Milkshake

I just want this exam to be over with. Seriously. It is such an annoying thing, keeps harping on my mind. Can't wait to be free, hit the clubs for a night, wake up late (and I mean late) for a change, go out with the gf and maybe Genting with friends.

And maybe then I can enjoy orientation properly heh. Especially since I am an infiltrator and all. Now I want to have fun and fool around acting like a semester 1 student also cannot.

I don't want to fail. Somehow my brain seems to be unable to comprehend the magnitude of this task ahead of me. Cardio and Respi?! Not easy. So why am I still in a chilled out mood?

Sick bastard.

Rewind that

Vantage Point.

A very brilliant idea on how to make a 30min+ event into a 1.5hour movie. Quite ingenius actually. Should watch it, i recommend it anyway haha. And I think the gf quite likes it too.

Exams in a little more than a week. My oh my. Thank goodness I started during the holidays though I can barely remember the details. But I guess it's better than nothing.

I miss Sem 1 freedom. Clubbing almost every other week. And just going out watching movie after movie and playing Dota and games and just lazing around.

Suddenly getting emo. Pitiful. God has a reason for everything I guess. Hmmm. Hmmm. Hmmm.

Words are screaming

I was reminded today how there is still so much to learn and realize in this world. Don't ask what the experience was, 'cause it is personal. I just wonder, "What if". All the previous decisions that I had made in the past, be it the distant or recently, all are pointing me in this direction that I am heading. As if my head isn't already troubled enough by studies and the bloody expensive bills, but now I have daily dilemmas. Dilemmas due to my choices. Wondering if I had made the right decision all this time.

What's the reason. What's the point. Life is already too short.

We can't jump the track, we are like cars on a cable.
Life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
These mistakes you make you'll just make them again,
If you don't see that it causes so much pain.

10.41pm

Smoke your daily cigarettes to keep your head in the game (and studies).

6.37pm

BORED.

Roll it.

So the gf is gone for a week. Tonight going out with friends for dinner. Chilli's somehow always bring out the closeness is us. Time to catch up on the 2 months that we were away also I guess.

And my housemate just came up with an idiom, 'When the birds fly too high they are bound to be shot by a hunter', just after we were discussing about how we are plotting to beat our batchmate in the upcoming exam, since he got an A (apparently) the last time out (and we don't believe it). Haha joker...what kind of idiom is that?

Anyway, this is what the gf made for me when she was bored after her EOS haha. =)

Cute is't it? It's a dice! With pictures of what we can do if we are bored. Heh heh.

Memory is a blessed thing.

Like I forgot totally that this morning was the NBA All-Star game I had been waiting for the whole year every NBA season. Fuck.

Aih I am tired. Calf hurts. Cramp. Brain also cramp. No information retaining in it. Kind of pissing me off.

I really should find the time to catch up with some of my friends. Maybe I will this week, maybe I wouldn't, looking at my study and task list.

Clinicky wicky-nicky

Aih CSU tomorrow morning. So unthinkable at the moment when I just want to spend the day and night talking to the gf and not worrying bout waking up early tomorrow or anything. Some more have been waking up super early for the last 2 days.

Finally had a hair cut today. Couldn't stand the jungle of a hair anymore.

Studies are non-existent. And yes I know that though I had read CVS once over the hols it is not good enough. Sigh. Then shouldn't have wasted time studying then. Rarr. After all I forget more than I remember what I 've read. Boohoo.

ANTIHYPERTENSIVES!!!!

lovecrumbs, a haikee

today i woke up at 530am and then i went back to sleep.
then i woke up at 10am, and to my surprise!

the bed was wet!
there were long hairless creatures!
everywhere!
including my nasal hair.

went shopping yesterday.
finally!
bought nail polish kit and almond oil for dead skin.
not to forget pink grapefruit juicy lip balm!
ah! heaven!
forbids!
i even bought
rosy fragrances.
and a wonderful flowery black cap.

lovecrumbs!
she wants apple but i cannot grant it to her.
chocolates and cards.
perfect gift for a crumby friend.
saturday.
where are the questions that have no answers :<
where are the youthful dreams.
the green meadows and butterfly.
the labyrinth that we are all trapped in!
spiderwebs and witches in showers!

brew brew brew
lovecrumbs!

HLF = hypertensive lipoproteinemia factor-1?

so,
anyone know what HLF is?
(answer will be revealed at the end of this post)

HLF = hurt like fuck
(yep this is the end of the post)
(never say i am mysterious did i?)
(but i am)
(now you all know me better)

Getaway

Feels just like any other day. The fact that it is indeed Valentine's Day somehow isn't helping the way I thought it might. Just feeling a little down and lost. And wondering what to do. Yea the studies are piling up and I feel no pressure to do any work. Maybe it's just the weather.

I need another holiday. To clear my mind of things. To re-focus. Just want to feel less confused and jumbled-up in the head. This person that I am right now is just so unlike who I really am.

Hawaii anybody?



