Heart break

Can't believe with all the TV and internet and PSP and car, I am bored. As in really bored. Plus it is my last week of holidays before my Sem 5 starts, so I am trying to refrain from studying at the moment.

Maybe I should take a late night drive around. But it is Tuesday. And there is nothing around. Pfft.

Luckily for me I don't slip easily into depression.

Stop the blood trade

Good morning, this ain't Vietnam still
People lose hands, legs, arms for real
Little was known about Sierra Leone
And how it connects to the diamonds we own
When I speak of diamonds in this song
I ain't talking bout the ones that be glowin'
I'm talking bout RocAFella, my home, my chain
These ain't conflict diamonds, is they Jacob? Don't lie to me man!
See, a part of me sayin' keep shinin'
How? When I know of them blood diamonds
Though it's thousands of miles away
Sierra Leone connects to what we go through today
Over here, it's the drug trade, we die from drugs
Over there, they die from what we buy from drugs
The diamonds, the chains, the bracelets, the charmses
I thought my Jesus piece was so harmless

'till I saw a picture of a shorty armless

And here's the conflict.

Kanye

"If you admire somebody, you should go head and tell em',
People never get the flowers, while they can still smell em'." - Kanye West

"I'm not a businessman, I'm a business, man." - Jay-Z

On a separate note, Happy 16 months to us!

Haha it works

Stupid

Just came back from Sanctuary. And got raided by the police. And Aaron was drunk and sleeping while Jimmy, Kim, Ghi Waie and Ru Fah (of all people haha) got detained inside the club with 100 others to have their urine samples taken and tested.

I sneaked out with the others haha.

Tu lan. What a waste. Just when we had enough to drink and got a table on the fucking crowded night and just got into the dance mood.

Hear the guitar weep

Watching this video and listening to this song actually made me cry. As in teared. Wait for the guitar solo towards the last 2 minutes of the song. Mannnnnnnnnnnn.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4O_YMLDvvnw

Gary Moore - Still Got The Blues

Use to be so easy
To give my heart away
But I found that the heartache
was the price you have to pay
I found that that love is no friend of mine
I should have known time after time

So long
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

Use to be so easy
Fall in love again
But I found that the heartache
It's a road that leads to pain
I found that love is more than just a game
Play and to win
but you lose just the same

So long
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

So many years since I saw your face
You will my heart
there's an empty space
Used to be

(SOLO)

So long
it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you

Golden days come and go
There is one thing I know
I've still got the blues for you.

Shiny sun

Well. A week into 2009 and so far so good. Hasn't been particularly interesting or exciting, just that nothing bad has happened yet. On the final few days of my Sem 4 rotations. Can't wait to go out this weekend, since by then the gf would have finished her EOS. I shall start worrying about my Sem 5 later. Soon.

Why are we given classes on ethics? Ethics is best learnt through wide reading of newspapers and reading forums and analyzing and discussing issues with others. The class is always too quiet and conservative over in this part of the world anyway, so might as well just talk about it among ourselves right? After all there is no right or wrong in ethics; just what you think is the best or right decision. Plus it is unethical to force us to go for the classes as it is against our human rights haha.

Yea I'm just bored and looking for something to think and blog about.

2009

Happy New Year 2009! May it bring lots of joy, happiness and world peace. Yeah why not.

My 2008 in review:

1) Celebrated 1 year with the gf on 11th September 08.

2) Turned 20.

3) Spain won Euro 08 with Torres scoring the only goal in the finals against Germany.

4) Man Utd beat Chelsea on penalties in Champions League Finals!! Wooooo!

5) Lee Chong Wei lost to Lin Dan in the finals of Men's Singles badminton of the Beijing Olympic Games. Lost terribly too.

6) Beijing Olympic Games.

7) IMU Cup! Still think we could've won basketball.

8) Successfully finished 2 years of medical uni. Lots more to go.

9) Malaysian Opposition Party won the majority of the seats for the first time.

10) Ate a lot of mamak food and got fatter.

11) Obama won the election race to be the next President of the US, becoming the first black president of USA.

12) Federer doesn't seem invincible anymore.

13) Gf's house broken into, thus hastening the installation of alarm and CCTV.

There are probably lots more that I didn't manage to cover in this list (obviously, there are only 13 here), but those are the important ones to me. Didn't make any resolutions this year. Don't have a wish-list kind of thing either. And my flight back to KL is later tonight, and the gf's birthday is tomorrow!

Bring on Sem5 I say.

Storm

This is for the gf. Sing it to yourself, and everything will be alright.

How long have I been in this storm?

So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form

Water's getting harder to tread

With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you

Everything would be all right

If I could see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And everything will be all right

And everything will be all right

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown

So why am I ten feet under and upside down

Barely surviving has become my purpose

Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you

Everything would be all right

If I could see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And everything will be all right

And everything will be all right

Broadband where art thou?

I said it once and I'll say it again; Brunei is boring.

Other than that, nothing new. Sis studying like mad for her A-levels. Mum busy with her business. Not sure about dad though haha. I'm sure the gf is stressed out in M'sia. =( Poor her. I hope I can get her a b'day present that she likes.

And this internet is (as usual) killing me. It's too fast! -_-

Good ole Further Math

I miss doing Mathematics.

It is difficult when people have a difference in opinion, especially in a group or an organization or a relationship. This only gets worse when the other person somehow always refuses to give in and cooperate just for the sake of making things easier and more fun for everyone else. Why can't we all make a little self-sacrifice every now and then?

