Pissed

I hate it when my parents do this to me. 2008 is already shit.

How can one day be filled with so much joy and despair? Now I know.

Just have to hold on till February. Wait for the dark clouds to be moved.

Thank God she will wait.

Great expectations

The only thing on my mind now is Monday, the 7th of January 2008. I just can't wait to see the gf. Heck I can't wait to see my Vista room truth to be said. But you know sometimes you put so much hype and expectation into one day or event and it doesn't live up to your expectations, it sucks. So I am just praying that Monday wouldn't be one of those bad days. Cut us some slack ok Big Man, it has been more than a month already we haven't seen each other.

Oh and CVS stinks. I just can't wrap my head around the damn physiology of things. Arghhh. Sometimes I wonder if I should really be taking this course. But hey it's too late now to turn back so I guess just have to work my way thru it and hopefully the feeling for medicine grows. Hahaha.

Blitzkrieg

'I don't wanna be buried
In a pet semetary,
I don't wanna live my life again.' - The Ramones

All my life I have been waiting; I always have been. So I guess it wouldn't hurt to wait a little more.

There will be times like these

Dear heavenly Father, please do make today a much better day than yesterday? =\ Why do people like to argue anyway? Especially over little things?? Especially with the ones they love? I cant wait to get to KL and see the gf. Aih. there's just too much stress building up inside of me lately, i don't know why. And then again there are moments when i feel completely serene and secure.

Weird way to start off 2008. Hmmm.

39 more days. Pls hurry!

Happy birthday!

This is for a certain Lee Sheah Lin, whose birthday is today. =)

I love you baby. May God bless you in more ways than one.

Happy 21st birthday!! I'll see you real soon. heh heh.

no one can see you cry world

Hmm the 1st blog of the new year. 2008. wonder what wonders it will bring to me this time. Resolutions I have not made. I mean, I am not the kind of person who will purposely for the sake of making resolutions make them. I think that people should change readily and make themselves better and better daily, and not just make it some sort of customary thing to change every new year. But still, there are things that I have vowed to change about myself and I hope to be able to achieve them

Going back to Msia this 6th of January for a week. Sad. I wish I can just go back to Msia and then stay there till Chinese New Year, come back to Brunei to be with family (or even better still they pop over there) and then go back to Msia again on the 10th to start Semester 3.

I miss the girlfriend. More than I had expected to, honestly speaking. But Father Time has been quite good – it has been a month already I haven’t seen her, and only 41 more days to go till February. Ah yes, I’m such a sad person, counting down the days. Coincidently it is also the same countdown to her EOS. Ironic. =D

Let’s all pray that 2008 will be a great year for the gf and I, all my friends and family and also for the poor world which seems to be self-destructing. Such a waste of God’s creation.

2008

Back in Brunei. And it is New Year's Eve. hahaha. somehow there is an irony somewhere in that sentence but i cant figure it out. The brain of mine just is not functioning of late. Just tired i guess. I just cant wait to see the gf again. Recharge my energizer bunny batteries haha. Aih. Hols are sickening. Plus I got my stupid COP to do this week before i go to Msia on the 6th, and then the 3000 word report. Ring in the New Year 2008 in style.

Yea and sorry no pics of HK or China, just too tired and bummed out to load them. And as usual the net is too fucking slow.

Let me go home.

Not too early i think

It dawned upon my simple mind that important days and events in your life become so much more meaningful and important if you actually have someone else to celebrate it with you. Your parents. Siblings. Relatives. Maybe even business partners. Loved ones.

I used to treat Christmases and birthdays as just another day to get gifts and whatever you want. However since this year I resolved to look at things from a different perspective (yea yea it was my New Year's resolution thing) and hey, I guess it is so much better. Birthdays have become a day of real joy and surprises and getting your head dunked in not one, but two cakes after ppl have come knocking on my door at midnight. Thanks guys. =) And this Christmas I was really looking forward to it since I am now fully back in the path of the Lord, and I wanted to celebrate it in all its glory with that someone special in my life. I guess that would just have to wait until next year then.

With Christmas and New Year's all coming up, I really thought that this year was brilliant. For me. Maybe not so much for the world with protests, global catastrophies, the Darfur incident and so many other unfortunate events occurring. Perhaps it is time to really look into ourselves, not only as individuals, but also as a colony of homo sapiens. Maybe world peace isn't ever going to work out. Maybe there will always be war and fighting. Maybe the world is coming to an end. But then it never did hurt to try before, and I guess it wouldn't hurt to try and wish and pray again. Who knows, there might still be hope for us. God didn't cause all these disasters, we inflicted them upon ourselves. Such is life.

But hey, I am an optimistic fool, so these things wouldn't bring me down. I have my lovely gf to go back to next year in February, hopefully January, so the year ahead still looks as good as before. Plus a whole new year in IMU to try to do some good and make some changes. I don't know why I am posting this now, but it doesn't matter.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone in advance!

daisy daisy

Warlords watched. I think the director had some idea that the movie had to be as gory and violent as possible for it to be a good movie. Close enough. Relatively one of the better movies i have watched.

Oh and ManUtd 1-0 Liverpool.

