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Friday, 30 May 2008

B

Got a B for GI + Haemato. Don't know to be happy or sad or both or neither. Guess depending on how you look at it it can be either a good result or a failure. God only knows. It is interesting to see people's expressions when they tell you their results. A 'B' could mean the world to one, while it could be like a disaster to another. I wish I know what it means to me. If I got a B in secondary school, it would be really bad for me. Now, sometimes, I'm just happy to pass while at the same time I want to get the results I know that I can and should get.

Seize the day.

Must find some way of killing and getting rid of this fatigue. It is like I am having the urge and the desire to study but then the body and the mind is not willing. My eyelids are constantly drooping, head is spinning and mind wandering. Just drop dead.

Wednesday, 28 May 2008

A Big Nothing

Yes! 3 more notes to the end of CVS. Then I can do the OSCE part of it. Gosh I'm really disgusted by studying so much everyday. Though this morning the gf and I did plan and managed to go and catch Indiana Jones at the movies. Not bad at all considering his old age. Had lunch at Kim Gary's. Really wanted to eat the asparagus and mushroom with the baked double cheese thing but they took so damn long to send it to us. Speaking of which I am hungry now. Crap. My hunger pangs are lately just beginning to rage and spiral out of control.

And the gf is super pissed cuz the net is s l o w e r t h a n e v e r.

Everything in life happens for a reason, and I see it now more than ever. And some people think by posting anonymous comments they are so great and can say whatever they want. Here is a thought to all of them - since brains are a rarity nowadays - why not say what you want to the person directly, face to face, instead of hiding behind a fake name and being a coward? I mean, after all, you all obviously have so much imperious wisdom to share with the rest of us mere mortals?

This is not intended to anyone in particular, just speaking up for a friend (and also shielding myself heh). Ok back to Wegener's granulomatosis.

Tuesday, 27 May 2008

Points to Ponder

Would you live for nothing, or die for something?

Monday, 26 May 2008

Snap

Spent the weekend at Pangkor. Just wanted to take a weekend off and relax before hitting the notes and books again. Had a great time there with the gf and her family. And before I know it, it was Monday again and I had to wake up early and go for lab sessions. Which wasn't entirely useful, partly as I was still half-asleep.

Hence there is 4 more weeks to EOS 3. 28 more days to go. Must gung ho as it is all or nothing. On the other hand, don't you just hate it when all the nice movies come out when you are busy with projects, work or studies and when you are absolutely free, all the crap come out like diarrhea. Damn movie-makers. Don't you want to earn more money?

Looks like the rainy season is here again.

Thursday, 22 May 2008

2008!!


MAN UTD are the KINGS of Europe again!! Come on Man Utd!!

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

Gombak

The hospital attachment wasn't that bad this morning. Except that our patient was either lying, or has schizophrenia. All he kept saying to us was 'no pain, only fever' when we asked him what his main complaint was. Then when we checked his case files, he was admitted for fever, chills, diarrhea, vomiting and had severe abdominal pain. WTF. Also he had like 5 other infections and illnesses. Man was I pissed or what.

Today also marks the beginning of EOS preparations. 4 systems. Decided to accompany the gf to the library to study. I don't really like the new library as it is a tad too bright and sunny hence it brings too much joy to the people inside. And it is not extreme cold, so all the people inside keep freaking chatting away like it is a fish-market, and moving about. Bloody hell it is a library for crying out loud. I miss the solitary, cold, Siberia-like freezer lower-ground place where they put tables and chairs and individual cubicles for us to study. At least it was dead silent and you can pay attention. Pity.

Sunday, 18 May 2008

because my PSP ran out of battery and I didn't bring the charger.

Sundays. The day of rest and relaxation. Sometimes though I wish there was more to do around here than just study and doing nothing else, or not studying and doing nothing else. Life of a medical student around IMU without a car I guess. I am yet to watch Iron Man or Speed Racer, wonder if they are really worth the effort and the money or not. Hmmm.

