My parents. Same old story. Should have expected this to happen. First Langkawi last year and now this.

Sorry guys for FFK-ing the trip up to Lang Tengah. I really wanted to go on this trip, but there will be other times ok? Haha..

Enough to go to Sem 4 please!

Resits are done! From my point of view I thought it was pretty ok, some stations were quite straightforward. Achike scolded me for using my left hand to give him the sticker WTF, and then later said that I'll pass the station haha. Cool. Htin Aung was ok. History taking I got all the details, only the diagnostic tests for the diagnosis I wasn't sure. One SP was so kind to me heh. It was an Indian man, relatively middle-aged. I was supposed to take his past medical history.


Me: So sir, I will now be taking your past med hist. Were you hospitalized for any previous illnesses?

Him: No no no, before that you must ask me if I have any long standing illnesses! Go on, ask me.

Me: ......erm ok, do you any long standing illnesses?

Him: Yes yes, thanks for asking! I have diabetes, HTN...............


LOL. All these while he had his script in front of him; I should have just knocked him unconscious and took it away. He even told me that he visited his daughter a few days ago who had chicken pox, and now he has the rashes too. Though he didn't tell that to anyone else so I'm not sure if it is of any use.

Praise the Lord.

Saviour King by Hillsong

Listen to this song. I think it's awesome.

And now the weak say I have strength
By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
And now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is Him and I'm more than blessed

Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for your Son's holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are our king

We love you Lord, we worship you
You are our God, you alone are good

You asked your Son to carry this
The heavy cross our weight of sin

I love you Lord, I worship you
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king

Let now your church shine as the bride
That you soar in your heart as you offered up your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed those adopted as your own

I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king

Wearing my shoes of Gospel and Peace

When there is faith, there is hope. When there is faith, God will help us. And He will not desert us in our time of need. Tuesday. 2 hours. That's all that stands in the way to Sem 4. Sounds good. Looks good. More than ready this time, and the last practice tomorrow should cement everything.

Sundays have been like this lately. So much work to be done and everyone ends up tired by midday. Guess it's alright, staying at home and take some time off. Study. In fact I don't know what else to study anymore.

TV is so boring lately too. Except for the special Olympic channels which show some really nice history of the Olympics and all the classic action.

Time off

I was going to blog about something really cool and inspirational. And then it just totally slipped my mind. Climbed out of bed this morning at 6.30am cuz the gf has got futsal competition this morning. So accompanied her breakfast and walked her down. Then when I got back home I wasn't sleepy at all so decided to just loiter online while waiting for 10.30am later OSCE practice. Nothing online also really. Except for Jessica Alba.




Now before you think that I was looking for porn I wasn't, well not today and not now anyway. Just stumbled across her picture in Yahoo news and read more about it. Ah well. Back to reading then.

I really wanna go for a good movie with the gf. Or rather, just go out for a stroll, window-shopping; stuff like that. Guess they will have to wait. =(

Why do I feel that my fears are coming true?

HiJackThis is the program

Being a computer geek and a programming nerd sure has its advantages. Take my friend Ralph for example, who saved my laptop from spyware which couldn't be fixed with spybot or ad-aware or anything like that. Did it all the way from the UK as well that bugger. Top of his class in Uni of York doing computer science and software engineering. And to think we kept bullying him in secondary school, and the Malays didn't like him cuz he was half-Brit half-Chinese.

Just a word of warning - DON'T install any antivirus program that pops up, saying that it had run a free test on your PC and that it is not protected against the latest shit. Haha can't believe I fell for that. It was 1 in the morning!

Sounds familiar?

There I stood on Platform 1. Awaiting the train. The train of life. I'd bought the boarding ticket - a week early to avoid the rush - and now is the time. Quarter to 2. 2am that is. Managed to squeeze some sleep in the evening, or else I'll be dead now. I hastily finished off my food and banana and threw the remains on the floor. Not like it mattered over here in this city.

People were beginning to pour in. Like ants when their nest is destroyed. Mostly by us humans. Noise levels elevate and I have a hard time hearing the music from my Ipod. Heaving my bag over my right shoulder I shuffled to a nearby bench and collapsed onto it. Black market ticket sellers began to take over the place with their yelling, attempting to make quick money with counterfeits. I've always been puzzled over how the train conductor let the fake tickets through later during ticket stamping and collection, but that doubt was all but dispelled when I saw, with my own two eyes, the train conductor receiving a lump of money from the sellers.

Suddenly, beyond the bend of the track on the horizon, came a long piercing whistle. I squinted into the distance and saw a puff of smoke - the train is arriving. Right on time. I picked up my bag and made my way through the human sea in vain to get to the front of the queue. Within seconds the train screeched to a halt at the station. Ignoring the announcement for us to stand clear of the door, more people started to join the queue and a mini shoving contest ensued. Desperately I tried to push my way around those jokers to get to the train. The doors were already opening but no one seemed to be getting out of the train. The conductor was already bellowing out that the doors were closing in a few seconds - I must get in this time! It was then I saw a gap in the sea, and I rushed through it; I was going to make it after all. Then I tripped. People hurried past me without offering a hand. That's the way it is around here. Guess I would have done the same.

