The Distance

The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you're coming back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath without seeing your name
But I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin your name
But I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That's how much you mean to me

Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm calling your name
I can't take the distance

3 years

What a day. Full of adrenaline and nervousness. Starting with the 60-page that was due today. Needed to print them in color so I went to uni damn early today just to get it done. And stupid me forgot to save the report in .doc format instead of the .docx format. Furthermore all the computers in the elabs are only equipped with MS Word 2003. Damn.

Went for lecture. Came out 10minutes later haha. Stupid Dom forced me to go for it then asked me to skip it along with him. He was supposed to print the report for me in a shop nearby at 1pm. Came back at 3pm saying that the format was all messed up. Oh did I mention that my PMS matching results were supposed to come out today 5pm? Went to uni at 4pm with the bee. We just lazed around my place the whole day when our plan was to study and watch a movie lol. Hurried to the elab and opened my report. Guess what - the format and all was fine. Proceeded to print it and guess what - not enough paper. Luckily the bee found Dom outside the elab and luckily he had papers. Spent RM20 printing the whole report, thanks to the color-printing for the graphs.

Just in time for the matching results! This time it's for real. Bee insisted on following me - thank God she did - got the envelope, and opened it.

University of Manchester. My 4th choice.

Didn't really know what to feel at that time. Top 5 is damn good already. Glasgow would've been better, but then Dom and Daniel both got Manchester too! Yea Dom and I, housemates for life. Rachel got Aberdeen though, which was where Dom also wanted to go, so....ah well at least it's still in the UK you two. Domestic calls ok. Mine are international calls! Thank goodness she is patient and understanding and all.

Heh I'm gonna miss the bee. A lot. 3 years. Notwithstanding the holidays.

Together we cry

Prom dress objective is achieved! Got it from Bangsar this afternoon when we went out. Now to get my shirt and tie. If I am feeling rich (maybe after more poker nights eh) then I might get myself a new coat as well.

Been playing Blackshot online. Not bad but L4D unbeatable for now. Report is finally going to finish. Quite proud of myself for being able to juggle the girl, the games, the notes and the report haha. If it isn't good enough, then screw the 4%. Matching results are coming out hopefully this time by Monday. It is after all already delayed for a week. Come on IMU, stop making us wait and waste our time and giving us heart attacks.

Oh and we decided to set up our joint blog!

http://wedontneedpaperclips.blogspot.com/

Just a spontaneous thing cuz can't adopt a puppy or a kitten. Lol.

Earth Hour just passed as well. I was living in utter darkness for an hour just now. Got me thinking about how our ancestors lived in their wooden shelters in the dark - if they were lucky enough to get shelter that is. Guess we should really be thankful for what we have before it is gone. Not surprisingly, Vista was still as bright as a Xmas tree. So was IMU. Expected. People will want to study and study and study. Or use the internet. Or the aircon. Whatever happened to making not just better students and doctors but better people as a whole? We are a terribly selfish species. Some alien race should just come down and smite us all.

Somehow people's mentalities just wouldn't change no matter what, even if they know it is so damn wrong. I guess we can only do this much, and the rest is up to the individuals. The guilt lies on their shoulders. Pity on our next generations though, and shame on us cause we know we could've done something to change the future.

Gravy

Been wanting to post this photo up for quite some time now. It is so cool I am at a lost for words. Think of how many wonderful PBLs and reports and research topics I can do with this amazing machine!

Boy I'm a-wettin' ma' pants just thinkin' 'bout it. Woohoo.

But seriously, when is this ever going to be released?

Devil's Weapon

PMS matching results supposed to be out today but apparently not. Supposed to do 20 notes today but stuck on 12. Supposed to do a lot of things actually. Supposed to is fast becoming my everyday language, which is bad in a way. L4D on Garena is evil. Curses. If the internet was faster and more stable it would be worse.

Got to turn over a new leaf. Or tree. The report is still on page 15. Out of 60. Still. So many other things to do as well on the E-J List. Clock is ticking. Ticking away. Luckily next week is relatively free. There better be no riots or anything. Bloody things jam up the whole city and create roadblocks everywhere. How to drive drunk then??