Woke up this morning to the sweet sounds of nothing. Just remembered that there is CSI at 12pm. One of the reasons that I dragged my lazy behind out of the bed. Also I was hungry and my urinary bladder was full. Anywho-billy, today has the makings and the potential to be yet another legendary do-nothing-but-sit-around-collect-dust-&-let-mould-grow-between-your-fat-arse-and-the-sofa day. Might as well huh? Since this is one of the rare weekends that I can actually be free and do nothing with no worries.

I have the urge to play basketball. Damn it our training is this Friday and I might be going to Pangkor.

Hopsital attachments start next Tuesday. Not one of my more favourite things. Especially since need to wake up at 6am.

Ah it's a nice, bright and sunny day and I am couped up at home. Wonder why people in Malaysia come up with all these lame reasons to stay indoors or to skip meetings and classes. If it rains, they complain it is too wet and cold. If it is sunny, they complain that it is too hot and sweaty and sleep-inducing. Then again not everyone is like me - with the air-con turned on 24/7 heh heh. Yea I am the environment's worst nightmare, though I have been doing a lot of environment-saving things lately.

Who wants to sing K?

Saturday, 17 May 2008

...before it's too late

Well this is it. The countdown road to EOS 3. And all the while in the middle of it all there is Euro 2008. Damn. Should be starting off CVS next week followed by Respi. If I play it right, I should have more than enough time doing one system per week. Let's keep our fingers crossed eh.

Natural disasters sure have been popular lately huh. Cyclone Nargis in Myammar, then at the same time and earthquake of magnitude 7.9 on the Richter Scale whacking China. I guess I can make a joke out of all these by saying that God is trying to help those 2 countries reduce the burden of their economy due to food crisis by reducing the population, but that will just be irrelevant. Cuz that sounds more like the work of the Devil.

What happened in China however brings us all to a very pressing issue - the quality of the construction. Not just in China, but also here in our lovely, careful, and meticulously high quality Malaysia. Where the constructors - and dare I say the big shots *ahem ahem* - care about their work so so much. Schools all around the earthquake collapsed like dominos, while other buildings remained steady. This lead to the unnecessary deaths of hundreds of children, and fueling the rage of the nation's parents. Now I am no sure of the construction situation there, but over here in Malaysia it sure isn't any better. Heck my own family were victims of terrible workmanship during the renovation of our house in PJ.

In IMU, during the wee days of Sem 1, my ex-housemate and I did a little research in the IMU building as we are such caring people wanting just to make this world a better and safer place to be in. And also we were fuck bored and free and spent every night in IMU. Glorious. Anywho-billy, we were discussing about how IMU managed to finish off the top floor and other renovating works so quickly, and we came up with the 'radical' idea that quality was affected in the process. Hence we went around doing a simple check - knocking on pillars. And guess what. Most of them were hollow. *gasp.

Now obviously the chances of an earthquake happening over here is second to none, but with the climate shift and all, and IMU being a medical school (INTERNATIONAL as well), it is high time for something to be done innit? Why can't Malaysians enjoy good quality facilities and products without something to be sacrificed, be it speed or price? As a letter in The Star said commented today, it is time for us to stop thinking like a Third-World country, and act like one.

Haha gotcha!

It actually said that we should stop thinking and acting like a Third-World country and instead try to improve ourselves rather than free-falling behind. Try. Not just in the governing of the country and construction and infrastructure and public transport, but also in, I don't know, say, SPORTS??!?!! Come on! Our Thomas Cup team could and should have won.

Thursday, 15 May 2008

What the

Exam over. For now. Big one on the 23rd of June. Must start studying earlier this time. Cuz the exam just now sucked. Started off easy with the OBA. Then the MEQ and OSPE murdered me brutally. Plus I was sneezing and having runny nose like the River Nile. And I was abit drowsy as I took 2 panadols - not the anti-cold and flu ones cuz uni doesn't have them - and they had no positive effects on me whatsoever. Ah doom and gloom.