By the time I looked up the doors were closing and the horn was blown. I tried to pick myself up as fast as I can but I know the train doesn't wait for anyone, and before I knew it, it was gone, gone away from this forsaken land, gone to a place where the pastures were a sea of red, yellow and green, and where people can actually see the sun shining. I crumpled onto the ground in a heap of frustration and anger, annoyed by my incompetence. I wonder when the next train will come. Perhaps soon. Perhaps never. One never knows. Just have to prepared. I'll be ready the next time it comes by. And I'll be on that train, that train of life again.

Midnight arrival

Back in KL. This time around I'm not over-excited like I was before. I don't think it is because of the resit that much though. Just can't place my finger on the reason. Just feel very fatigued and lost at the moment.

Gf will be in KKB until Wednesday night. Had the first rounds of real OSCE practice this morning in the CSU room. Thought it went pretty good. Really wanna pass this time around. Now I can't even concentrate on helping my batch in trainings and banners and stuff.

Ahh I need to sleep. At 4pm.

Points

I'm sure everyone has heard of the quote, 'life, or something like it'.

I wonder, is mine life? Or just something like it?

Brunei has been just fine. Helping mum out with the business while studying. And watching movies heh heh. Going out to watch The Dark Knight later with my family. Should be good. Wouldn't it be creepy though to watch Heath Ledger's performance as The Joker? Yea.

Flight back to KL is just around the bend. Hope the Anwar arrest hasn't caused too much trouble in M'sia. WTF right. Human beings are such an impossible species.

Reporting from across the sea

Back in Brunei. Slow as ever. Only bad thing is having to spend the hols time studying for OSCE resit. Ah well. Heading back to KL on the 20th july cuz I've already booked the CSU rooms and lecturer for practice.

Birthday is tomorrow. Turning 20 heh. It's been a long and winding road that's for sure, but I'm defintely looking forward to the future. =)

Starting to miss the gf as well now. Haih.

How's everyone there in KL?

5.55pm later

Going back to Brunei later this afternoon. Have this strange hollow feeling....I have no idea how to describe it. Having to resit my OSCE certainly has put a dent in my holidays, and not only that but I'll have to face my parents.

When should I come back here? Resit is on the 29th. 20th? Too early? Too late? Yea maybe 20th is fine. I'm only leaving for 10 days then.

Managed to watch both 'Made of Honor' and 'Wanted' yesterday at Mid-valley and Pavilion respectively. Seriously thought that 'Wanted' was much better.

Having a mini mock OSCE later with the CSU doctor.

I want to scream out loud but then it makes no difference.

Pre-birthday

With the disappointment behind me, I picked Geowin up from his place and we went to church together to redeem ourselves and look for some answers. And I think we found them. Or I did anyway. Everything that happens God has a reason, and I totally accept that. We just have to keep going and God will be with us.

After church we went to this restaurant/bar at Sunway called the Borneo Rainforest. Chialee and Sean already bought the birthday cake and they wanted to surprise me, so they asked Geo to stall me, which he did horribly haha.

We were waiting at the front of the waterfall area.....

Me: What we waiting here for? Though they are in front of the big screen? *points to the screen at the other end*
Geo: Just chilling dude. Wanna see what they do here.
Me: -__- ok I go see if they are there.

Come on la bro, you can act better than that haha even as a cripple. So this is the birthday cake that they bought for me. Strawberry ice cream cake. Heh. Thanks guys for the cake. And the present! Which is a Nike jersey. It's in the washing so I can't take a picture.


However the only thing we ate was pizza. And we drank cocktails. Oh and shisha. Hogged by Cheekin.



Then we went into Euphoria!! Malaysia's first super club! Though I am underage. Heh heh. Though they played dance and house music throughout the night it was find I guess.

Passed the theory.

Failed the OSCE.

Not fun. So unexpected. Never once did I worry about the practical. Stand alone paper some more. The only good thing is that I will be much better in OSCE in the future. And that I only resit one paper.

I can feel my apex beat.

This is the worst feeling ever; half happy with no exams, half whacked-out nervous due to results tomorrow. 10am. I should have more faith I guess.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out.

Pray the Lord bless me with a pass/good result.

I hate suspense.

Errrbody in the club get tipsy

2 more days till the results for the EOS comes out. Couldn't be more nervous though I try not to show it. Definitely do not want to fail and resit. Why OSPE, why?!

Tickets back to Brunei already booked and bought. Heading back there on the 9th of July. And back here again on the 1st of August. 1 month without the gf. Better than 2 months I guess huh. Currently reading 'The Count of Monte Cristo', the classic by Alexandre Dumas. Zakhir came over last night to practice his OSCE with me, and he commented that we don't have time at all to read any other books other than medical journals and books. How true. How I miss the times when I used to just read fiction and literature everyday.

This new Vanessa Hudgens' album 'Identified' actually have songs that are not bad, considering that all other songs nowadays are crap. Just didn't expect it to be this good haha. (My expectations are quite low) Worth downloading, let alone buying the original album.

And Chialee, there is age limit for Euphoria! Well according to Karmen anyway. So how? -_- The website is damn cool though. http://www.euphoria.com.my/