2008

Back in Brunei. And it is New Year's Eve. hahaha. somehow there is an irony somewhere in that sentence but i cant figure it out. The brain of mine just is not functioning of late. Just tired i guess. I just cant wait to see the gf again. Recharge my energizer bunny batteries haha. Aih. Hols are sickening. Plus I got my stupid COP to do this week before i go to Msia on the 6th, and then the 3000 word report. Ring in the New Year 2008 in style.

Yea and sorry no pics of HK or China, just too tired and bummed out to load them. And as usual the net is too fucking slow.

Let me go home.

Not too early i think

It dawned upon my simple mind that important days and events in your life become so much more meaningful and important if you actually have someone else to celebrate it with you. Your parents. Siblings. Relatives. Maybe even business partners. Loved ones.

I used to treat Christmases and birthdays as just another day to get gifts and whatever you want. However since this year I resolved to look at things from a different perspective (yea yea it was my New Year's resolution thing) and hey, I guess it is so much better. Birthdays have become a day of real joy and surprises and getting your head dunked in not one, but two cakes after ppl have come knocking on my door at midnight. Thanks guys. =) And this Christmas I was really looking forward to it since I am now fully back in the path of the Lord, and I wanted to celebrate it in all its glory with that someone special in my life. I guess that would just have to wait until next year then.

With Christmas and New Year's all coming up, I really thought that this year was brilliant. For me. Maybe not so much for the world with protests, global catastrophies, the Darfur incident and so many other unfortunate events occurring. Perhaps it is time to really look into ourselves, not only as individuals, but also as a colony of homo sapiens. Maybe world peace isn't ever going to work out. Maybe there will always be war and fighting. Maybe the world is coming to an end. But then it never did hurt to try before, and I guess it wouldn't hurt to try and wish and pray again. Who knows, there might still be hope for us. God didn't cause all these disasters, we inflicted them upon ourselves. Such is life.

But hey, I am an optimistic fool, so these things wouldn't bring me down. I have my lovely gf to go back to next year in February, hopefully January, so the year ahead still looks as good as before. Plus a whole new year in IMU to try to do some good and make some changes. I don't know why I am posting this now, but it doesn't matter.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone in advance!

daisy daisy

Warlords watched. I think the director had some idea that the movie had to be as gory and violent as possible for it to be a good movie. Close enough. Relatively one of the better movies i have watched.

Oh and ManUtd 1-0 Liverpool.

Liverpool = cunt team number 1.

and i have survived 2 weeks in Brunei. Another 2 more weeks to go till the end of December. I hope I can still remember how to life hectic and as a med student when i get back. Cuz the life here is moving as fast as a snail.

Anyone who wants me to get anything for them (reasonable items except for the gf who is free to request) in China/HK pls do let me know? I'll do my best to get them for ya...=) No promises.

Brunei says hello

So Christmas is coming. The birth of Jesus. In all its glory. Though not celebrating it in Msia with all my relatives, gambling and playing cards, it should be fun in China. I hope. And HK too. The urge to splurge for this festive period is just so damn strong haha. Hey it is after all good for the economy of the world's banks too isn't it. Just doing my part as a citizen of this glorious world.

Right.

Other than that, nothing much goes around here, no sir. Unless you wanna noe about CVS. Blood flow to the upper and lower limbs notes are such a pain in the gluteus maximus. So is the usual patho. Hmmm. New movies also not up to standard. Golden Compass and I Am Legend do not warrant a second watch from me. I might not even watch it if it wasnt for the special effects and Will Smith. And Nicole Kidman. Hope that Warlords (which my dad of all ppl insists on watching soon) and National Treasure 2(the 1st one was brilliant) would be good and not waste my B$7.

Numb

Numbed by emotions.

It feels like a giant wave crashing down on me.

Again and again.

No matter how i try to stay afloat, it pulls me down. Drags me away from shore. But it is then I remember that there is my God, who is greater than all my problems. And I believe again. That we'll be able to make it thru this hell that is 2 months.

And no dear, I wouldn't give you up. I can only hope you feel the same bout me. Everybody is like breaking up and stuff, and I don't want that to happen. Not to us. Ok?

I hate this hols.

< 2 left

My baby finished her minor exam just now. And called me and told me it was good. =)

I am still and will be bored in Brunei. The only thing I can take heart from is the fact I am going to HK/China in a week's time, and that there is less than 2 torturous months left. Whoopee. =D

And this stupid business of barring and un-barring postpaid phones is really getting on my nerves. Rarr. I mean, if it is still barred by next week, how am I supposed to keep in contact with her in HK? I wouldnt be bringing my laptop either, so no internet. Sighhh.

hope

We made it thru 3 months. I am damn happy that we did. =)

Though it was a turbulent past few days. I honestly hope we can just keep going till i get back in February. Then it will all be ok. Sigh.

These are hard times indeed, but i believe.

3rd on 11th

Brunei is boring. No updates. Parents had major arguement. Now are good.

Later watching Enchanted with my sister's friends. Just to remind myself of my gf more. Hmm. How sad.

Our 3 months coming soon. =) It will really be better if i were there, but...sigh. Just ave to make do.

I still thank God everyday for you. For bringing you into my life. For everything you have done for me and we have done together. I love you.

Back in time

Went back to my Sixth Form college, JIS, this morning, took some pictures of it. There were some changes, and all the teachers remembered me. Nice. And now most likely my sister is going there too. It's an international school, so yea.