Newsflash

Take a break from your books and studies and go support.

http://earthhour.org.my/main.php

Claus

Guess what? Christmas is coming in 3 days. For us : ) Let's hope that we'll both be free on that day cuz from the looks of things it is going to be one hectic week with all the assignments, reports and damn CNS starting tomorrow. Speaking of the report, I hate it. HATE IT.

Santarina bee? :D

Mistress Asus

What a tragic death for my little Miss Acer. Struck by lightning on the wee hours of Wednesday morning. 7am to be exact. I witnessed the whole thing with my very own eyes. It was downloading Justice League Season 1-3 (comics rock) and so it wasn't shut down. I woke up around 6.45am getting ready to read some notes before preparing breakfast for the bee. It was raining rather heavily and there was lightning and thunder, but nothing out of the ordinary when suddenly there was a crack of thunder and a red flash of light through my room window. Another flash of light appeared from my laptop and that was the last that I heard from it. Gone, forever. Until my dad replaces the motherboard I guess.

Good news is, I bought a new laptop! Or as the bee put it, a new mistress haha. For RM3400, the specs are high enough to support any new games in the market including L4D and when it comes out, Starcraft 2! Bad news is that my report was saved in my old laptop and I didn't get to make a backup copy of it. WTF have to start from scratch all over again. Condolences to Ek Guan as well haha.

Oh and my mum said yes :D

Random

Never knew that my housemates and friends will have such a great impact on my life. Even in this 2 months - the poker and gambling till 3am; walking from Vista to S.Petaling to play L4D till 4am; the emo mamak sessions lol; gaying with Stephen to watch Dragonball Evo; Dom to play pool in IMU at 11pm; shopping for prom clothes (WTF right) - all already encompasses much of my life. After the bee of course. Surely will miss them in the UK. Unless we all get the same uni haha. Impossible is nothing.

Purple tie!

Watched it at MidValley just now with the bee. I rate it bout 8/10 just for the plot and horny looking teenage kid running over to have sex. But it was pretty good overall though I can't compare it to Dragonball which I watched yesterday with Stephen. Different genre lol.

A brilliant plan

2nd Valentine's

Talk about impromptu. Decided yesterday/2days ago to go down to Malacca with Erica's sis and her bf. So woke up at 7am today and got ready to drive down. Started off here at 8.45am reached destination by 10am. Our target today was Jonker Street. The chicken rice balls. The little shops with all the quaint little items to buy. The cendol. The goreng pisang. The tourists. Haha.

Anyway, was so damn hungry didn't have time to take any photos at the chicken rice stall. But well it is Malacca after all so there should be nothing new right? It's the company that matters :) Fiona and the bf bought BB guns. Damn I should have gotten one of those illegal babies to shoot annoying people. There are after all quite a few that I can think of right now. Wanted to get couple shirts as well, but wtf they were all so damn la-la. And the nice cool ones were all over-sexed. Too vulgar how to wear back home to parents?

harmonica bee! bzzzz

Cendol and damn long queue

As I'm typing this ManUtd trailing Liverpool 1-2. Come on ManUtd! And which movies should I watch? The Reader? Marley & Me? City of Ember? Haha maybe all since we are yet to have our movie marathon. Also realized that in February and March we had 2 consecutive months with Firday the 13ths. Cool.

Of chocolates and marshmallows

350 posts later and here I am. Smiling at the world in a way that I never had. Worries still flow around me, but somehow the idiotic optimist in me fails to see that. Too long has this optimism been suppressed by darkness and depressing thoughts, and I feel that now is the right time to change.

Keeps raining here nowadays. Takes away the mood to stay in the library to freeze and study. Sem 4 still untouched, and I feel that I have to step up a gear. Should be fine. PMS matching results out on the 24th of this month. Kind of freaked out.