Liverpool = cunt team number 1.

and i have survived 2 weeks in Brunei. Another 2 more weeks to go till the end of December. I hope I can still remember how to life hectic and as a med student when i get back. Cuz the life here is moving as fast as a snail.

Anyone who wants me to get anything for them (reasonable items except for the gf who is free to request) in China/HK pls do let me know? I'll do my best to get them for ya...=) No promises.

Brunei says hello

So Christmas is coming. The birth of Jesus. In all its glory. Though not celebrating it in Msia with all my relatives, gambling and playing cards, it should be fun in China. I hope. And HK too. The urge to splurge for this festive period is just so damn strong haha. Hey it is after all good for the economy of the world's banks too isn't it. Just doing my part as a citizen of this glorious world.

Right.

Other than that, nothing much goes around here, no sir. Unless you wanna noe about CVS. Blood flow to the upper and lower limbs notes are such a pain in the gluteus maximus. So is the usual patho. Hmmm. New movies also not up to standard. Golden Compass and I Am Legend do not warrant a second watch from me. I might not even watch it if it wasnt for the special effects and Will Smith. And Nicole Kidman. Hope that Warlords (which my dad of all ppl insists on watching soon) and National Treasure 2(the 1st one was brilliant) would be good and not waste my B$7.

Numb

Numbed by emotions.

It feels like a giant wave crashing down on me.

Again and again.

No matter how i try to stay afloat, it pulls me down. Drags me away from shore. But it is then I remember that there is my God, who is greater than all my problems. And I believe again. That we'll be able to make it thru this hell that is 2 months.

And no dear, I wouldn't give you up. I can only hope you feel the same bout me. Everybody is like breaking up and stuff, and I don't want that to happen. Not to us. Ok?

I hate this hols.

< 2 left

My baby finished her minor exam just now. And called me and told me it was good. =)

I am still and will be bored in Brunei. The only thing I can take heart from is the fact I am going to HK/China in a week's time, and that there is less than 2 torturous months left. Whoopee. =D

And this stupid business of barring and un-barring postpaid phones is really getting on my nerves. Rarr. I mean, if it is still barred by next week, how am I supposed to keep in contact with her in HK? I wouldnt be bringing my laptop either, so no internet. Sighhh.

hope

We made it thru 3 months. I am damn happy that we did. =)

Though it was a turbulent past few days. I honestly hope we can just keep going till i get back in February. Then it will all be ok. Sigh.

These are hard times indeed, but i believe.

3rd on 11th

Brunei is boring. No updates. Parents had major arguement. Now are good.

Later watching Enchanted with my sister's friends. Just to remind myself of my gf more. Hmm. How sad.

Our 3 months coming soon. =) It will really be better if i were there, but...sigh. Just ave to make do.

I still thank God everyday for you. For bringing you into my life. For everything you have done for me and we have done together. I love you.

Back in time

Went back to my Sixth Form college, JIS, this morning, took some pictures of it. There were some changes, and all the teachers remembered me. Nice. And now most likely my sister is going there too. It's an international school, so yea.

The 'front yard' where we assemble during fire drills. Gate at far end is entrance.

The Maths & Tech block

Inside the compound - the swimming pool is shaded

And indeed I still miss my baby more than ever =(

Live updates

I am celebrating Xmas in China. Not HK. Though I am going to both places. Hmm seems weird celebrating Xmas in a country primarily full of Chinese and Buddhists. Ah well. It might still be fun. And chatting through gmail is strange. But hey, if that's the only way i can talk to her, then so be it. =)

Anyway Brunei is still as dead. CVS is a bitch. I'm just studying in hope that the days will be less painful and pass more quickly. 66 more days.

What fun.

Is there seriously nothing else to do here in Brunei other than study my bloody CVS notes? Goodness. Ok so I'm going to make a new pair of specs (baby what colour?) and cut my hair soon before going off to HK, but that is in weeks. Oh and maybe I might be popping by KK with mum and Jayne as mum has business there. So I'm gonna crash at Dom's place most likely. Good fast internet here I come. Can't stand dial-up here in Brunei. Selfish dad. Rarr.

And I am trying very damn hard to try to concentrate on my studies and enjoying my hols but all I can do now is miss her so very badly. Aih. Never thought that my end-of-year hols would be this dull and sad. And never thought I need to force myself to enjoy hols. Amazing.

Ah well. CVS notes look quite interesting when put into perspective actually. Plus I have the ever amazing Papa Patho. Oh yes ladies and gentlemen, it is looking to be a holiday full of excitement and joy and fun and shit.

Bollocks.

Boring.

Well, my first post back in Brunei. Nothing new, as usual.

I miss my gf. And I can't show any emotions. How shite isn't it.

So I am going to read my CVS notes (yes I am such a sad person, but there's nothing bttr to do), and then watch House later at 10pm.

I hope I can sleep tonight, seriously.

Be strong now....who am I kidding?

It has to come to this. I knew it; we all did. And now the clock strikes 11.30am, and I know that time is short. My flight is at 5.30pm, and I am leaving at 3pm or so.

God knows I am going to miss her.

Decided to try what Pei-wen did...haha

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