The 'front yard' where we assemble during fire drills. Gate at far end is entrance.

The Maths & Tech block

Inside the compound - the swimming pool is shaded

And indeed I still miss my baby more than ever =(

Live updates

I am celebrating Xmas in China. Not HK. Though I am going to both places. Hmm seems weird celebrating Xmas in a country primarily full of Chinese and Buddhists. Ah well. It might still be fun. And chatting through gmail is strange. But hey, if that's the only way i can talk to her, then so be it. =)

Anyway Brunei is still as dead. CVS is a bitch. I'm just studying in hope that the days will be less painful and pass more quickly. 66 more days.

What fun.

Is there seriously nothing else to do here in Brunei other than study my bloody CVS notes? Goodness. Ok so I'm going to make a new pair of specs (baby what colour?) and cut my hair soon before going off to HK, but that is in weeks. Oh and maybe I might be popping by KK with mum and Jayne as mum has business there. So I'm gonna crash at Dom's place most likely. Good fast internet here I come. Can't stand dial-up here in Brunei. Selfish dad. Rarr.

And I am trying very damn hard to try to concentrate on my studies and enjoying my hols but all I can do now is miss her so very badly. Aih. Never thought that my end-of-year hols would be this dull and sad. And never thought I need to force myself to enjoy hols. Amazing.

Ah well. CVS notes look quite interesting when put into perspective actually. Plus I have the ever amazing Papa Patho. Oh yes ladies and gentlemen, it is looking to be a holiday full of excitement and joy and fun and shit.

Bollocks.

Boring.

Well, my first post back in Brunei. Nothing new, as usual.

I miss my gf. And I can't show any emotions. How shite isn't it.

So I am going to read my CVS notes (yes I am such a sad person, but there's nothing bttr to do), and then watch House later at 10pm.

I hope I can sleep tonight, seriously.

Be strong now....who am I kidding?

It has to come to this. I knew it; we all did. And now the clock strikes 11.30am, and I know that time is short. My flight is at 5.30pm, and I am leaving at 3pm or so.

God knows I am going to miss her.

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Not what I want

How did I pass with an F for SAQ? How DID I get an F for SAQ?? I honestly thought I did badly for that paper, but an F is just way too ridiculous and impossible to get even if I tried. Maybe I should file an investigative report thing to the uni's admin.

Life is full of decision-making. And yea I know that everyone here knows that too, it's just that sometimes there are just harder ones to be made. When is it that a decision becomes ethical or not? When does one decide to pull the plug or not? Is a lie always bad? Is it sometimes acceptable to tell a white lie? Lately my mind has just become numb thinking about these things, and coupled with other issues, I feel like I'm going crazy. Fear. Worries. It is difficult to even say what is on my mind. Some people will get affected and offended and so on and so forth. So eventually, we all just shut up and become mindless parrots of the society.

I was thinking just the other day about the things for me to do during my holidays. Studying was the first thing that popped into my mind. Then came the HK trip. Then during all of this I became more and more aware that I am going through all this without her. Yea the hols will still be fun with my family and all, maybe some of my friends are coming back from overseas, but it just wouldn't be the same. Wouldn't be the same at all.

So many things to do, so little time. Ah time. Good old time. Who waits for no man. If only I can stop time, or buy time. If only. And speaking of lack of time, I'm having a difficult time deciding which other movie, other than Enchanted, to watch. Stardust? Beowulf? Hitman? Orang Minyak?? Paris Hilton's hidden sex tapes??! Tough tough decisions to be made.

Collective sigh

Passed.

Thank God. I really do.

I guess sometimes it takes the worst moments in life to make you really see that the world is indeed a beautiful place to be in. I've never felt this thankful/lucky/blessed before in my life. To say that I am relieved will be a down-right understatement.

4 more days!

=(

Don't fail

Results out in 2.5hours. And I am nervous like never before.

All the times before I was worried that I will not get the A or highest mark or something. Now I just hope and pray to God that I can pass.

Mistakes. The meaning of humble. All learnt.

It ain't easy

No resits for the OSPE paper. However results out tomorrow though. I just want to pass. I don't think I did well at all this EOS, so as long as I pass and get through this, I'll be happy. Please God just let me pass. Then we can all go to Shogun and have a nice birthday celebration for Dom - which incidently is the last meal we will all eat together before the long holidays. Which I come to detest more and more each passing minute. And watch Enchanted with her.

Weeee

Went clubbing after a very very long time last night. Elaine got drunk as usual. And I, for once cuz my girlfriend was there too, got more than just a little high. I think I slept the entire journey back home to her place. It's the first and probably the last time I'll get this high. Or drunk. Whatever. But it was a fun night.

And we are supppose to know if we were to resit our OSPE paper today. Probably very soon. I sure hope for the sake of all the people who didn't bring their phones we don't resit. I don't want this to disrupt my holidays either.

7 more days. Sigh.

Happy 22nd...

It is Elaine's birthday tomorrow and being Elaine we are celebrating it at Mystique (a club if you must know) at about 11pm later tonight. Supposedly I was expected to reach there earlier, say 10.30pm but then I'm having to attend another party at Shah Alam with my girlfriend. So both of us stayed up till about 4am yesterday/today - depends on how you see time - to make the cards.

The front

What's inside

Yep and being the joker I am, the whole card was just random stuffs pasted together to form more randomness. Ahh the genius.