisters, Gorillaz, Snoop Dogg, Shakira, Jack Johnson, Norah Jones, Editors, Grizzly Bear, Temper Trap, Joshua Radin, MGMT and many many others all making it. Damn. Not gonna miss this for the world. Only perhaps if that is the time when I can head back to KL to see someone, then maybe (just maybe) I will miss it :)

BBQ tomorrow! And to be fair I need the sleep. Beastie Boys still pounding out my speakers now woohoo! Old school shit coming out now. Sabotageeeeeeee.

And I know it isn't supposed to mean anything, but today is still a special day for us. We will celebrate this day again in the future I can assure you that. It won't be long now. Furthermore it's just 6 more days! Seriously I've never waited in anticipation for a day this much before. I love summer holidays.

Day 25

Words just cannot describe, how I feel at this moment of time. Just imagine, in less than a week's time I will be there, back with you in Malaysia, land of 'peace and equality', but lets not go there. The less said about that issue the better.

Passed my OSCE. Just. But considering the state that I was in I have no complains. In fact I'm more than happy to have passed. 

Going for The Review later, hopefully it will be a nice show. 

The mermaid is in Cameron Highland's for the weekend, no one to skype with. Sigh. But at least she is having fun up there so that is great. Rather than having her stressing over her work and lectures. I miss her so much sigh.

Day 24

Just got back from the Committee Handover dinner and to be honest I'm slightly tipsy - slightly being an understatement - so I'm just gonna keep this short and sweet.

I can finally say this....

1 MORE BLOODY WEEK!!

Day 23

8 8 8 8 8 8 8 more days! Super excited nowadays I can barely sleep! So close I can sniff you. Just the thought of seeing you in the airport is already driving me nuts. Plus the planned dinner at Hajime Restaurant in KL on the first night back. AHHHHHHH!

Went to help out at the Preston College this morning doing health checkups and consultations for the staff. Had free lunch as well so was well worth the effort and time haha.

Committee handover dinner tomorrow night. I'm taking over the International Rep post for 2010/11. Yea it's a rather crap-not-so-important post but heck with it, at least some of us actually tried. Rather than just sitting back and saying, "Oh that is a useless post", "Sure can't make a difference la" etc etc. Shit attitude. Plus it will look good in my CV anyway so oh well. Lol.

What a terribly warm night. Plus without any wind as well. Even opening the windows isn't helping. Or finishing my tub of Haagen Dazs.