Thank goodness for games. And sitcoms and Family Guy to keep me going through the nights. No wonder depression rates are so high in the UK. Dark at 4pm, and then it starts to frost and snow. To make things worse, there is no cybercafes, no mamak and malls & shopping close at 6pm. Terrible shit.

People ask me how do I stand life in vista and IMU. Believe me, I would give anything to be back there again studying. Heck, maybe even Seremban. Ok maybe not, but you get my point. One of the good things here is supposed to be shopping, and even that it is so expensive compared to the US thanks to the ridiculous 18% tax on all items.

On the bright side....exams are over! Now just need to rearrange my portfolio into something half good, and get ready for my SSC report. On the not so bright side....really hope I can pass my OSCEs...damn OBGYN is totally not my thing. Give me paeds anyday.

yes this blog is still alive - barely

This has got to be the most useless blog at the moment. Left alone and ignored. Even didn't mention here that I've recently got myself a new laptop (above). And phone (also above). It isn't the Desire HD that I wanted partly due to a lack of funds and, well, I'll just flash this phone with the latest Android 2.2 and make it work till I get the Desire. Or Windows Mobile 7. Whichever.

Oh and OSCEs coming up in 2 weeks covering paeds and OBGYN.

Preparations are...I'm not sure how to describe them actually. I wouldn't say unprepared but...I just hope they wouldn't ask stupid questions. One of the seniors was asked to take a history from a stepdad and a boy, and the boy has been burning and kicking cats and stabbing hamsters. Fun isn't it. All in 7 minutes. Not exactly something you would want as your 1st station.

Kind of scared I suppose. Just looking to pass the OSCE which I suppose if you look at it shouldn't be that difficult but then who am I kidding. Sigh. Just wish that life can be easier right now.

One more month till December. C'mon c'mon c'mon.

hunny...

I wasn't perfect
I done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn't looking for forgiveness
I wasn't laid up by my pride
Just shocked by her attention

Did someone sign me up for love?
I didn't want it
But now I can't live without it

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She's kinda perfect
She's kinda everything I'm not
Yes, she's an angel
It's amazing how she's patient
Even more at times I'm not
She's my conscience

But who decided I'd be hers?
I want to hate them
Cause now I can't live without her

weekend away

Went to Bath over the weekend to help my sis pack up as she is moving back to Malaysia to start a course in medicine instead. It was a good break from Preston plus Bath is such a pretty place as well.

 

Some of the pictures taken with my phone. Not that great but I was too lazy to bring along my camera heh. The last picture, if you look closely, says Gay Street. I know, I am immature, but whatever it's worth a laugh ahaha. 

And then I realized, though I've been to places and many different areas of the world, the one thing that I've been longing for is still you baby. There is nothing more I would want than to head back to KL to be by your side.

And yes, 27 :)

Put your head against my life
What do you hear?
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year

Close your eyes but don't forget
What you have heard
A man who's trying to say three words
The words that make me scared

A million love songs later
Here I am trying to tell you that I care
Million love songs later
Here I am, here I am
Million love songs later
Here I am

skyflakes

It has been a month since I got back from KL and started paeds. Been feeling tired most days though have not been doing much on the whole. Weird.

Pyjama pubcrawl next week Thursday. To go or not to go hmmm. Sometimes I think I am too old for this shit.

In other news, Sacha Baron Cohen (yes that Borat guy) is due to play FREDDIE MERCURY in a biopic of the Queen legend. Wtf? But still, I will be on the watch for that movie. I love biopics.

I need to start reading more books. Non-medical books. I can feel my written English disintegrating into ashes, with all the online chat lingo and what-not. Lol. Rofl. Ffs, what has the world come to.

one and a half

People say long-distance relationships do not have happy endings. Looking back, sure there were bad times as well, but I have never felt more in love with you than I've been before. All we have now is looking at each other through the webcam, but just looking at you, I feel at peace. Calm and complete. Seeing your smile always brightens up my day (and night), and it is one thing that keeps me going. 

Strip me bare of all my money, gadgets & possessions, cuz all I want is you. As I sit in my room at nights while you are asleep, I just think how lucky I am to have someone like you waiting for me on the other side of the world. I know I'm blessed with something - someone - no one else will ever have, for you and I will be together for all sempiternity. 

I love you. Happy 18 months my baby.

Sometimes it is good to just turn on the music and blast it, letting my songs run on shuffle.

As our pictures run on my screensaver, I can only sit and wait and wonder how it will feel like to be having you in my arms again, to shield you from the world, to blanket you with love.

Been so tired of late. Jetlag, stupid timetable and most importantly being away from the gf is starting to weigh down on me. Just have to soldier on I suppose.