Wednesday, 14 May 2008

Partial Pylorus Pancreaticoduodenectomy

Can't believe that I am not stressed out. How weird. Probably a delayed reaction thing. Right now I can only think about sleeping and having a nice rest. Luckily (or not) our exam is in the afternoon from 2pm till 5pm. Ahh my mind just can't stop wandering.

And there is a basketball friendly going on at the IMU court. I can hear and see everything that is happening and I am so tempted to go and watch. Ah I wish I can play in the team. Ah well.

Pasties.

Ok so this is the thing. 2 more days to Haemato + GI. Maybe make that 1. Since it is already past midnight now.

Have I finished studying? Yes.

How many rounds? One.

Confident enough? Don't know.

I guessed if I'd started earlier I would've the chance to do more rounds. The more I think about it.....DAMN CAMPAIGNING. Ah well. Can't complain much I guess. My decision, my cross to bear. Well, not that extreme I guess - after all it's not like I really use the time to do serious re-reading anyway. Hmm. Dom seems to think that I am super confident and I only play with my PSP all the time. Wrong my fellow housemate. Look who doesn't even turn up for lectures.

Anyway, just feeling very fatigued these few days. It's late and I am hungry. Sleep or eat?

Damn it.

Monday, 12 May 2008

Perfect 10


The picture says it all!

=D

Saturday, 10 May 2008

Tiesto, no?



Can't believe I am missing DJ Tiesto (!!!!!!!!) in Port Dickson just to study. What a nerd I am. ARRGGGHHH!

And that damn Geowin Solomon is partying there like a gorilla.

Ah just hope that the movie tonight with the gf is good....8 months! =D

Thursday, 8 May 2008

I want to go out with the gf. Just one day. Free from all the studies.

And tonight the gf is going to sleep over at friend's birthday party. I must finish more than half of GI by today. Sigh.

I am getting stressed out already. Someone send me a de-stress kit or something??

Monday, 5 May 2008

The way the people looked at me and made snide comments behind my back just now. Just makes me wish that the Earth will open up and swallow me.

Sunday, 4 May 2008

Pinch me

230 votes. Wow. I'm in total shock again. Now I know how things work around here. No work is good work huh. And I will call my baby cousin to speak for me next time, who knows, it might actually work.

Sundays have never felt this dead.

Oh and congrats to Mezhen for getting the VP post, she fully deserved it for all the work and effort she put in to upstage Aveena.

I have this pyro-urges again. Haven't felt this way for a long time already, in fact, since 2 years ago. Need. To. Burn. Stuff. Down.

Tagged.

The Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. Comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.

1) How are you feeling today?
"Don't Know Why - Norah Jones"
I don't know why and how I lost the SRC Elections. Why why why??!!!

2) Will you get far in life?
"All Coming Back To Me Now - Meatoaf ft. Marion Raven"
Huh? Does this mean no? =\

3) What's your best friend's theme song?
"I Lift The Name Of Jesus - 1 A.M"
Alright bro! Guess both Dom and Geo listen to christian songs anyway. =)

4) What is the story of your life?
"Whispering A Prayer - Steve Vai'
Errr I think I am more confident than that....

5) What was high school like?
"Signal Fire - Snow Patrol"
Yep like a siren baby!

6) How can you get ahead with life?
"Welcome To The Black Parade - My Chemical Parade"
Yea I'm going to defeat all my demons! Roar.

7) What's the best thing about your friends?
"Ever The Same - Rob Thomas"
Nah guess they are all the same.

8) Describe your grandparents.
"Big Brother - Kanye West"
Nice. I'm really close to them. Well the ones still alive anyway. =\

9) How's your life going?
"Again - Janet Jackson"
Yea. Exams, CSUs, PBLs. Everything again and again every damn day.

10) What will be played at my funeral?
"Show Stopper - Danity Kane"
Haha my funeral is going to cost a few hundred billion dollars and all the Presidents of all countries will be present, saddened to lose such an influential person.

11) Will you have a happy life?
"St. Anger - Metallica"
What the hell! F**k you damn iTunes! I am SO not filled with angst ok! Get that straight and f**k off!