This Saturday however sounds like fun fun fun haha. To quote Henry David Thoreau, how vain it is to sit down and write when you have not stood up to live. So a day trip to Malacca is in hand! On a separate note, I do not think that what is called love at first sight is so great an absurdity as it is sometimes imagined to be. We generally make up our minds beforehand to the sort of person we should like, grave or gay, black, brown, or fair; with golden tresses or raven locks; and when we meet with a complete example of the qualities we admire, then that's that then.

Sometimes, nothing pains some people more than having to think.

No one deserves to be lied to, or kept as a secret. It's my fault and I apologize sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

Number 1 Fan!!

It has been a long week. Community visits are done but spent yesterday and today in 9am-2pm meetings discussing the data that we collected and trying to make some sense out of them. Afternoons were spent with the bee lazing around when we had plans to study or watch Yes Man. Nights, or midnights rather, were spent with my housemates n Guan at the cybercafe L4D-ing. Either that or playing poker and blackjack. Then sleeping at 4am and waking up at 8am. Repeat steps above to get yet another day.

So MSK is done with. Sem 4 still untouched. Damn damn. Wish we have more time in our lives to laze around and do nothing on lazy afternoons because honestly life is too short to not have fun, too short to be emo, too short to be angry with people, too short to be vengeful and bitter, too short not to go out there and explore the possibilities.

Interesting question. Back rubs are nicer if given in a Thai/Burmese slang? Hahaha. Bzzzzzzzz.

Whose Line??

Spent the afternoon at Sunway Pyramid today with her. Plan was to study at Starbucks for 2 hours then go shopping for clothes. My shirts specifically.

Studying in motion ;p

Not bad, managed to do 2 notes on a Saturday. Also managed to buy a shirt and ate ice-cream at Baskin Robbins together with the marshmallows we bought from M&S. Marshmallows rock.

Took a taxi from Sunway to Bukit Jalil. Now S.Pyramid uses the central booth system to sell taxi coupons, something like KLIA and LCCT. So I bought mine for RM17, and gave her RM100. I got my change and barely had time to check and the usher hurried me to a taxi. Once inside I checked and guess what? I was short of RM50. I asked the driver to stop - he was a nice english-speaking Indian man - and I went back to the lady to tell her that I gave RM100 not RM50. I told her and she just smiled and giggled and said, "Oh yea lupa ah." and took the RM50, which by the way was right in next to her, and gave it to me. Once back in the taxi the man asked me if I was short-changed. He went on to say that many people also got short-changed before, cuz he always has to stop and let them go get their money. WTF. They even short-change the taxi drivers when the drivers want to claim the receipt money from them. WTF.

So people, always count your change.

vs. iPhone

Next on my wish list. Samsung Omnia.

Haha bee don't be jealous we can always share it.

Come On Over

Studies piling up. Stupid community filed trip reports to write and presentations to do. Toilet keeps leaking and running up the water bill. Luck keep ignoring me during poker and blackjack nights. Seriously badly as well wtf. Whatever I win doesn't seem to matter cuz I'll just lose them on the next few rounds.

But it doesn't matter as much to me cuz you'll be there for me. In the end that's all that matters. Well except for the studies part haha. Damn EOS 5.

I'm stolen

Remember this day. 04/03/2009.

Thank you

For the love of God, leave us alone. Or rather, leave Erica alone. Want any drama please look for me, I'll give you some drama to think about. Damn. This isn't high school anymore.

A cold gun

I think the lower your expectations are, the less pain you will receive, the less hurt you will feel. Does this mean that we should never have expectations at all? Does this mean that we should never try anything out of the ordinary at all? What good is a heart when a heart can be broken right?

On the other hand, without expectations, life will be boring. Monotonous. Predictable. Guess I wouldn't want that either.

Say it isn't so. Time is a bitch. Karma is a bitch. One day we were this, the next day there isn't even a we anymore. If mum wasn't coming the Chivas would have found a new home in my stomach. Sigh sigh sigh sigh. My heart is screaming and banging on the rib cage but no one can hear a sound. I want to scream out but no one can hear a sound.