Recently purchased a new LCD TV and an Xbox360!! Wheeeee! Something I should've done last year. There will still be free time so I guess that's ok. Except for this weekend where I will be on-call Friday through until Sunday. My life is filled with fun.

Already planning the trip back to Malaysia in December. So pricey though sigh. I think I should just not buy any more items from now on till then. Survive on bread and sausages and cucumber + lettuce haha. Not as bad as it sounds actually.

Been quite busy of late and my mind is just occupied with stuff. Sorry baby if it seems like I've been ignoring you in any way, or that somehow you think that I'm not missing you. That's just plain nonsense. There is nothing more that I would rather do than just think about lazing with you on the beach on a sunny afternoon, or watch brainless comedies with you and have gorgeous food with you. It will all be worth it in the end ok? Just got to give it some time I suppose =\ I love you hunny.

just let me whine

I guess sometimes when you are in a routine, you get so used to it you just don't feel like leaving. Even in Brunei, in this house that I grew up in, with all food provided, cars to use and everything taken care of. It's the same feeling anywhere I suppose; while I was in the UK I felt quite reluctant to leave as well.

But of course you need to take into consideration some other factors as well. Friends. Family. Girlfriend. Right now, I just want to be in KL. In fact, 24 hours from now I will be on the plane across the South China Sea heading for KLIA.

To be honest, I am going to miss Brunei. Not the country, but my house and family. Everything just is so familiar, so carefree, and you can do (almost) anything you like. I have been away for almost a year but when your house is still the one place you can always relate to no matter which ends of the world you have been. Plus I still have so many more hours left on my gym membership card. The laziness of being in Brunei really sucks you in I suppose lol.

Right now thinking about heading back to the UK is pissing me off. Apart from fast internet and freedom and shopping, I can't think of why I would want to head back there. Studies. Ward rounds. PBLs. No car. No meals on the table for me when it is time. Fucking winter coming up. Disgusting food unless I cook. I don't normally mind or complain but oh well.

One more annoying thing is dealing with the house agent and landlord/lady. For fuck's sake. I never had a single day of disturbance from my landlord while I was in IMU. You rent it, you stay there, you do whatever you want. Just as long as you clean up before you finally decide to leave, all is fine. So what is up with these damn spot checks and shit. If I wanted all these routine checks and control I would've just asked my parents to come along and live with me. Obviously it is good to be organised and clean, but come on. The house is goddamn tidy enough for 3 guys living in it.

KL tomorrow. Honestly can't wait anymore. 4 days is a damn short time but I guess we just have to make do with what we've got. Shop. Eat. Cuddle. Good thing is that I get to see you right in the morning as I'm just a floor below you hehe. Wheeeee!

weekend headlines

I know I have not blogged in a long while, and for a good reason too. There isn't really much happening at the moment other than gym, helping mum and waiting to go back to KL to see my gf. 2 more days!! Brilliant to the max. Seriously cannot wait any more.

I posted this on my facebook wall as well, but I shall do it here too. Just because.

TRIAL RUN.

"Awang Hairul bin Shahri, Head of Retail Brunei Shell Marketing Sdn Bhd said the self-service approach would require customers to park by the petrol pump, go to the store and pay for the required amount."

WOW SERIOUSLY?! What amazing technology.

".....said that the move was also aimed at keeping up with international trends...."

Ok now this is getting embarrassing.

meetings

Met up with a few of friends since coming back to Brunei. Relived old times. Good times. Secondary school. International school/college years. In fact just got back from dinner with Aaron, Tiong, Ern & Amanda. Awesome chinese food. Better company though. Just so great to be with close friends again and laugh about the days.

I is missing the gf like mad. Sigh. 2 more weeks is just so so long to go. HURRY UP!!

rumble rumble

In Brunei already. Everyday I get reminders why I absolutely dislike coming back here.

1) no gf
2) slowest internet ever even with broadband wifi in my home
3) mum pissing me off constantly

The list goes on but you get the drift. Plus I'm just too lazy to type. I just cannot wait to get my freedom back, because this is just so very annoying. And people wonder why I don't like to return 'home'. Hah. If this is home I rather stay in KL for my whole holiday from now on, or even stay back in the UK where I can do my own shit.

Probably shouldn't write a post with such angst but oh well. Just 2 days of being back here and I already feel so couped up and controlled. Which sucks. To think that coming back here when I am 22 years old would eliminate this problem I've been having all my life. Guess I was wrong big time. Dad is great, no complains, but mum is on a whole different level.

Anywhobilly, friends are coming back either today or this weekend. Time to meet up. Sigh have no idea how much I miss being in KL and just going wherever I want and spending time with the gf everyday. Especially with the growingly busy schedule I just want to be by her side.