12) What do your friends really think of you?
"Bubbly - Colbie Caillat"
......I am not gay.

13) Do people secretly lust after you?
"Rape Me - Nirvana"
Finally an honest answer. Bring it on people.

14) How can you make yourself happy?
"I'm A Slave For You - Britney Spears"
Yea, for the gf.

15) Will you ever have children?
"Bye Bye Baby - Bay City Rollers"
I lead a cursed life. =( I want my baby back!

16) What song would you strip to?
"After Glow - INXS"
Well, the pay was good, so what's wrong with doing a promo for a gay porn?

17) What does your mom think of you?
"Learn You Inside Out - Lifehouse"
Mummy loves me. Too much? =\

18) What is your deep, dark secret?
"Bridges - Lifehouse"
??

19) What is your enemy's theme song?
"发如雪 - Jay 'The Gay' Chou"
??!!!!

20) What's your personality like?
"The Glory - Kanye West"
Yes that's me alright.

21) What will be played at your wedding?
"Now And Forever - Richard Marx"
This is so perfect. =') And proves that I am maybe gay after all. Oh joy I can't stop twiddling me thumbs. =)

Tag 5 people:
1)Dominic
2)Peiwen
3)Priscilla
4)Gay Ah Liang
5)Fong Zhiven! (gives you a reason to blog. Again.)

What the heck anybody who wants to do it just do it heh.

Saturday, 3 May 2008

Screwed up.

I lost the SRC Elections. To all who supported me, thank you a million times. I can list all the people - the gf, Priscilla, Denise, Dom, Geowin, Leslie, Pei-wen - and it can go on and on. Without you all the final results wouldn't even be close thanks to the so-called intelligent votes by the other voters. I can only hope that they are happy with their choice. And good luck to the winner. Seriously he will need it.

My condolences also go out to Dom, who didn't win and wanted to suicide just now. It's not worth it bro, this is, after all, a big popularity contest so even the useless ones can win. I rest my case.

Yea and maybe I am just fucking pissed now and I might regret this later bla bla bla, but I just need to get it out of my system before it kills the very body which holds it. And yes I realize I sound like sour grapes. Deal with it.

Friday, 2 May 2008

Why bother?

For the first time in months, I went to the Christian Fellowship weekly meet in IMU. Mainly because my pastor from church came to give the talk today. And it was awesome. I mean, it really cleared up quite a lot of doubts that have been lingering in my head for the past few months. About whether to bother about stuff around in my life or not. About what to really pay attention to in life and what to really care and take notice about. The End of The World is coming anyway, and I guess we can only do this much and just sit back and pray.

Studies have been slow. Slow slow slow. Oh man. And the whole afternoon was spent running drills and 80 lateral suicides for basketball training. Plus the fact that I didn't have enough sleep last night, and then having to wake up early to go to CSU and watch videos of rectal examination just wasn't such a B-E-A-utiful start to the day for obvious reasons. Then our dear Doctor Nilesh Kumar decided to go on an insanity streak and bombard us with so bloody much info regarding the structure of the liver. So much so that everyone was nut-stressed after that.

Argh and the neighbour upstairs is pounding on his floor. Damn person must be doing jump rope. Or crazy sex. So fuck noisy oh my goodness. So I pounded back using a block of wood (which I have in my room so don't mess with this house) on my ceiling. And hey it stopped. For like 5 minutes. What makes it worse is that I may actually know that person living above. My batchmates.

Right this very moment people are in IMU counting the votes for the SRC Elections. Am I nervous? I shouldn't be, if people are going to vote based on capabilities, and based on what happened in the Apprenticeship Weeks, but then again you know this wonderful world we live in. It is going to be partly a popularity *ahem superficial* contest, so we shall kick back and wait.

In the meantime, do check this song out. It is really good, it is called 'Gravity'. Depending on your mood obviously. She is the singer of 'Love Song'.

The video is here. Or you can just download the song whatever.

Sara Bareilles - Gravity
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here 'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I
Try to make you see that you're
Everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I
Can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down, yeah
But you're onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long