White Xmas

Had the first day of GP postings today. The doctor was a nice enough man, so Chloe didn't have to use her 'charms' to try to persuade the doctor to let us leave early. It ended up to be pretty interesting. Not to mention it came with the free lunch thanks to the doc. 4 more days to go then.

Heading back to Brunei this Saturday. Not really looking forward to it mainly because Xmas there is non-existent. Bet I mentioned this last year too. Sigh. But there isn't a choice so I guess have to follow my family's wishes. One week wouldn't be too long I suppose.

Haven't really been feeling well lately. The stomach and the intestines are having a war down there, and my ulcer is as usual taking its own sweet time to heal. On a separate note, the gf is going to have her ICA this Friday haha. Stressed.

This medical life thing is no joke. Pffft.

KKB to Earth...oh wait

Greetings from the cybercafe in KKB.

Which I just helped to install MSN. And Edward can't save the files in a pendrive as the computers doesn't have a USB port. And my desktop monitot is occupying more 3/4th of the desk space.

Yea modernisation is rampant in these areas.

comic time

Weekends are arriving. The year 2008 is almost over. (?!!) And the gf's dad and sis are all coming back soon again early next year for CNY. Wow. Just seemed like yesterday when they were all around for this year's CNY. -_- Father Time needs to take a chill pill. I can only hope that 2009 will be a good year as well. It will be a big year for me; with Sem 5 and the prospect of heading overseas for Phase 2 of my medical life. Kind of freaked out by it and exhilarated at the same time. Just hope that we can all make it.

Already preparing what kind of resolutions I should make for next year. I guess there are many things that I can do to change or make myself a better person but laziness is always getting in the way.

Fridays aure are fun. And lazy. Lazy lazy lazy.

The gf is studying away in the library for her ICA and EOS. It's a mixture of proud and pity I think. Haha. =p

Film

Waited and waited in agony for 3pm to come today. It was the time which the result for the ICA is to be released. Most of my friends and I were waiting and then someone came and told us that the result has already been sent to us over email - that was at 2.45pm - but most of us were too scared to check it and decided to wait another 15mins haha.

Then it was time. Got in the queue, said my ID number, got the slip, and started tearing along the perforated edges. Scared shitless, I slowly opened the paper. B+. Thank God. It was then I found out that no one failed anyway. So yea.

Ok, off to MidValley!

Of birds and trees

Been writing more than usual lately. Not on this blog though. Rather it is thanks to the literature selectives that I am taking. They are kind of fun, but it is weird seeing lecturers who one day are teaching you about the recurrent laryngeal nerve and how cutting it can result in a hoarse voice, and the next day they are discussing narratives and blank-verse poems with you. Takes a bit of getting used to I suppose.

Gf busy studying for her big EOS in early January. All the nice movies coming out though haha. Having troubles deciding which university to put as my first choice PMS. Everytime I think that is the university I want to put down, another one that seems better pops into the picture. Annoying. Anyway so far it is Glasgow, then Liverpool then Southampton. Hopefully I can get into one of those.

Wanna play football. Been playing futsal and it just ain't the same. Sigh. But over here there are no free fields like in Brunei. Plus unlikely there are people who would want to play outdoors now that it is raining like mad every evening all the way till midnight. Ahh open field!!

Intricacy I adore you

Just a few updates I guess. Literature selectives have been going on fine. It's always fun and a nice change to do something different and something I have always loved doing. Had a futsal kick-about in the evening with my Sem 5 friends. It's good to be sweating out and doing sports again instead of being couped up at home in front of the laptop and the other radiation producing magic-box watching House re-runs and Sportscenter.

Argh my laptop is too slow. So frustrating to play games on it. Though it has only occured lately. Hope it isn't a worm again. Those things are the devil.

Can't believe I was stoning in the exam hall just now during OSPE. Damn. I feel so useless, feel like I am brain dead. Can barely recall facts, or think quickly like how I used to. Maybe I am getting old.

I don't know who my friends are anymore. I know people have their own choices and all, but come on, don't just ignore people you acknowledge as one of your closest friends a few weeks/months ago. Ah well guess everyone has their own ways and right to choose. Forget it.

Guide to nowhere

Haven't been updating my blog in a long time. Laziness is one thing. Boredom is another. And then of course, there is the tiredness from studying for the ICA on next Friday. Not detached from the world though thank goodness. Gerakan VP 'fell' to his death just a few days ago. And just 2 nights ago an Indonesian maid 'jumped' off the 17th floor of Vista Komanwel C1 to her death. This reminds me of the suicide in Vista B last year when I was in Sem2, and I remembered discussing this in the library e-lab (the old one, with the bottom floor dungeon thing that was so nice to study in) with Ding Yang and the seniors.

On a brighter (?) note, Mr Barack Obama wil soon be known as President Barack Obama of the USA. Well let's just hope that he'll do what he said he'll do, cuz his speeches were sure as hell impressive but all talk and no work is, well, bush-shit. There are so much to report about local politics and such but I'll keep my mouth shut. I can do with no jail time in my record.

Planning on watching Quantum of Solace tomorrow. I need a break from all the tumours and suppressor genes. And physiology arghh. Utterly disgusting section. Hope it's a good movie though I don't fancy this new Bond. Too human I guess. Too cold, humourless and thuggish. But it's Bond nonetheless, hopefully the action scenes are good.