16th August. Then the 21st. Whatever date it is just get me out of here.

hip hip hoo-fucking-ray

This is the worst day. For any kind of holiday. The day that the fairytale ends and although you knew all along that it will happen, you are still not and probably never will be prepared for. As I took the KLIA Transit to the airport at 9.25am I thought back of yesterday, and how I was in the elab of IMU at 9.25am, thinking of where to go for lunch and getting ready to watch Inception. Now 24 hours later I am in the airport with no laptop charger (I checked it in yay), 1 more hour to go till the gate opens, and missing my baby so very much. You know how people always wish for money or good results or health or, for perverts and most guys, x-ray vision? I wish for time control and travel. Life will be awesome then.

Sigh.

If only time passes this fast in Brunei and in the UK. Especially in Brunei. Really cannot imagine what the heck I am supposed to do there. Life is never unfair in your favour, and more so when you need it even more.

Passed the arrival gates as I headed to the departure gates earlier, and my mind flashed to about 20 days ago when I arrived in KLIA, and she was there, waiting in the car in between Gates 1 & 2, starving heh. And we went to get McD burgers before heading home.

Life is not a bitch; time is.

bullshit

I guess this is the problem with going on a holiday and having so much fun. Time flies. Way too quickly. By tomorrow 2.30pm it would be exactly 2 weeks since I touched down in KLIA. Really? 2 weeks?? It sure doesn't seem like it. Ah I can't remember when was the last time I felt so complete. And happy. If days pass as fast as this in the UK I'll be thrilled.

Why did I not pick Seremban again? Oh yes the terrible state + mad exams + unnecessary stress. But still, closer to gf beats everything. Except maybe for summer sales in the UK. Now that I go shopping around KL there is nothing I want to buy as they are all so overpriced. Fcuk flip-flops priced as RM130, and I got mine from Kurt Geiger for only £8 (RM40) inclusive of delivery. Same goes to Topman/Topshop/Warehouse/Dorothy Perkins/Acessorize whatever British outlet they have here. All overpriced with no or low or outdated stock with no sale.

Just had dinner but feeling hungry already. How can a person spend a whole day with someone but still miss him/her at the end of the day. No logic, doesn't make sense, but it is happening.

I guess that is true for most things that are going on in the world anyway.

happy days

Been so tired lately especially after spending most of the days out with Jessica Alba. By the time I come home I can just fall asleep on the bed even with the lights on. Happened twice already.

Can't believe that a week has gone by. Sigh. Screw you Time.

My laptop now. Been messing around with numerous customization programs - Rainmeter, Rocketdock, CursorFX, WindowBlinds to name a few - and in the end settled for this. For now. Still not that happy with the dock hmm.

Full view click here

This is life

The past few days had been such a blast. Going around with the person I love, eating, hanging out, shopping, getting drunk...cuddling together under the blankets. Spending RM 466 on alcohol, cigar and pizza. Ouch to the max.

This is bad. I napped from 9pm till now 2am. Now what am I gonna do?? I can't go back to bed anymore shits.

22

Ah. Past the age of 21. Into adulthood.  Guess I should be happy and celebrating this momentous day. Can't be bothered though haha just become lazier and lazier with age. Terrible. It is as if I have turned 52 instead. It was a great year being 21, but it was a tumultuous one as well with LDR and what nots. Still, not going to complain but instead just going to improve for the year ahead and hope for even better stuff to happen.

Like ManUtd winning the Treble again. PLEASE.

And world peace.

And passing all my exams although I'm coming to a realization that it doesn't matter how much revision I do anymore; it is all about the OSCE examiners' moods on that day. And maybe what color shirt I am wearing, because they sure as hell are not marking us based on skills and knowledge.

A new beginning

Too damn tired to blog last night. I have no idea why but I just got home, lay on the bed, and was basically knocked out till 4am. Slept again till 7am and gave up. Went hunting for nasi lemak but couldn't find any within the vicinity. Upset.

So I went on Youtube watching random things, and I found this button on selected videos.

Jokers haha.

Heading out for breakfast soon with the baby. Hungryyyy!!

Day 31

Lazy to blog. Eyes are getting more and more tired. Just had a 14-hour flight from Manchester to Dubai and then onwards to Malaysia. Vanessa was happily sleeping away lucky biatch. I slept in patches and was constantly woken up by fake alerts that food was being served. Damn.

Just had chicken rice after a very long time and it was super awesome! But the company was better :) Felt so good to be back together with the mermaid and seeing her eyes light up as she opened her presents. Being back together with her again is the best thing that has happened to me over the last 6 months.

Love you bee!