But I have to agree, 2008 is rather looking better after all. Hopefully this will last. And suddenly the thought of my In-Course Assessment is less than a month away. Crap crap crap.

back....again

Welcome home to Msia and IMU and studying. Feeling very tired and aching everywhere lately, just so very lazy to do anything but sleep, eat and sleep. Having enlarged lymph nodes as well. Just hope I can get better when her EOS ends.

Really want to play bball as well. Maybe it's this unhealthy lifestyle of no exercise. Rarr.

But then again, in-course assessment is in less than a month and everyone started studying already. So I should stop lazing around and do some serious studying. Hmmm.

CNY

Happy Chinese New Year 2008 to all!

Uni life resumes in 3 days, and though lectures are sometimes a bore, I really want to get back. My brain has been stagnant for far too long.

This is the longest 3 days ever. Damn. And for once I am really lagging behind in the movie/cinema section. Haven't been watching anything since January. Catch up when I get back? Or maybe not.

R.I.P

I hate this blogger post page. WHY CAN'T I LOAD PICTURES?!! Everytime got fucking error on page.

But anyway, my cat is dead. I was going to post a super-cute pic of it but wat the heck.

Dear Ginger,

May you rest in peace. I've raised you up since you were a kitten 2 years ago, I've scolded you, fed you, seen you catch and mutilate a bird, ran around like a maniac, climbed the thorny lime tree, had thorns stuck in your paws and had to pull them out for you while you meowed in pain. You have also made the neighbour's female cat pregnant 3 times you horny bastard. Great job I must say =)

You were my companion thru the good times and the hard times. When there wasn't anyone to talk to, you would rub your head against my leg. When I went thru the breakup, you sat there in silence staring at me not making a fuss of me feeding you late (maybe because you have stole food by tearing the rubbish bag you pig). When mum scolded me and I storm out of the house, you would walk around my ankles trying to trip me up telling me not to leave.

The world that you are leaving isn't the best place, so may you have a better and easier life in cat Heaven. Thank you for all the times and memories Ginger.

Love,
Jon your grateful owner and friend

For God's sake

So many things to put down, but words are just failing me at the moment. Again. Seems to happen quite often lately. Just feeling blank; my mind has gone stale and stagnant thanks to the excellent use of 2-month hols. Though it sucks, I can't wait to get back to studying in a pressured (or not) environment a.k.a IMU library. At least then I will feel the need and urge to actually read the crap. Here all the drug names just glaze across my eyes.

So hurry up 6 more days??! Shouldn't be this long! Need to go out with friends again, need to feel the freedom, need the gf. Brunei just turns me into a monster thanks to its boredom. Though she says baby monster is cute. What the. Hahaha.

Finally February

The world is indeed a superficial place to live in. Life is over-rated. Some people may go as far as saying love is over-rated as well. I just hope that that will not be the case at all.

After all, love can conquer all. Or can it?

So yea. Gearing up for CNY. My fingers are sore as hell, and my palm is well, getting better i think. I just wonder why some people just can't take the initiative to help out those in need. Rarr. Pisses me off so much. I ain't complaining. It does me a whole lot of good anyway. Builds character, as Calvin's Dad will say (from Calvin 'n' Hobbes).

A better month, perhaps?

Splat.

Human after all.

You know how things accumulate? And then it stores up inside of you until it becomes un-ignorable, like a snowball effect. You try to ignore and forget it, but it remains. Why can't we just have a rewind/erase button in our memory. It will make everything so much easily. Though life would then be boring and predictable.

Silence is golden, I know, but it doesn't make sense.

Baby,

Thanks for always being there for me =)

With the Chinese New Year approaching I have to start cleaning house again and putting up the deco cuz i am the only one tall enough to reach the ceiling and stuff like that. i guess it's one of those disadvantages. Ah well.

Happy CNY in advance to all then!

Just have to make the most out of the remaining days left here in Brunei, and try to be happy. Yep, try to be. Try try try. How hard can a person try? I don't know myself, i seem to be running out of ideas and the will to try.

And congrats to my sis on her O-level results. She did it all without my help hahaha.

Aih, every cloud has its silver lining, let's hope mine shows soon.

Spree

Rollercoaster of emotions for the past 2 days or so. Just feel so under-appreciated at times. So much so that I wish I am cold-blooded enough to go on a killing spree and murder the entire neighbourhood. But I am not. And I wouldn't. Arghhhh.

Come on, it's only 13 days left!!

Wisecracks

Oil prices still on the rise. 2008 is set to be hit by another recession. War in the middle east still goes on. North Korea continues secret tests on nuclear weapons. Osama and the Al-Qaeda still active and on the run. Hunger continues to kill millions all over the world when the rich are constantly wasting tonnes of edible food. Average tempearture of the Earth is rising and not going to stop. More and more species are becoming endangered, including the homo sapiens if we don't stop bloody rioting and killing each other.

What so great about a new year that we have to celebrate and waste money on then? Just a tradition, or is it actually worth it? Same shit another day perhaps?

Maybe I'm just too bored at home.

And i miss the gf. Hmm.